Bipolar check-in #48

Here's a new thread since the other hit 100 pages.

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@Jennifer 1967: Sorry to hear you are having such a rough time. I hope your contact with your NP goes well. Perhaps remind yourself that you want to stay well for your precious daughter?

@bpcyclist: Grats on your new kitty! I am a little late i guess. He looks adorable and i hope you have many cozy fun-filled days ahead!

In my news: I got some much-needed company today from my one close neighbor. I was feeling lonely and in need of attention. She really paid good attention to me. I'm lucky to have her. I feel stirred-up tho. Socializing is very activating i guess. It was beautiful weather here, just breath-taking. My dog and i were out for hours. Still slept or dozed most of the day tho.

Hugs to all who struggle!

Thanks, whatever. He makes me so happy. My special little friend.

That's the life! Albert thinks you are the cat's meow. You are.

Aww, thanks, BD!!!

Hi all- just saying hi on the new thread. I updated how I'm feeling in a new thread that I just posted. I am going to try to get up early and walk. I didnt walk all weekend. I cant lose ground! My mom sent me a photo from a year ago- man was I fat! I sure hope I dont look that way still- my mom says I do not. Here's to becoming me again! Ps im going to try to post the picture my mom sent me here- maybe in my profile. Ok- I put it in albums in my profile.

@Moose72: I am so happy to hear that your mom says you look better than before! Keep up the awesome work! Did you manage to sneak a walk in today?

Yeah--walk?

I had insomnia last night until 4:30 a.m. so when my alarm went off at 6 I wasn't ready to get up. So yeah I slept through my walk time. I have to go at 6 because it is still cool out then and yet light out. We will see how tonight goes.

Sorry, Moose--maybe little teensy nap.

Just spoke to an old hospital pal. Very nice. He became floridly psychotic when he was 19 and shot and killed his mother. He has spent maybe 9 of the last 12 years in the state hospital. He does not have a violent bone in his body. He has a bad disease. Is very sweet and very gentle. I'd let him watch my daugher, no problem at all, as long as he was on his meds. Has a marvelous laugh, just delightful. Quite bright, too.

Despite what he has had to contend with, Thad remains positive nad hopeful. Manages to find hope for a future, which is well-founded, as he is bright and kind and good with people. He finds meaning in his life where he can, sometimes in seemingly small things. He is farily happy overall, all things considered.

I share this little story because I want people struggling to know that there are others with these illnesses with big challenges, too, who are pushing ahead, even if they are stuck in a giant hospital for years and decades. There is always hope that tomorrow may be a bit easier, brighter, and better.

Those patients in these hospitals with severe, severe illness truly are my heroes and I love each and every one of them from the bottom of my heart.

Love and hugs to all!!!

Thanks for sharing Thad's story, bpcyclist. I agree that we can put such horrors in the past and move on in a positive way. I would think/hope that is what Thad's mother would have wanted him to do.

Thank you for that kind remark, BirdDancer. I believe she is smiling down on him right now...

over the weekend I have been trying to sort out my cds- getting rid of old ones I no longer want

today I came across a cd of the fun lovin criminals given to me by my brother dan before he passed away. wow, so many memories attached to that album,
not all good, either.

feeling worthless and like their's not really any point. mentally and emotionallyh, really struggling. so I through a couple of cds out. big deal, it's
hardly going to change the world- and I have so many other problems to contend with

I have been ooing and aahing

really envious. my friend is about to become a first time mummy to a baby girl

and babies are sooooo sweet!. I want her to have it now so I can have a cuddle with her, but I need to wait until december 15th. lol wish it was now though!. babies are sooo, sooo, sweeeeet!. and she is going to make an awesome mummy. we talked this morning and she's been painting the baby's room pink. I am so excited for this

I showered today, so that's me hurting all day

I didn't even do my nails today. i was going too, but I had been through enough pain with the shower

yesterday I was put in a very awkward situation.

so: I've still not heard anything from my friendj onathan, so I decided to email round people he knew to see if they'd heard anything.

most of them replied that they hadon't, and 1 person replied that they didn't know what was going on with him, why am I concerned about it.

so I had to tell her what he said. I was debating it, maybe he didn't tell her because he didn't want her to know, but I did anyway. something like that is important regardless.

I had no sleep last night (imsomnia, mostly), and nothing going on all day today

today I feel a bit sick.

nothing serious. honestly: I think it's because my hair is going in my mouth (lol, I know, I need to actually get off my backside and do something) again though: another day of very little motivation

nothing but eat dinner later. that's the day

I am in agony.

the amount of body pain I am in.. also feels like I am going to fall.

uggg

and I am feeling frustrated too, because I'm meant to return a library book and can't find it, so means I'm probably going to be fined