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I had a cheat day.
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oh how I really messed up. I completely over drank at the super bowl gathering at friends house. 6 of us total. 4 people drove separately and were only a couple of miles from our house. So that was good.
I was drinking "gin and tonics", mostly gin. And I was drinking them fast. I blacked out and can't remember dinner or doing dishes or Drinking more, I thought I only had 3 drinks but found out today that I had several more than that. Every one was involved. I made a scene, was going to drive home. But kathryn stepped up to tell them that no I was unfit to drive home. so they forcefully got me out of the car. Jeff drove us home around 9pm. She drove my car home and paul came with his car to pick her up at our house.

We had steaks and zucchini. the steak looked good but I don't remember eating it and brought half home...
needless to say I got very sick to my stomach once we got home.

Today, I called kathryn and thanked her for helping me....
Gin is not my friend,
That is an understatement.
I won't be drinking again, anytime soon.
I wish I could just stop.
But I just can't....
sigh
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Afraid to step on the scale after all of this eating and drinking.

[bizi]

Our air conditioner went out on us. We like to sleep at 70, the inside of the house is 74 and it is 70 outside. low tonight is 64 so it should cool the house by the morning. and then we are looking at colder raining weather the rest of the week. 30's for lows and 40's for highs.
rain/ice freezing at night we are not accustom to these colder temps.
here is the rain.
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[bizi]

it is 27 and the sun is out melting the ice which is good.
there is a curfew but hubby is still at school while the ice continues to melt.
even though it is 27 degrees I canceled all of my clients for today,another storm is on its way so will need to think about tomorrow.
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[bizi]

Venice Classic Radio – Radio Garden

this is the radio station that I have been listening to. you can click on anywhere in the world to listen to radio stations. have fun

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[bizi]

Even though I am not catholic I am giving up alcohol for lent.until easter.
that is 6 weeks. I have done this for several years before I can do it again and hopefully lose some of this weight. 191 this am.

I get my second shot today in about an hour.not looking forward to it.
The first shot my arm really hurt for 2 days. but I am a whimp about pain. so to others it would not be painful.
oh well.
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[*Beth*]

Best of luck with the 2nd shot, bizi! I hope it goes easy this time.

[bizi]

I am going to try for a dry march.
I told jeff so if he offers me gin and tonics
I will have to remind him that I am dry for march.
I drank every thing I had left (trulys) last night

and had 2 gin and tonics. I had had 2 bloody

marys at the diner for brunch.
I really need to get back on my diet. regained

most of the weight that I lost....heavy sigh.
It is so depressing.
Jeff never says a word....thankfully.
He is an enabler though.
we had katzu japenese ramen noodle place. the soup bowl was so good!
we even had sea weed salad that was delicious.
We drank water there and the bill was $32.
or something like that before tip $7.
so that is a bit pricey.If we could not have the
seaweed salad then the bowl cost $10 a piece.
much better.
I have the morning off. but should get ready I need to go to

the bank and clear up a bounced check, they say they can't find the

bank account, i ran it thru 2 times and the same each time.

[*Beth*]

I have my fingers and toes crossed for you to have a dry March. I'm sending you vibes for strength and health.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by BethRags

I have my fingers and toes crossed for you to have a dry March. I'm sending you vibes for strength and health.

Thank you Beth! I appreciate your support!
bizi whose real name is elizabeth, have several nick names: beth, liz, bizi that is my family name. I use bizi on all of the forums that I post on.
It really is my nick name ...lol

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[bizi]

Well I survived day 3, Jeff is on his 2nd gin and tonic.
I would like to join him but I won't.

Lunch today was a grilled veggie wrap with hummus, I had them add mayo and it made for a very messy wrap. Delicious! and a side of swiss chard steamed. It was also very good.
lots of water today.
dinner was 4 oz of baked salmon and 1 cup of steamed brocolli and 1/4 cup of tabouli. and a chocolate truffle, just 1. that was the perfect ending to any dinner.

going to get ready for an early bed time have to get up at 8am for a 9am all the way across town. I have been getting up so much at night to go pee. Makes me very tired.I try to drink less water after dinner but usually drink 10 oz with my night meds.I get up almost every 2hours

Hope I can sleep tonight, going to try to drink less water with meds.
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[*Beth*]

Baked salmon sounds so good.

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The salmon beth was delicious!
I am still having brain fog. I hope it is not permanent.
lunch was an eggplant and ground beef casserole with a
very small serving of mashed sweet potatoes and 1 cup
of steamed swiss chard. It was very good.
Although I missed mousaka which is my favorite dish
they make, Sammie is from lebanon and used to own
a restaurant. He came out of retirement to start cooking
for sandras. On tuesdays he cooks his version of chicken schwarma
and makes excellent tabouli with quinoa instead of wheat,
but on thursday he will make some sort of other middle eastern dish.
Friday of lent will be all seafood choices I think.
Dinner hubby made chicken he cut into bite size pieces and sauteed them in coconut oil. then added a simmering sauce with spinach and lentils Dahl, then I had a cup for quinoa and veggie soup. Hubby had more tabouli.
Trying to drink all of my fluids earlier in the day because I
don't want to get up in the middle of the night like I have
been doing. last night it worked no getting up yeah,
I slept thru the night.
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[bizi]

I still feel bloated.The weight is not coming off like I had hoped.
lunch today was trout, with side of roasted butternut squash and swiss chard and smothered purple cabbage. It was delicious!
Dinner we went to texas road house. I only smelled the rolls, no croutons on my salad.
I had the road kill steak burger with grilled mushrooms and onions and pepper jack cheese. with a side of brocoli.
It was delicious and I probably drank 40 oz of water while there.
I hope I won't be up all night peeing!
I am tired think I will go to bed earlier, I am working tomorrow, only 3 clients so it should be an easy day.
I was afraid that I would be overly full from dinner, am not!
My bathroom behavior continues to be a struggle. Wish I would find something that works.
consistently.
sorry if TMI.
have a great day/nite
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[bizi]

Thanks MM!

189.4 this morning. down a total of 13 pounds

from my highest weight of 202.4 on 1-2-21.
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who is getting ready to go to work.
It is a gumbo day for lunch then 2 more clients one out of town a long way.
This afternoon Jeff is going to abita springs to see the brewery. They are riding together in Pauls new convertible Jeep. it is fire engine red. Paul bought it for his fiance.
Katherine has always wanted a jeep. She is from hong kong.
She is an excellent cook.

On to my second cup of coffee.
I took a shower this morning and washed my hair!!!!!!
I need to dry it. It has been air drying for a while now so it should not take me very long to finish getting ready to leave at 10am.
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[Victoria'smom]

Have a good day.

[bizi]

I had an ok day felt badly after seeing a new client. Her feet were so badly neglected....I was pissed off at the family for letting them get this bad.I had a long drive to get there and was lost, out of town. I kept calling the daughter and could not get a hold of her. was going to leave, I had another appointment after her. So when she finally called me it was on her land line the cell was not working for some reason.
she came to me and led me to her house.
Her mom was bed bound I did not know this. before getting into the house I said that I was not coming back.
It was further from my home than I thought it took me over an hour to get there it was tricky and I got turned around even with my gps.
so I canceled my 4pm appointment.
I trimmed her nails as best as I could and got out of there.
I felt badly because I did not offer to paint her nails nor did I apply lotion to her legs and feet like usual. I just wanted out of there.
I got back into town around 4;15 so I called the daughter and said I could still do her dads feet if she wanted me to.
she said go ahead. so I did his feet.and he was happy with my work.
I asked if I could come back in about 3 months, he said yes.
so I got home and jeff was not home yet and I knew he was with out a phone so I tried to call pauls phone....no answer. so I just decided that I would go out to eat and have a couple of beers and a special hot dog with all of the fixins. at the tap room bar and grill.Jeff just got home from his day with the guys, he had too much to drink. but ate over there and rested and got over having too much to drink.I came home and had 2 gin and tonics. so I only made it 5 days with out drinking.
sigh
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I had a good day, I love what I do. It is getting harder to do though. I sat on the floor this afternoon. which I don't like doing.
my oily skin keeps getting worse. so I look like a grease bomb but it keeps me looking young so they say.
oh well.
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[*Beth*]

Ugh, I have oily skin, too. It's true that I don't have wrinkles, but there are times when I'd gladly trade the oiliness for a few wrinkles. I just *LUV* when I get a zit at the age of 58.

Anyway, I'm sure glad you love your job. That's wonderful!

[bizi]

Thanks beth!
I use a vit c serum on my face after a quick wipe of hot water which feels so good. I am not consistent with my skin protocol.some times I use the face cleanser and then add a bensoperoxide product one or the other not every day.
I have acne rosacea that rears its ugly face every now and then.
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