Bipolar check-in #42

It's great to hear you are starting to feel better on Latuda.
I had such an amazing boost from Latuda initially, it gave me hope I had not experienced for many years!

I hope you experience a helpful boost and for a very long time!

I'm just home. Spent several hours at starbucks reading today. Peter showed up. I haven't contacted him for at least two weeks and have avoided him. He was really wearing me down mentally and triggering me. So today I was reading at sb totally engrossed in my book when I heard a laugh- his. He was at the counter ordering a drink. I ignored this and tried to continue with my book. I didnt look up but I think he stood next to my table for a moment- probably hoping I'd look up- then sat down in a chair a few feet away. Next thing I know he was gone. I was afraid he might just sit down at my table. I really have zero time for people that play games and especially who purposefully try to trigger me.

We've proven to be a very resourceful group!

I'd like to ask for your input. A good friend of mine takes care of her mother. Her mother is in her 80's and is relatively frail.
Her mom has Medicare coverage, has COPD and needs her inhalers. I've suggested she look on the sites of the manufacturers to see if they might offer some assistance.
I did not get the names of the inhalers.

Do you know of other programs which might be helpful in getting help with the costs, outside of GOODRx?

Thanks for any/all feedback!
Much Appreciated!

Patients - Rx Outreach may help but I'm not sure because inhalers are not generic. That makes them more likely to have patient assistance programs and it is always good to apply for those even if you don't meet all criteria. Just apply and include a note explaining that you don't meet the criteria but can't afford the med. I've never been rejected. If rxoutreach does have them they usually are very good pricing.

Hi everyone. I don't feel so great. I feel totally apathetic and like my brain can't even process a simple thought. I tried to explain to my mentor, my brain just is not working and I can't figure out this project that's due tonight. It's like I am stuck in molasses. Sorry to be a downer. I just feel so lethargic and blah. How did I ever feel so good last month? I am sure it'll get better soon. Sending compassion.

Thank you so much!

Her mom is in the donut hole of Medicare and needs help. Breathing is quite important!

I so appreciate your assistance!

I am sorry you aren't feeling well.

Please don't feel like a "downer." We are all here for one another and especially for anyone in need of support/not feeling well.

I have had times of feeling similar to what you are describing. It's such a helpless feeling! I am hoping something simple will help tremendously. Maybe a good night's sleep?

I hope you feel much better asap.

Thank you WC! You are right, I need to remember it could be something as simple as a good night's sleep that could help. It's often hard to see past the current mental state, but this will pass.

• I still find myself staring into nothing
• racing thoughts have calmed but I’m still experiencing symptoms
• I have exhibited some odd behavior as told by my wife and daughter
• I was up last night until after 2:00am wiring a room we remodeled.
• haven’t stopped moving all day today. Finished the wiring from the night before
• audio hallucinations are happening again
• overall, I feel kind of peaceful. I’ll continue to take it and keep an eye on my symptoms.

I'm trying to fight the urge to return to the abusive man. I'm focusing on letting him go but think I became addicted to his abusive ways. I need to wean myself from him. It is really hard but I am fighting hard too. Please wish me luck!

@bpforever1: I find it is better to be alone than with the wrong person. You deserve someone who will treat you with respect and affection. Stay strong! It's not for everyone, but i find my dog really decreases my longing for a man. Snuggling with her gives some of the sensual pleasure of a man. I still find myself talking to a man in my head, so i'm still wanting a man who would listen. It's beyond all reason. I'm 53. It gets easier with each passing year. PM me anytime if you need a boost re your commitment to resist this bad man!

history can repeat itself......
good luck
bizi

Thank you, I am doing ok and am listening to music. The urge is like a feeling of helplessness that overcomes me at times. I believe, I will survive without him!! I don't want to repeat history! I want to create a future where I learned from my past and am living free from such abuse. I will take baby steps in this direction.

much love and luck to you today.
This is hard work that you are doing.....
you are worthy of this effort.

bizi

Thanks to @Nammu and @BirdDancer for letting me know about taking propranolol 2x a day vs 3x a day.

I have been pacing less and less, but still pacing around nonetheless. I wonder if I need a higher dose of the propranolol, or if I need more time for this drug to build up in my system. I'm going to give it a fair chance at my current dose, though. I'll wait until my next pdoc appt @ the end of this month to decide if I need something stronger. The thing is, though... I am on Lipitor and I'm fairly certain it's messing with my drug metabolism since it affects the liver functioning, and I tend to need higher doses of things to compensate. That's why I'm not going to give up on it quite so soon.

Otherwise, I'm doing pretty well. I have my second guitar lesson tomorrow (yes, already!!). I'm really looking forward to it because I'm struggling a bit with technique. Plus, I'm always excited to learn more and get better.

Also, I'm not sure if I should wear a face mask to Boston (Chinatown) on Tuesday. I'm really tempted to, especially since that kid likely spread the illness to other people. I mean, supposedly you can spread this crap even if you're asymptomatic, so it doesn't matter if he was initially asymptomatic or not. This crap spreads like wildfire in cities, as evidenced by Wuhan itself!!

I'm so glad you are liking your guitar lessons so much, bluebicyle!

As for the face mask, if that sets your mind at ease, wear it. So you know, Chinese often wear face masks in public even just because of the extreme pollution in some cities. Certainly tge Chinese in Chinatown wouldn't find that odd. My Chinese friend and her Chinese friend, both living in the US, have been buying face masks in the US and sending them to China. Apparently there is a shortage of them in China because of the Coronavirus.

I am so happy to hear that you may be feeling a bit better on Latuda. That is fantastic!!

I hope the game is rewarding for you. I'm a Cowboy fan, so...

You will push through it. Rest when you need to. Sleep when you need to. Forget the schedule, if you can. Just do what you can do. And don't judge yourself if what that consists of is sitting on the couch with tea staring emptily at the TV. Just do what you can do.

Sending you strength and energy.

You can do this!!!!

I’m fighting to stay awake at work. 5:00am is a difficult wake up time! I just submitted a paper for school and have an exam this week. There’s so much downtime at work on the weekends!