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I have developed "close" relationships and been stabbed in the back repeatedly. Those "backstabbings" have triggered many of my depressions. I also got triggered when someone close to me had died, and I think it was because we had formed a deep bond with one another.
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Yes. No attachments=no feelings of abandonment=not being triggered.
Although I have gotten in touch with an old friend recently and we hung out, but when he left, no understatement, I wanted to kill myself because I had gotten close to him and I was/am afraid he'll never come back. Things like that make me wish I had a real therapist who worked with me on more stuff instead of spending 20 minutes asking the same questions and then ending the session early. |
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I have extremely low expectations of others and trust basically noone ever.
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Thats an interesting question. I never looked at it as being "triggered", but i think you are right, thats what it is. Being overwhelmed, unable to deal with the emotions, fight, flight, fawn, or freeze - any of those will pretty much kill a relationship, won't it? But im always, this is b.s., this person isnt worth it - what is "it", anyway? Emotional dysregulation. To get on an even keel again, i cut people out of my life.
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people usually avoid being friwends with me
because of my illness. they don't want to get hurt |
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it's ashame, I'd generally like a close friendship
but it's true. I always end up hurting people |
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I avoid close friendships and relationships because I found them to be one sided. How?
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Yes. I definitely, consciously avoid close friendships for fear of being triggered, then being entirely isolated while I fall to pieces. I have been married for 30+ years and I have a number of life-long friends, but I avoid being genuinely close because I so fear being misunderstood. I'm self protective.
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I really don't have friends. My close relationships are only my immediately and a few other family members who I try really hard to keep in the loop but don't do well with that. I was thinking about friends in preparing to answer this question, and I realize that I don't know the last time that I've had a friend. I really don't. It's been probably over 20 years. That's should be embarrassing right? I guess I'm not really embarrassed though. It feels a bit lonesome, though. I think it is a defense mechanism though.
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my wife and two sons are it . . . by my choice , it has been that way since the early 80's .
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I generally don't avoid relationships. I'm just careful who I let in which takes time. Why? A lot of people have been critical of me due to my differences. For some reason this is a threat to them. I'm often judged by strangers who know absolutely nothing about me. To protect myself I approach relationships with caution. Once I see that the person is open minded and honest, I will let them in my life.
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