[MuddyBoots]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SCOOTER!!!!!

I had a terrible few moments on the way to my dog's grooming when i thought i lost my glasses. I pawed frantically thru my purse and pockets only to realize i had them on! Ack! My dog's grooming went smoothly so now she's had a haircut and i had one yesterday so we're both looking spiffy. It's just in the nick of time too as my province is considering another lockdown.

I've been waking up early in the morning and going back to sleep. It's annoying. I can't tell if it's the benzo taper or not but i wish i would sleep right thru.

It's been a busier week than usual and i have my taxes tomorrow yet to go. I'm feeling irritable because of all the demands after all the long calm days of lockdown. I guess it's just hard getting active again. I thought i would be thrilled but i am underwhelmed. Also, i'm not exactly doing things that are fun like going out to lunch with friends, i'm just seeing to tasks that got delayed. When will the good times roll?

[bizi]

happy birthday scooter!

[Victoria'smom]

Scooter9- Happy Birthday and thank-you

[Moose72]

I got in bed at 9 p.m. Read a little bit till 11:30. Now its 12:30 a.m. and I'm still up. I want to get up at 8:30 but at this rate I won't.

Edit: Now it's 5-to-3:00...!

[Soupe du jour]

Happy Belated Birthday, Scooter! I'm glad it was a nice celebration.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

I had a terrible few moments on the way to my dog's grooming when i thought i lost my glasses. I pawed frantically thru my purse and pockets only to realize i had them on! Ack! My dog's grooming went smoothly so now she's had a haircut and i had one yesterday so we're both looking spiffy. It's just in the nick of time too as my province is considering another lockdown.

I've been waking up early in the morning and going back to sleep. It's annoying. I can't tell if it's the benzo taper or not but i wish i would sleep right thru.

It's been a busier week than usual and i have my taxes tomorrow yet to go. I'm feeling irritable because of all the demands after all the long calm days of lockdown. I guess it's just hard getting active again. I thought i would be thrilled but i am underwhelmed. Also, i'm not exactly doing things that are fun like going out to lunch with friends, i'm just seeing to tasks that got delayed. When will the good times roll?

Hello to the spiffy couple! My husband and I have resorted to cutting our hair ourselves. Not as spiffy!

As of yesterday (I had a video appointment with my pdoc), I am being weaned off Klonopin. Yay! He said to cut my dose of 0.5 mg in half and report to him any possible withdrawal effects. I start tonight, so we're on a journey together, whatever2013. After that, maybe he'll have me half the half. I've been on Klonopin for about 10 years now. Never liked it. I want to be free from Klonopin jail. At least my dose is already fairly low. I asked if I could take Ativan for situational anxiety and he said yes. Generally I only take three to four of them max, per month. I will not let them replace the Klonopin.

[Soupe du jour]

I had a video appointment with my psychiatrist early yesterday evening, right before sunset. I deliberately sat in our living room with the view of it, and beautiful countryside. He got a kick out of me showing it to him using my laptop video cam. He was home in the US, with me in Czech Rep. I did something similar months ago, when my then therapist wanted to see the beach and ocean, when I had a video appointment while staying at the shore.

As I wrote to whatever2013, my psychiatrist is willing to wean me off Klonopin. I guess telling him that I only have 23 pills left, and an uncertain first appointment with a local psychiatrist, did it. By halving the dose (and later more), that gives me lots more time. Not that generic Klonopin is expensive, but I'll feel better being able to say I'm going off. Truth is, it is a useless part of my psych med cocktail.

Today I see my new therapist for the third time. Then soon after I have a virtual phone call appointment with my nephrologist from the US. I think I will end appointments with the latter. There's nothing he can really do anymore. I will ask for a more thorough appointment with my new general practitioner (and blood testing) in a couple months. The only thing I was going to tell the nephrologist was that I had the tingling/numb hands/feet. That's already being addressed with the new GP, and I have hope that it was stop completely soon. So far it seems a little reduced. Placebo effect? Who knows.

I will be extremely sad when I need to stop video appointments with pdoc. He and I have talked about that. He suggested I simply make an appointment to see him in person when I visit New Jersey next time, assuming the pandemic is over. I doubt he'd even charge me for the visit. I just want to see him face-to-face and shake his hand, or even hug him if he'd let me. I've known him for over 13 years, and he's been central in my life and recovery. I love the man. He knows. I perfectly remember the very moment I met him the first time.

[Innerzone]

Happy Birthday, Scooter!

@Soupe du jour: Glad to hear you're joining me in getting off the Klonopin! Good riddance to bad rubbish! It's always bothered me that i'm dependent on a drug which does nothing. Glad to have you aboard!

[Mountaindewed]

I’m doing kinda blah today but not terrible. I took my Geodon at 10:30 last night because I couldn’t sleep. I had taken 80, my night dose at 5:30. I also took a zofran last night which kind of make me drowsy the next day. So I woke up still early, and pretty tired and a bit crabby. I’m trying not to drink coffee or soda for right now so I had 4 mugs of Sakura tea and I was lying down for half an hour around 9 which helped. My mom went to the grocery store I used work at to get some stuff and she got me a lot of healthy stuff. The cashier who was there today was there when I worked there. I am Facebook friends with her. My mom said she was being a nut today and talking about how it’s a zombie apocalypse out there and that someone tried to off Tiger Woods and they need to get the black box out of his car. Ok... that is why I have my mom go into the store for me or I do curbside pickup. I don’t want to run into her. But she did come to my dads wake so she’s a generally nice person as long as you don’t talk about politics with her. But today I’m ok. Kinda anxious because I haven’t had Geodon since last night and also this PMS is getting tough. I’m hoping to feel a lot better by Monday. I only had a couple brief thoughts about my old therapist. But I keep getting better each day.

[*Beth*]

I'm in the Getting Off Klonopin club, too. I've been on it for over 2 decades so it's a very slow taper for me. My usual dose was 2mg./day. Now I'm taking 2mg. Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday; 1.5mg Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday. I'm figuring that it will take at least a year and a half before I'm close to off. Going by my previous 2 attempts to stop Klonopin it's all good - until that last .5mg. That was when sleep stopped happening and I felt so weak I could barely walk. The result was ending up back on the Klonopin.

This time it's slow and steady, even if it ends up taking two years.

I've been watching "Spinning Out" on Netflix and i find it very juvenile. It's absurdly unrealistic that the athletes drink alcohol and party hard. I was a competitive gymnast at just a regional level and i lived like a monk. I'm on episode five now and it's a real bore. The sub-plot of bipolar seems like an afterthought, just a marketing gimmick. It seems more like borderline with the self-harm. It's like a family-movie-of-the-week with a few F-bombs thrown in. I'm so disappointed. Hopefully it improves.

I went to bed 90 minutes early last night i was so tired. I've been trying to stick to a consistent time because of my benzo taper but last night i was just knackered. I got to sleep okay but woke up at dawn with an upset stomach. I got up and took some stomach remedy and got back to sleep. I feel okay today, but a bit cranky. I couldn't face doing my taxes today so i put them off til Monday which will be better if i need telephone support. It's a lot easier to get someone on the phone on a Monday afternoon than a Friday afternoon. It's my first time doing my taxes by myself, usually i use a service but that's $85 so i'm going to try my hardest.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

. It's my first time doing my taxes by myself, usually i use a service but that's $85 so i'm going to try my hardest.

I use tax act on line and have for ever.
They make the process really easy.
This year we may have to have some counsel on inheritance. As my mother in law left us monies. today is the one year anniversary of her death, can't believe it has been a year already.
wow
bizi

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by BethRags

I'm in the Getting Off Klonopin club, too. I've been on it for over 2 decades so it's a very slow taper for me. My usual dose was 2mg./day. Now I'm taking 2mg. Monday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday; 1.5mg Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday. I'm figuring that it will take at least a year and a half before I'm close to off. Going by my previous 2 attempts to stop Klonopin it's all good - until that last .5mg. That was when sleep stopped happening and I felt so weak I could barely walk. The result was ending up back on the Klonopin.

This time it's slow and steady, even if it ends up taking two years.

Patience always pays off in the end!

I'm glad you, whatever2013, and I are in this together. We can do it!

[Soupe du jour]

Since moving into our new home, we've had intermittent problems with ants. We thought we finally got rid of them, but when I opened the dishwasher this morning to load more dirty dishes, there was a major infestation inside. Most were on a particular plastic cutting board that I had cut raw chicken breasts on. Normally we're good at getting dishes loaded, washed, and unloaded, but we slacked off last night. I guess the buggers like raw chicken. I told Hubby we need to be more vigilant about taking care of the dishes.

My dad finally called my husband's old US cell phone number, which we've made into a virtual number. It took several reminders for him to remember he can reach us using it. It was one of the nicer chats we've had for a long time. He's always quick to want to cut calls short, but I managed for that one to last a good 15 mins. I soon after emailed my sister who said she had a similar one with him yesterday. I guess his depression is easing. He even sort of said as much. His assisted living facility has eased up on covid rules since all present there have had vaccinations, and covid numbers are down in the area. My sister even visited him INSIDE the facility in the cafeteria a few days ago. They can now eat meals together in the cafeteria. This is surely a mood booster for him!

[Altarian]

Guilty for buying myself something i didn’t need or use the money for the household. Also feel like a idiot because Monday the universe kicking me down a few steps at work causing me to freak out and freeze up followed by tuesday where i texted my boss, at suggestion of 2nd in charge, my feelings and thoughts.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Since moving into our new home, we've had intermittent problems with ants. We thought we finally got rid of them, but when I opened the dishwasher this morning to load more dirty dishes, there was a major infestation inside. Most were on a particular plastic cutting board that I had cut raw chicken breasts on. Normally we're good at getting dishes loaded, washed, and unloaded, but we slacked off last night. I guess the buggers like raw chicken. I told Hubby we need to be more vigilant about taking care of the dishes.

My dad finally called my husband's old US cell phone number, which we've made into a virtual number. It took several reminders for him to remember he can reach us using it. It was one of the nicer chats we've had for a long time. He's always quick to want to cut calls short, but I managed for that one to last a good 15 mins. I soon after emailed my sister who said she had a similar one with him yesterday. I guess his depression is easing. He even sort of said as much. His assisted living facility has eased up on covid rules since all present there have had vaccinations, and covid numbers are down in the area. My sister even visited him INSIDE the facility in the cafeteria a few days ago. They can now eat meals together in the cafeteria. This is surely a mood booster for him!

Relaxing covid rules - that's great! I can't even imagine how elderly people in care homes have managed this for a year. Depressing is right.

[Victoria'smom]

That stupid little pill is going to make me huge. I can't take it not today. I can't do this. I need an anxiety med just to take the AD. This is ridiculous. I'm a ****in adult. It's not like it contains a ton of calories, it has 0 cals but it can make you gain weight and I can't afford that. I can't afford to be crazy either.

[Mountaindewed]

I felt really sick last night. My pulse was 120 and I was sick to my stomach. This morning I woke up feeling better physically. I didn’t take my Geodon until 6AM. I usually take it at 2:30 and fall back asleep. So I was very tired and I ended up taking a 2 hour nap at 11:30. When I woke up at 1:30 my heart was beating very fast. Things are ok now although I’m still pretty tired and my PMS is bad right now. I need to just keep my Geodon on my nightstand so I can take it and go back to sleep. I couldn’t do anything today because of the tiredness. I think I may have to go back to a lower dose once I start working again.