[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Mountaindewed please call someone. It sounds like your meds are wearing off to early. I'm not allowed around medication because I have a similar problem to you could you put in a safety net like that?

I can try my Pdoc on Monday. I’m not sure why my mom isn’t doing more. I told her everything last night. She has my therapists email. She’s never been good at getting me the help I need. She has always let me do my own thing until someone else tells her to do something to help me.

I think if I hear the song "santa baby" one more time, I'm going to send out a complaint to the broadcaster
their are so many christmas songs.

you don't need to play various versions of santa baby 5 times an hour

thinking out loud..

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I think if I hear the song "santa baby" one more time, I'm going to send out a complaint to the broadcaster
their are so many christmas songs.

you don't need to play various versions of santa baby 5 times an hour

thinking out loud..

I know what you mean! It was cute the first 2 times I heard it, years ago, but enough is enough!

[yellow_fleurs]

Hi all. I don't feel very well today. I am feeling pretty hopeless and just out of it, but still irritable. Still can't sit still but maybe not as bad as before. Just reminding myself it won't last forever, I've been through worse. I kind of want to give up on meds, I just don't get what's the matter with me. Anyways I am done being a downer, hope everyone has a good day. Sending compassion.

[*Beth*]

My poor cat Sadie started throwing up at 12:30 a.m. and didn't stop until after dawn. She throws up food, then keeps drinking water because she feels dried out, but can't hold the water down. Her stomach goes into a kind of spasm situation. But the rest of her behavior is normal.

I had been giving my cats Hill's Hairball Control, but I think it's too rough on their stomachs. So I'm switching to Hill's Sensitive Stomach.

So tired. I hope I can go back to bed and sleep. And I hope Sadie can, too.

I promised my therapist with all my heart & soul that I'd try my light box twice a day for 1 week and see how I do with it. I don't know why I am so resistant to that thing, it's ridiculous.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m pretty hungover today. I also took 2 Xanax, a visteril, and a remeron at 3 to try to help me sleep. They worked and I ended up sleeping for another 6 hours. I’m craving coffee and greasy food. So most likely a hangover I’d assume. My anxiety is ok right now. I’m not feeling too much of anything actually.

[MuddyBoots]

I’m really worried about you, Md. Does anyone in your treatment team know the full extent of what’s going on? With an SA and this level of medication abuse, Id say its about IP time. You need the extra help and it sounds like your body and brain need a break from all this.

[Blue_Bird]

I'm really sorry to hear about your SA, Md. I'm glad you're still here with us though. I hope you do consider reaching out to your treatment team for help, I think it's really needed

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Sapien

I’m really worried about you, Md. Does anyone in your treatment team know the full extent of what’s going on? With an SA and this level of medication abuse, Id say its about IP time. You need the extra help and it sounds like your body and brain need a break from all this.

My therapist does know and the last I talked with her she suggested I go to the hospital for an assessment. I’m just worried about the cost and the hospital itself and safety from Covid. I know I need a lot of help though. I plan on dumping out the cough syrup. I’m going out of town for a few days so maybe that will help. A change in scenery.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I'm really sorry to hear about your SA, Md. I'm glad you're still here with us though. I hope you do consider reaching out to your treatment team for help, I think it's really needed

I know I’m going to be put IP if I reach out to my therapist at least. We haven’t been getting along because of these types of issues. My Pdoc might be able to switch something or do something over the phone. With Covid everything is just so hard. But I’m going to throw out the cough syrup for sure. And empty my wastebasket so I can’t get the melatonin out of the garbage. I just sent a text to my mom asking her to get rid of the cough syrup and she said she will. I feel like that’s at least a start.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

... I just sent a text to my mom asking her to get rid of the cough syrup and she said she will. I feel like that’s at least a start.

Definitely a start! Good for you, Md!

[Moose72]

Doing laundry. Watching "Eureka". I think this is the last episode.

It snowed today. Enough that I had to brush my car off- heavy, wet snow. But! No big deal.

I can't find the password to Netflix. I thought I'd written it down, but I guess not. It's not in my little notebook. N2 wants it- presumably to share my Netflix- but I don't remember it and neither does she. Anybody know how to reset Netflix's password?

I thought this comic was appropriate!

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I can't find the password to Netflix....

Passwords are such a pain. I don't have Netflix, but I looked at the home page and there's a place that says "Need Help?" beneath the sign in bar (red bar). Click on that and you can reset your password.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Passwords are such a pain. I don't have Netflix, but I looked at the home page and there's a place that says "Need Help?" beneath the sign in bar (red bar). Click on that and you can reset your password.

Thanks! I'll try that.

EDIT: I just talked wish N2 and she said she doesn't need the password anymore because she only needed it to find out where she was in a show, and she doesn't use my Netflix anymore anyway. She says she remembers me changing it, but I really don't know what I changed it to. I guess it's okay until it messes up and tells me it doesn't remember it anymore or something stupid.

[*Beth*]

It's all starting again. The seasonal death-trap depression. At this point I'm planning my own death, not anytime soon, but after all my cats have lived their lives. If I just have to live in an old people's place eventually there's no point. Even the objects in the room have lost their "identities" and are no longer looking at me. Why can't I just hibernate...every damn year, this.

I'm going to raise my Trilafon. I'll raise everything, I don't care. Anything to stop this. I honestly don't care if I'm on 10 meds. Whatever it takes.

Have also had an "icepick" migraine for 4 effing days. Feels like, well, an icepick is jabbing the right side of my brain. I'm really over it.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by BethRags

It's all starting again. The seasonal death-trap depression. At this point I'm planning my own death, not anytime soon, but after all my cats have lived their lives. If I just have to live in an old people's place eventually there's no point. Even the objects in the room have lost their "identities" and are no longer looking at me. Why can't I just hibernate...every damn year, this.

I'm going to raise my Trilafon. I'll raise everything, I don't care. Anything to stop this. I honestly don't care if I'm on 10 meds. Whatever it takes.

Can you call your pdoc and see what they suggest as far as how much to raise your meds? You might not raise them enough, or one might need raised and another not, you never know.

That sucks about the icepick migraine! I have migraines, too. One of the things the study I'm in has found is that people with bipolar are more likely to have migraines. Just lovely! If they could just find a med to help the bipolar AND prevent the migraines that would be wonderful!

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Can you call your pdoc and see what they suggest as far as how much to raise your meds? You might not raise them enough, or one might need raised and another not, you never know.

That sucks about the icepick migraine! I have migraines, too. One of the things the study I'm in has found is that people with bipolar are more likely to have migraines. Just lovely! If they could just find a med to help the bipolar AND prevent the migraines that would be wonderful!

Thanks, Moose. Isn't it interesting about migraines and BD? Makes sense to me. Yeah, I've had them since I was a little girl. A med for both would be amazing.

My pdoc is out until 12/1. I have an appt. with her that day. There's no back-up psych, which is my only complaint about that clinic.

[Soupe du jour]

Mountaindewed, you seem to be taking some very positive steps! If you do end up needing to go inpatient, know that you've made a positive start. Sometimes inpatient can be a nice safe place to feel less stress, rather than more. And to really decide additional positive next steps.

BethRags, I'm sure there are many places/situations that can be rewarding even after you lose your kitties. And of course there is always a new kitty waiting for a momma. I think that right now, particularly during the pandemic, it is difficult to imagine rewarding years ahead, but there will be and I know they will be worth waiting for.

Moose, I'm looking forward to seeing some snow in the near future. I'm not that fond of driving in it, but it is beautiful. The cartoon is funny. Thanks for posting it.

[~Christina]

Hey everyone !

I'm still struggling with cognitive issues, losing words, cant spell.. I have a repeat MRI in a week or so..

My husband says I am doin better, I dunno.

I have to get off of here its ssuch a struggle . Myy GP he pulled me off Seroquel , There are ssome studies that they is a small risk of a TIa

Hopefully Everyone is doing well

[fern46]

Originally Posted by BethRags

It's all starting again. The seasonal death-trap depression. At this point I'm planning my own death, not anytime soon, but after all my cats have lived their lives. If I just have to live in an old people's place eventually there's no point. Even the objects in the room have lost their "identities" and are no longer looking at me. Why can't I just hibernate...every damn year, this.

I'm going to raise my Trilafon. I'll raise everything, I don't care. Anything to stop this. I honestly don't care if I'm on 10 meds. Whatever it takes.

Have also had an "icepick" migraine for 4 effing days. Feels like, well, an icepick is jabbing the right side of my brain. I'm really over it.

I have migraines at the onset of an episode as well. I also feel nauseous and just physically unstable. I find that interesting and I laugh at anyone who would argue this is a matter of us not being able to control our emotions properly.

You can maybe try a few of these natural dopamine boosters

10 Best Ways to Increase Dopamine Levels Naturally

Same for serotonin boost

How to Increase Serotonin: 5 Ways to Raise Serotonin Levels Naturally

Those tips are obviously not cures, but they may help to take the edge off a little. Sorry you're struggling.