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Feeling down. In a few days it will be 2 years since my daughter has communicated with me. In 2018 I had the worst manic episode I've ever had. I ended up IP. My daughter decided that having a mom with BD didn't fit into her professional life. She and I had been extremely close, but when she cut me off she used a hatchet. Chop. Zero contact.
Last night my husband (her dad) spoke with her; he avoids conflict at any cost so will never confront her about her estrangement with me. That really hurts; I feel that I cannot truly trust him. So it goes. I'm trying not to think about her, but it's hard not to, especially as we enter the holiday season. Especially this holiday season, already being stressful and dreary. The pain is immense. __________________ |
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#742
I’m pretty irritated today. It seems like I’m getting pissed at every little thing. I do wonder if it’s the remeron. The anger didn’t start until I started it on Tuesday night. I guess I’m doing ok overall.
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#743
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But yes Money drives any and all things. __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#746
My day ended with a nightmare!
I worked my butt off getting the house ready for real estate staging and photographs. Hubby was totally unable (or willing) to do anything because of his eye. I will say that the stagers did an amazing job! Well worth the money. Our realtor came for paperwork signing, to see everything, establish listing price, and schedule the open house. She pressured me a bit to get the garage and basement in passable appearance before the open house. I say "me" only because Hubby was not even willing to come up from the basement to see her and sign the papers. It was embarrassing! He wasn't THAT bad off! Plus, I know how difficult it will be to achieve the garage/basement cleanup... because of Hubby. Fern knows. So, doesn't sound that bad? Well, after all left, I went upstairs to take it easy. I decided to look in the spare room at its staging. I happen to look at the ceiling, and was horrified! These two full days of heavy rain, and the several days of partial rain before them, challenged our poorly re-shingled roof too much. The ceiling suddenly, within the day, now has several wet marks. Newly painted ceiling, at that! A little over a week before our newly scheduled open house. The roofing was/is our homeowners association's responsibility, but still. Who knows how long it will take to get the problem fixed. We now need the problem (and rain) to stop. We don't expect fast reimbursement for the obvious need for another painting of the ceiling (after the wet marks dry). The room has new carpeting and some of the stager's belongings in it... staged. Fing A! Here is the lovely photo of the ceiling, which may possibly get even worse. Luckily no other rooms seem affected. Hopefully not! I definitely think I deserve to cry about this, but am just too tired to. The emergency guy is here now. Luckily Hubby is now taking over for me. I am just sitting here feeling horrible. Last edited by Soupe du jour; Oct 30, 2020 at 05:25 PM.. |
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#747
Soupe du jour A nightmare is right! Twice in my life I've had a ceiling cave in due to the weight of water. It is a good, good thing that the emergency guy is present. Yikes. I hope it all turns out well!
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#748
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#751
Such a relief.
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#754
A crap day. It's like I was a different person yesterday, my life a different life. All of a sudden, today it all looks frightening and pointless. I managed a half-block walk and mopped the floor. The rest of the day I slept. One more hour and I can crawl back into bed.
I hope this is just a one day thing and not the usual depression that strikes at this time of the year. I read that there will be a full moon for Halloween tomorrow night, which is cool. Pretty. Nature. __________________ |
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#757
Hello, all. Watching Johnny Carson. It's past my bedtime and I'm still in the living room. I'm leaving my phone in the living room tonight plugged in because I had it in the bedroom last night but it was at only 50% when I woke up! So I don't know if its the phone or the charging cable that's bad. I think its the cable because the one out here worked just fine.
Got a notice on my door today that they're going to be fixing the balconies for five days coming up next week. That means I need to bring my outside chairs and table inside. I don't want to get the carpet dirty so I'll have to put down towels or something and I'm not even sure where to keep them. It's not like there's a lot of extra room in here. I wish I had a pet but I can't afford one. I can't even afford to get a fish set up because they are expensive too. Besides- where would I put a fish tank? __________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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Fine now. I do get intermittent, short psychotic bursts. I do. So short, you cannot even medicate them and they âre gone. I always come here or to my sz pals, but was quicly overwhelmed and dialed 911, afraid of a single, terrifying command. Super terror. Yikes ! But. But. I did know enough even through the hazy mess that when I think God is asking me to jump again, that that is s always, always false data. Always. Doc and nurses and police were so sweet. So helpful. I do love our police very much. Such hard jobs. Gonna write a thank you note. I am. Thanks for the lovely support. The police and hospital all complemented us. You guys. Obviously no name of where or who we are. But I did say, this is how we save our respective lives every day. They had no idea. They were really in awe of us. They were. Wanted you all to know. Hugs. __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#759
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I have been really impressed by all the times I have seen people on this forum help others get help and I was just thinking about how great this place and all the people are, including you. |
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#760
Hi all. I am irritable today, but trying to carry on. You know those days when you just feel like a walking lemon of bitterness? Haha, I don't think that sentence even made sense, but you get the idea. Feeling like it's hard to see past this low mood, but trying to remind myself they don't last forever. I spoke with my nephew on the phone today and that brightened my mood for a moment, though. It's almost impossible for me to not feel better around those kids, they're like rays of sunshine to me. Sending compassion to all.
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