[Moose72]

Do you ever regret something you may have done while manic or depressed? Back in 2003 I divorced my husband of 8 years because he was frustrating me and I figured "he'll never change" and filed while he was gone one weekend. I blew everythi g up in my mind and shoved it all in the corner and climbed in. I have a history of doing this but nobody pointed this out to me. My mom and husband encouraged me to divorce him and of course the divorce lawyer encouraged me ! I sometimes wonder what it wouldve been like to make it to my 25th anniversay. (Would've happened this past May.) All because I was in some bipolar mood and of course I was undiagnosed back then! I'm not remarried- I dont even have a boyfriend. I guess I'm having a midlife crisis what with my youngest just having moved out. And my eldest is having housing issues and my hands are tied- I have two extra bedrooms but am not allowed to let her and her girlfriend move in because its a section 8 rule.

first thing that comes to mind is killing my pet budgie

okay: so I didn't kill it with my own bear hands (I let it go out the window, where it couldn't survive the weather conditions) but it was a wonderful pet, and I'd wanted one for ages and my poor brother (who got me it in the first place) wasted all his time getting it as I kept it for about 3 days
other regrets included: punching a nurse and a security guard in hospital (at least with the nurse, she didn't really deserve it, she was just trying to help), destroying my only half deecent peace of school work (which meant I left with no qualifications), pushing a poor baby girl down a hill (when I was meant to be looking after her), and wasted a whole film of camera taking pictures of my naked bottom for a fake facebook profile

oh and breaking my sister's arm

probably others too

oh yeah

starving myself

what it did to my body started weeks in hospital

many wild days buying stuff I didn't even need.

then I'd get angry at the lack of money when I did want something generally

and I still do this too

I wish I did better in high school and college. I wanted to enroll in an MD program to become a neurologist. However, I guess that failure worked out in my favor because... well... I probably would be freaking out right now as a doctor. (Not that there's anything wrong with being a doctor, nurse, etc. during a pandemic. Just saying that I personally would freak out and probably quit. Then I'd have to find a new career or do research because no way in f*** did I sign up for a pandemic, especially as a neurologist who doesn't want to touch sick people in the ER.)

Also, the obvious... I regret not seeking help earlier.

[bpcyclist]

I try to live in acceptance of all things, mundane and wild, that have happened. Bipolar disorder affects human behavior. Some day in 200 years or so, people will get that.

[Trippin2.0]

I have no regrets.