[Jennifer 1967]

I have a vaccine appointment Tuesday. I need to go by my doctor’s office for a note stating that I’m eligible due to a health condition. My brother is the one in the family that really needs the shot and he decided not to get it. Smh.

I feel defeated and hopeless today. I think it’s situational. I’ve invested blood, sweat and tears in a lot of inner and outer work over these past few years and while my family and friends see significant progress...I don’t. When will it be enough? I just want to be happy and stable. I keep working towards that and never quite reach it. My life is not going to change and I need to accept that. I don’t know that I can.

Thanks for listening. It helps to type it out.

Wishing everyone a peaceful day.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by BethRags

The hair salon I go to is within walking distance. I love being able to walk to a store or service. The only thing with the dentist is that you might not feel like walking afterward.

True! I'm not getting any fillings this time because its just a check up but I could have to come back this is true. I think I'll drive anyway so as to not be late as I don't know how long it will take to walk there. Half an hour is my guesstimate. Drive is 10 minutes from walking out my door (putting on shoes) and driving there.

[Scooter9]

It was my birthday yesterday.

One great thug about the pandemic is that my whole family is together and we all celebrated yesterday. My kids got me a nice card and a present I wasn't expecting at all. My wife gave me a nice card.

We all went out for dinner and enjoyed a nice meal with a bottle of wine. I'm so grateful that I have this time with my kids.

[Mountaindewed]

I remember in 2018-2019 I’d work a shift at work or have an in person therapy session and then go on a small vacation right after that. Often going straight from work to the lake for a few days. Those were good times. I think I’ll be able to make my lake trip safely this summer. And my other one which will be in October should be ok too. But it’s been a weird year and I haven’t actually missed anything until now. I’ve just been so super focused on staying healthy and having my family stay healthy. Now that things are getting better I hope my somewhat old life will come back with work, in person therapy sessions, and trips. Even though I’ll be in a new house and a new job and with my new therapist. I hope things work out.

[buddha1too]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’ve invested blood, sweat and tears in a lot of inner and outer work over these past few years and while my family and friends see significant progress...I don’t.

I can't comment on any progress you've made, but I've noted your posts over time. You're consistently one of the most kind & supportive people on these boards. Thank you. I value you...even if you don't value yourself at the moment.

[Scooter9]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I'm spinning. I learned today (at 5 am) that in June my son will be applying for grad/law school 4 hrs away. Grad school online was the plan originally. I'm nauseous. Not that I thought he was going to live here forever but up until now he was going to stay in our city, move into the park my family stays at and work at the library until he sets up his own business with his friends. New college legislation made it so he wants a JD. He plans to still come back and set up his own business but 4 years away he won't want to come back. AND the DEBT I'm trying to be supportive but I want to be like "NO!". I still have a year and couple months with him but this news shocked me. Part of me wants to be like so we're moving to X. Ones he moves he can't move back home. This is all still very early and may not happen but it has really thrown me. I thought I had 3 years left not 1. I'm trying to tell myself this isn't happening tomorrow. It's one thing to have him 15 min away another to be to far for our car to travel. Like I said I've been spinning and researching all day.

Hi MM, I can relate. Several years ago, my oldest son started a new job half way around the world (13 hour time difference). I was so sad when he left and it came as a surprise too.

I knew he would leave some day but I wasn't expecting it so soon and so far.

It was a tough time for me because I missed him so much. I coped by staying in touch by WhatsApp, doing video calls and sending him letters once in a while. He made it a point to come visit for holidays and birthdays, even mother's and father's day, and that helped me a lot.

He moved to California about a year ago so he was closer but still far away - it's a 6 hour flight. But he visited when he could which was always nice because it was closer so he sometimes visited for a long weekend.

A couple of months after the pandemic started he gave up his place in California and came back home to live with us. I have been so happy that he's here now but I know he will go back so I'm making the best of the time I have with him.

I know it's a shock for you MM and I won't say it is easy to let your child go, but there are ways to cope.