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#361
All Creatures Great and Small is coming back in a brand new series on January 10, 2021 at 9 p.m. on PBS. I'm looking forward to seeing how it compares to the books , from which it is based, and also how it compares to the 1970's television series.
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Having sharp chest pains. It comes and goes. A bit of a cough. History of blood clots in lungs so in to the ER I go. I bet its nothing, but with my history- blood clots in lungs twice, years apart- they want to see me. I am on Eliquis, which is a blood thinner, so I would think it's not likely and I hate to go in, but better safe than sorry. I'm getting dropped off. I don't trust myself to drive.
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I had a grim day but a nice cozy early Winter evening snuggling with my dog watching free TV and making homemade popcorn just like my dad taught me years ago. It's remained one of my favorite foods. I did all the dishes and put them away. Yay Jane!
Last night was our condo AGM. We couldn't meet in person because of COVID so it was on ZOOM. I really enjoyed it! It went so well -- computer technology has come such a long way. I attended in my jammies as owners' cameras were not on. Only 17 of us attended. That's out of 200 units. Not a very good showing. We have a lot of very old people in our building, not good on computers. But there were over 50 proxies so we had quorum. We voted and saw the results right away on a graph. It was fun! I joined the Facebook page for my favorite musician, Matthew Good, who has bipolar too. I cautiously posted about how much i like his new French song and i got 14 'likes' in two hours! I guess a lot of people feel like i do. Happy to know it! Hugs to all who struggle! Especially hope that @BethRags gets some relief from her anger... Last edited by Anonymous41462; Nov 20, 2020 at 11:27 PM.. |
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That’s so good that you’ve been hospital free for so long. I was hospitalized when I went through the manic and I never ever want to go back!! That’s good that you found a job you can do!! I’m hoping that I can too one day. Thank you for sharing your story too. Your son has an amazing momma!! I think anyone who can battle this disorder and make it through is so freaking amazing and powerful!! Nobody could ever imagine what we have to go through!! My mom has bipolar and she used to frustrate me, I never knew what she was going through.... now that I do I wish I didn’t. It’s not fair. This should never have been created. I’m still in the hard time imagine and accept phase. Ok I’m going to try my best to sleep tonight. Take care! |
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I am back from the hospital. It's 4:15 a.m. and I'm eating something before I go to sleep. They said they don't know why I am having chest pains because it's not my heart and it's not blood clots so eh- who knows. I spent the time there watching Adult Swim on Cartoon Network. Hadn't seen that in years. Just getting ready for bed. I hope I don't sleep the day away!
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#368
Had my ECT treatment yesterday - came home and slept 14 hours. I feel much better.
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Hi everyone. I am doing okay. My psychiatrist thinks I have akathisia from the Zoloft so I am decreasing the dose. I am also a bit too energized from it I think, I am all over the place distracted and I was really in a great mood but now I am just getting irritable. Hopefully lowering the dose will help. I am already on a really low dose, but I am sensitive. I started sleeping normally for awhile, but last night I only slept like four hours again. Maybe exercising will help me relax. My psychiatrist is still not sure if I need to be on a mood stabilizer, but we're going with just lowering the dose for now.
Other than that, I am doing okay. I am really distracted at work so going to have to work this weekend to make up for it and finish a project. I am applying for jobs for when my job ends at the end of December. I am probably moving sometime in January. I think I am ready to move back closer to friends and family. I have been in this state for 4 years, moved here for grad school and then stayed for a job, but I don't have much of a support network here. I am kind of nervous about switching psychiatrists because this one knows me really well and is in the middle of helping me get stable, but I am sure it'll be okay. Hope everyone has a great weekend. |
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I don’t think she’s rotten but I think she has some type of issue perhaps mental health, that causes her to become really negative. Then she doesn’t always control it well in sessions. But I also don’t want to move and have to find a new therapist. There have been 11 people like her in my life. People who have acted (except most of them didn’t have the negativity she did) the same way and talked the same with me. I’ve even emailed them the same way. I’ve moved on just fine from these people. So I know she won’t be the last of these types of people I get really used to. But it’s just hard when she’s always mad at me about my meds or my eating. I’m 40 pounds overweight but I don’t look like it so I think it just confuses her. But she gets mad at me because she thinks I have an eating disorder. She’s just weird but there’s also this feeling of trying to get her to like me.
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Very neat! I bet there are a lot of people that would be interested in that. Are you going to try to publish it somewhere? Or is it more for yourself?
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Mountaindewed I am sorry you are going through a tough time with your therapist. Do you have any other sources of support to reach out to right now? Maybe the short break will help, sometimes I find I just need a bit of distance from any relationship or issue that has me wrapped up in it. Perhaps focus on yourself and self care a little bit? Please do reach out to someone if you are feeling unsafe, though.
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I hope you got to see your T! It's so frustrating when you expect to be seeing someone for help and then find out you can't. I had a couple things like that happen with my therapist and psychiatrist recently. Not getting the link, the office accidentally rescheduling for a time I couldn't do. They are short staffed so I understand, but was still bummed.
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@Polibeth, I'm glad your ECT treatment went well. I know I always have just a squick of anxiety surrounding it. But it helps so much.
@yellow_fleurs, thank you for your enthusiasm regarding my little ECT composition. It's meant for prospective patients. I'm going to create a thread for it in the "Bipolar Treatments" sub-forum but to make it easier here it is. It's about a page and a half, single-spaced. Narrative: ECT - Google Docs __________________ >< |
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apart from really bad fibro pain, (like super bad) and the fact that the weather here is super cold (I think it's ice age 4 outside), I'm just sat here listening to christmas music with my lights on
don't feel good, don't feel bad saturday's here, I'm not doing anything productive what's new |
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Today I feel almost serene now that I’m not seeing her for 2 weeks and since I deleted her email last night. I’m sure I’m still in denial but at least I feel ok today about things. I know that she’s the problem but I also know I have to decide how to deal with things. I know what I should do. I need to discontinue seeing her. I went from December 2018 to April 2019 without having a therapist. So I know I can go a few months without one. But I just have to decide to let go. And that’s what I’m having trouble with. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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