[*Beth*]

Only a light haze today. After all those weeks, there is finally some sun! The weather is gorgeous. If we could just get a drenching rain...but that won't happen now.

I'm feeling much better with the Lamictal and Trilafon increase. I hope to start on my weaving project today.

[Mountaindewed]

I slept a lot last night. It took about 2 hours for me to get out of bed. I woke up still feeling nauseated. I didn’t bother taking a shower. I did good with my therapy session. I had my weighted blanket again so I was focused. I told her I was better emotionally then I was yesterday. She was a lot better then she was last week. She said she doesn’t want to see me the week of my surgery unless it’s a few hours before the surgery because she wants me to be recovering and hopefully be sleeping. Yet she said it was ok to go to a concert the night before the surgery. So yeah I don’t totally get her all the time. But I feel decent mood wise today. Still pretty off physically. I’m still just taking it day by day.

[Moose72]

N3 is here to deal with the rest of his stuff- he's dragging his feet of course! I guess I need to get in there with him and spur him on. All I really want to do is take a nap. A big nap!

[Soupe du jour]

I don't wish to comment much on today. The good thing is that we are currently comfortable in a simple hotel room in aircon, after much-needed shower. The bed is far more comfortable than the one in the last place. It was so uncomfortable at the last place that Hubby slept in a bunk bed with me on a convertible sofa bed. Tonight we finally sleep together again.

Tomorrow afternoon we will be in Czech Republic. I'm glad!

We have likely ruled out where we've been in France as a future place to settle. Maybe a different part of France? Or maybe just stay in Czech Republic. We'll see. I can say that Czech Republic will be much less expensive overall.

Some of our time in Czech Republic will be spent in a house my husband spent all of his summers in as a child and young man. In a forest of Bohemia. We'll see his sister for just 1 1/2 days, then she leaves the whole house just for us when she goes to Greece on vacation. I am looking forward to that period of quiet and solitude with Hubby. She is leaving us with a fridge of food, including "buřty" a sausage not unlike German knock wurst. We plan to reenact our wedding night when we put the buřty on sticks and roasted them over a pit fire on the property. I can smell them and taste them right now. She also made apple strudel, Bishop's bread, and bought a tray of special open-faced sandwiches. This represents home.

I look forward to seeing my husband's nephews. I especially know his older nephew, who has spent lots of time with us in the US, in the past.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

I don't wish to comment much on today. The good thing is that we are currently comfortable in a simple hotel room in aircon, after much-needed shower. The bed is far more comfortable than the one in the last place. It was so uncomfortable at the last place that Hubby slept in a bunk bed with me on a convertible sofa bed. Tonight we finally sleep together again.

Tomorrow afternoon we will be in Czech Republic. I'm glad!

We have likely ruled out where we've been in France as a future place to settle. Maybe a different part of France? Or maybe just stay in Czech Republic. We'll see. I can say that Czech Republic will be much less expensive overall.

Have fun in Prague, Soupinator!!!

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by MarcusAurelius

Been "Home" for a few days. At least I have a bed to sleep in, food to eat, and the luxuries I'm accustomed to. Right now things are quiet and peaceful but it won't always be this way. I guess I'll just enjoy it while it lasts. I need to find a new job and figure out life again. I'm too damn tired to keep this charade of a life up much longer.

Hugs, M!!!

[Living in LaLa Land]

Looks like I'm having a long night tonight. I have bloodwork testing tomorrow, which means no supplements (including melatonin and vitamins), medication, and herbal tea. My husband plans to take a nap and stay up with me for a bit.

What can I do to survive the night since I have insomnia anyway? I'm good with sleeping here and there. My concern is a completely sleepless night, which I haven't had in a months.

Tips?

[Daonnachd]

My boss told me today that I'm being cut to 9 hours per week. So I'm looking for work. Although this brings up my pdoc's suggestion that I go on disability. She mentioned it when I started ECT but I didn't want to. After all the mistakes I've made and memory I've lost, I'm wondering if that's a sensible avenue to go. It's a tough decision because I don't want to admit that my mind is that fried but in reality I've lost a lot to ECT.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by Living in LaLa Land

Looks like I'm having a long night tonight. I have bloodwork testing tomorrow, which means no supplements (including melatonin and vitamins), medication, and herbal tea. My husband plans to take a nap and stay up with me for a bit.

What can I do to survive the night since I have insomnia anyway? I'm good with sleeping here and there. My concern is a completely sleepless night, which I haven't had in a months.

Tips?

I would split my time between reading a book and making art.

[Polibeth]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

My boss told me today that I'm being cut to 9 hours per week. So I'm looking for work. Although this brings up my pdoc's suggestion that I go on disability. She mentioned it when I started ECT but I didn't want to. After all the mistakes I've made and memory I've lost, I'm wondering if that's a sensible avenue to go. It's a tough decision because I don't want to admit that my mind is that fried but in reality I've lost a lot to ECT.

I lost a lot to ECT and had to go on disability. It was the best decision I've made.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Living in LaLa Land

Looks like I'm having a long night tonight. I have bloodwork testing tomorrow, which means no supplements (including melatonin and vitamins), medication, and herbal tea. My husband plans to take a nap and stay up with me for a bit.

What can I do to survive the night since I have insomnia anyway? I'm good with sleeping here and there. My concern is a completely sleepless night, which I haven't had in a months.

Tips?

I binge-watch good shows usually. Hugs!!

[Living in LaLa Land]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

I binge-watch good shows usually. Hugs!!

Looks like I'm checking the cable guide for some good movies.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

My boss told me today that I'm being cut to 9 hours per week. So I'm looking for work. Although this brings up my pdoc's suggestion that I go on disability. She mentioned it when I started ECT but I didn't want to. After all the mistakes I've made and memory I've lost, I'm wondering if that's a sensible avenue to go. It's a tough decision because I don't want to admit that my mind is that fried but in reality I've lost a lot to ECT.

I had to give a surgical career and running a public laser company at 41. No way I could work. No way now. I have found solace in honestly accepting the realities of my brain illness. I am quite ill. But I am alive and battle every day. Life is so worth fighting for. Hugs!!!!

[Living in LaLa Land]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

I would split my time between reading a book and making art.

Thank you. I have stacks of books I've neglected because of my lack of sleep. Looks like I'm reacquainting myself with them.

[swimmingly]

Lost my job today. I have 7 days left in an office. November 20th is the start of my unemployment. 16 weeks.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Sorry Swimmingly.

[Innerzone]

Well, air quality is back to hazardous. Such fun.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by swimmingly

Lost my job today. I have 7 days left in an office. November 20th is the start of my unemployment. 16 weeks.

An opportunity to find something better...

[Moose72]

Sorry you lost your job, swimmingly, but glad you're getting unemployment.

[Moose72]

I'm home in the dark now. I picked up N3 today and we went and picked up his school "books". They are just unbound stacks of paper! We had to buy a binder or two to hold all the paper. But it looks all organized and ready for him to really get into his classes now. Calculus was his biggest "book"! He seemed to know what it all meant but I certainly didn't. I've never been good at math, although I took a placement exam once where the lady who told me my score said I was very highly intelligent in math. Go figure. I flunked math two of the three years that I took it in high school.

We then went to my place and sorted and pitched and packed things . My mom came over and so did her husband. He came over to try to fix my dryer which made a horrible crashing noise last night about this time and then squealed. Then I tried to turn it back on and it just hummed. So mom's husband and N3 worked on it for I don't know how long. My mom and I were emptying drawers in the kitchen and packing stuff. The dryer wouldn't run without making noise and they tried everything and then decided that the motor itself was the problem and they took it outside to be thrown away. Good thing is, someone wants to buy just the washer so we have a winner in that sense. I will have to do laundry at my mom's for the time being until I am settled into my new place.

I was tired around 4 p.m. today but I pressed on packing and sorting. I can now go to bed, though. At least watch tv for a while. Poor N3- he has so much stuff.. I wish he would've donated or thrown out more than he did because he'll just have to move again one day- whenever that will be.