[goofygirl]

Haven't posted for awhile... maybe if I had, things wouldn't have spiraled so horribly. I'm so up one moment, down the next, or more often than not, there are all these things that I want/need to do, and I really want to do them, but its too damn hard to move. Then, I'll get going really good and you can't stop me. I don't plan on going out, and then I do and make a total *** out of myself. Broke up with my boyfriend a few weeks ago... smacked the hell outta him Friday, felt bad and got myself even worse. I go to the doctor at 2:00... terrified that they'll keep me, yet I hope that they do. I hate this... I really do. I saw it coming... I figured that I could make it til my appointment, but I didn't get the time off, so I postponed the appt... even though I knew full well that my meds weren't working right. The Seroquel stopped making me tired at night, but it clung around my head like a fog the next morning. The busprione never did a thing for the anxiety. Head is a total mess... HELP! Is it two YET?