[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by BethRags

I think therapy by yourself could be so helpful. A therapist could give you some guidance as far as what to expect, in general, with your son at his life stage...stuff like that.

Oh I’ve had a therapist for myself for six years. She’s very good. I will talk to her Tuesday.

[Moose72]

I'm listening to my new album of Rene Jacobs. I finally got the mail. Included is. My "Adult Crisis Prevention Plan". My case manager made this out and sent it to me because I asked her to.

Possible trigger:

In part, it says "Current crisis - none. Moved a while ago- stressful. 3 months. Better than last place. Symptoms- mood has improved" - and this was after I told her about the recent poems having to do with death.

Checked off are: "Isolation or avoidance behavior", Thinking of self harm" and written in- "Other: visual different methods knives, pills"

Then it lists ways to cope which are several including "write a journal. Blog about bipolar".

The rest is who to call in case of a crisis, basically.

What are your thoughts? This was filled out almost 2 months ago so I guess it wouldn't include the poetry?? Wait- it appears that the date she wrote down after her signature is "12/28/2021"??? It can't even be 2020 because it was more recently than that when she called me- but it would add up with the 3 months moving part. Just then she should've written 2020. I'm confused.

[Mountaindewed]

I didn’t sleep the greatest last night. But I got enough sleep. This morning after I took a shower my heart was pounding and I felt lightheaded. I took my blood pressure and my pulse was 101. I couldn’t eat anything because of my cat scan. I did have a piece of cheese around 2:30AM though. The stuff I had to drink tasted like a thick watered down vanilla Slim Fast. I was able to chug it pretty fast but it was pretty gross. I was super anxious so I put the Muppet Show on. Which helped my anxiety. Then I went for my CT scan and it wasn’t a big deal. The lady was nice but when I was done she said “you did great Mountaindewed!” I don’t get if people are treating me like I’m really young or if I’m mentally challenged. But I’ve had to tell my mom to back off sometimes because I want to be treated like an adult and she isn’t helpful all the time. She hovers a lot and makes sure I’m doing things right. I had to tell her to let me go to my primary by myself because she distracts me. Then after the scan I got coffee and went grocery shopping and I got lightheaded again. I am home now and I ate some spaghetti and I kinda have a bit of a headache and funny vision. But my heart is ok.

[leomama]

I have a daughter in her early 20s that is having all kinds of issues and it’s stressing me out. I didn’t sleep well last night, no deep sleep.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I'm listening to my new album of Rene Jacobs. I finally got the mail. Included is. My "Adult Crisis Prevention Plan". My case manager made this out and sent it to me because I asked her to.

Possible trigger:

In part, it says "Current crisis - none. Moved a while ago- stressful. 3 months. Better than last place. Symptoms- mood has improved" - and this was after I told her about the recent poems having to do with death.

Checked off are: "Isolation or avoidance behavior", Thinking of self harm" and written in- "Other: visual different methods knives, pills"

Then it lists ways to cope which are several including "write a journal. Blog about bipolar".

The rest is who to call in case of a crisis, basically.

What are your thoughts? This was filled out almost 2 months ago so I guess it wouldn't include the poetry?? Wait- it appears that the date she wrote down after her signature is "12/28/2021"??? It can't even be 2020 because it was more recently than that when she called me- but it would add up with the 3 months moving part. Just then she should've written 2020. I'm confused.

I'm sure she meant "12/28/2020" and just made a mistake. Can you add poetry?

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by BethRags

I'm sure she meant "12/28/2020" and just made a mistake. Can you add poetry?

I just added a new poem! It's the first one- at the top.

Bipolar Hallucidations

[Scooter9]

My pdoc said Wellbutrin can cause anxiety for some people and it did that for me. I've been experiencing bad anxiety for months now.

I stopped Wellbutrin about 3 weeks ago and I feel so much better. Now that I stopped it, the anxiety is pretty much gone.

The not-so-good is that my body pains from the depression are back. But I have to choose whether I can live with body pains or anxiety - I'll go with body pains for now.

[*Beth*]

It's spring today, or might as well be. Windows open - which the cats love. My therapist has mysteriously taken the week off with only a few hours notice. Maybe she's getting the second covid vax. I took a walk to the library to return 4 books and pick up 1. Flowers are blooming everywhere! Not the roses, yet. I've been lucky to live near large rose gardens many times in my life. They'll start blooming in April.

Walking was easy today because my legs aren't feel shaky from the horrible medication (Amantadine) I'm in the process of stopping. What a relief.

[leomama]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

My pdoc said Wellbutrin can cause anxiety for some people and it did that for me. I've been experiencing bad anxiety for months now.

I stopped Wellbutrin about 3 weeks ago and I feel so much better. Now that I stopped it, the anxiety is pretty much gone.

The not-so-good is that my body pains from the depression are back. But I have to choose whether I can live with body pains or anxiety - I'll go with body pains for now.

Wellbutrin made me nauseous , it’s one of the medications my psychiatrist and I have been talking about. I threw up at work when I tried it.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

My pdoc said Wellbutrin can cause anxiety for some people and it did that for me. I've been experiencing bad anxiety for months now.

I stopped Wellbutrin about 3 weeks ago and I feel so much better. Now that I stopped it, the anxiety is pretty much gone.

The not-so-good is that my body pains from the depression are back. But I have to choose whether I can live with body pains or anxiety - I'll go with body pains for now.

Wellbutrin also made me anxious. Once I stopped it and increased another one of my meds it was like a light switch for awhile. I’ll probably have to go back down on my Geodon when I start working again in the summer since the morning dose that was increased makes me tired. But I’ll cross that bridge when I get there.

[wildflowerchild25]

I really thought I was going to completely break down on my way home from work. I had a bad mental health day in the first place but during the last ten minutes my son texted me asking for more time on his game. I told him no and then he went into his whole usual argument of “but why” “for how long” etc etc complete with rows of sad and angry emoji faces. I told him I’m about to leave work and I’m not gonna argue about it and furthermore I’m not gonna argue about it at home either. He stopped bc he knew I’d be driving and unresponsive anyway. I was so upset and anxious that he was going to start up the argument again when I picked him up that I just couldn’t take it. I knew if he did I would snap. I wouldn’t have screamed at him or anything but I probably would have locked myself in the bathroom (the only door in this place with a lock) and just sat there for however long it took for him to stop pestering me and go away. Because even when I ignore him he continues to be intrusive. He refuses to leave the room, continues bothering me to say something. And if I tell him I’m not going to talk to him right now he gets on top of me and pokes my nose or puts his hands on my face or basically just lays there and whines and continues on his tirade. He WILL NOT accept me saying I need space. When we move RS is going to install a lock on our bedroom door so I will be able to at least get physically away.

I’m of the opinion that family therapy is definitely needed. I just need to have someone help me get across to him that his behavior in certain situations is unacceptable. I also need him to understand that even if I leave the room and ignore him for awhile it’s only to keep myself calm and I will definitely come back out later. It’s just...I can’t keep on like this, not with everything else that’s going on in my head.

Thankfully he did not continue arguing when I picked him up. He complained a little about just having tv and I gave him back the Amazon remote so he could watch the show we’ve been watching instead of endless spongebob and loud house episodes. He’s chill now. I’ve been in my room collecting my thoughts. I’m about to go out and get some dinner. Real easy, eggs and hash browns. I couldn’t bear the thought of making something involving multiple steps.

[Moose72]

WFC25 : I'm glad your son didn't pester you as much as you feared he might and that you got some alone time. Hope your dinner is yummy!

[Mountaindewed]

I’m stressed right now. I kinda want to take something. I don’t know if it’s my PMDD (very well could be) or if everything, therapy and physical stuff is just hitting me all of a sudden. I just feel kinda depressed.

[Victoria'smom]

I was asked repeatedly if I was depressed. I DON'T know. How am I suppose to know. I know I'm crying, I know I'm anxious, I know breathing literally hurts. But I also know everyone hates me of course I'm sad/anxious over that. I'm suppose to figure out my triggers what triggered this thought.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I was asked repeatedly if I was depressed. I DON'T know. How am I suppose to know. I know I'm crying, I know I'm anxious, I know breathing literally hurts. But I also know everyone hates me of course I'm sad/anxious over that. I'm suppose to figure out my triggers what triggered this thought.

Everyone does not hate you. Those are two extremes that aren't true- "everyone" and "hate". The truth is somewhere in the middle. Be glad of this!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I’m stressed right now. I kinda want to take something. I don’t know if it’s my PMDD (very well could be) or if everything, therapy and physical stuff is just hitting me all of a sudden. I just feel kinda depressed.

Do you have a favorite book you could read, or a favorite song or album you could play? These thing help my thoughts get out of feeling so depressed.

[cogladaid]

So I’ve been up still with some psychotic features and I talked to my doctor today and he thinks I might actually be bipolar 1 but we’re adjusting meds and there’s a referral to the psychiatrist and I talk to my doctor again next week.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by cogladaid

So I’ve been up still with some psychotic features and I talked to my doctor today and he thinks I might actually be bipolar 1 but we’re adjusting meds and there’s a referral to the psychiatrist and I talk to my doctor again next week.

This is your primary doctor you're speaking of- and you're referred to a psychiatrist? How long have you been working with the first doctor- did they diagnose you bp2? How long have you been diagnosed?

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by cogladaid

So I’ve been up still with some psychotic features and I talked to my doctor today and he thinks I might actually be bipolar 1 but we’re adjusting meds and there’s a referral to the psychiatrist and I talk to my doctor again next week.

Push for the referral, as they have a strong tendency to get "lost." So if they don't call you within 5 business days, you call them.

[cogladaid]

Originally Posted by Moose72

This is your primary doctor you're speaking of- and you're referred to a psychiatrist? How long have you been working with the first doctor- did they diagnose you bp2? How long have you been diagnosed?

I was diagnosed bipolar 2 and a psychotic disorder maybe... four years ago? After being referred to a psychiatrist. I’ve been stable and in the care of my family doctor to prescribe medication and for regular management. When he doesn’t know what to do, he refers me to the psychiatrist. I’m in Canada I can’t privately go by myself to a psychiatrist I have to referred to and all they really do is give diagnosis and give recommendations to my family doctor for treatment.