[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Patience always pays off in the end!

I'm glad you, whatever2013, and I are in this together. We can do it!

[*Beth*]

A Saturday filled with chores. A normal day, and it occurred to me a while ago that a normal day like this one is to be cherished. There have been far too many days when the day was not normal. I feel really lucky today!

[wolftrap]

Disassociated for a few hours again today...just went with it, trying to stay connected to the physical world. What a pain in the head! Anyway, got back to reality, went grocery shopping then home. OK by mid-afternoon. Yes Beth, normal days are awesome!

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by wolftrap

Disassociated for a few hours again today...just went with it, trying to stay connected to the physical world. What a pain in the head! Anyway, got back to reality, went grocery shopping then home. OK by mid-afternoon. Yes Beth, normal days are awesome!

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[Mountaindewed]

Jeeze does it make a huge difference not taking my Geodon at 2:30AM and then not going back to sleep. I’ve been feeling all day like I was on heavy sleeping pills last night. I layed in bed a bit this morning. Then I took a 2 hour nap. Then I still couldn’t get out of bed. I took another 2 hour nap at 4:30. Now I’m thinking of just going to bed for the night. I feel fine both physically and mentally. I’m just so tired. I can barely keep my eyes open after I just took a 2 hour nap.

And all this is from the Geodon I’ve been on for a few months. Nothing else.

Edit: I took another 2 hour nap. Now I’m up and it’s kind of late but I’m hoping I won’t be up too long.

Basically all I did today was sleep because of the Geodon and have a lot of diarrhea because of the stuff I took yesterday. Everything I eat and drink goes right through me. I’m getting kind of concerned with dehydration. I just drank a Gatorade and my stomach feels funny. But I’m not sick and I feel ok. Not like I have a bug or anything.

And I also apparently gained 11 pounds since Friday. Wtf. I think it’s all the fluids and stuff I’ve been drinking to try and stay hydrated.

[bizi]

5 days sober then tonight 4 drinks.
bizi

[Mountaindewed]

I’m doing much better today. I took my Geodon at 1AM and got up at 8 and my tiredness has been fine. My stomach issues have stopped as well. I really do need a good 6-8 hours of sleep after I take my Geodon. Taking it and not going back to sleep just causes trouble.

It is so nice outside today. I’m wearing shorts. I don’t plan on going out but I do have the window open.

I ate a few bananas for breakfast and when I peeled the first one my fat orange cat immediately ran over and jumped from the couch to the recliner and stared at me while I ate it. He’s very friendly now.

[buddha1too]

A few weeks ago we had two feet of snow on the ground & daytime high temperatures were in the single digits. The snow has melted, & tomorrow & Tuesday we're supposed to have highs near 60F. Someone recently asked me if I thought spring had arrived. I said no...I remember significant snowfalls in April in the past.

It kind of reminds me of bipolar disorder. Back in January I emerged from a long winter of depression & began feeling "normal." While I will revel in the early arrival of spring-like days, just as I revel in my improved mood, I know both are temporary reprieves. I wish things were different, but that's the hand I've been dealt. All I can do is focus on today...on the emotional warmth & sunshine. Living in the moment is key. Just for today, I will make the most of my life & accept things for what they are.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by buddha1too

All I can do is focus on today...on the emotional warmth & sunshine. Living in the moment is key. Just for today, I will make the most of my life & accept things for what they are.

This is what I try to do nowadays. It serves me well.

[Soupe du jour]

I woke up so exhausted this morning that I declared I'd take a day off, finally. I mostly did. I'll admit when I was doing work today I sort of put on a sound of strain and exhaustion hoping that Hubby would get the message. He didn't. Oh well! Anyway, dinner will be microwaved leftovers.

This coming week, we will be contacting a prospective psychiatrist close to my home. My new therapist also recommended someone, but that psychiatrist works even further from my home than she is, which I find a bit far. I mentioned this to my new therapist, and she understood, and even asked the name of the other for any other English-speaking clients she gets. I'll provide it, if it works out, but not until I'm on that pdoc's calendar.

I'm not clicking with my current (new) therapist, and seemingly vice versa. I'm even wondering how much she can help me, or even how much help I really need. My concentration was mostly to be "adjustment" to my new country environment, but she made that seem like a five minute topic. I am already knowledgeable about CBT, DBT, and other coping skills. Not that I don't need reminders to use them, sometimes. Plus, she doesn't concentrate on CBT, more psychoanalysis, which I don't need. I could present "Myself" in an hour-long spiel and that would be that. I just think I need someone to chat with in a way I don't with Hubby. I sense that that's not what she's willing to accept. I'll give her another session, or two, before possibly quitting her. My mindset does change.

I sort of hope that my future psychiatrist can offer both med management and a teensy bit of therapy. That would be ideal! I've gotten that from my American psychiatrist in recent years. It made my American therapist less significant.

[Uykulu]

I woke up in bad mood .Yesterday I went out with my sister and a friend.We chatted.Our friend made my sister unhappy When he said something about my sister’s personal life and love life.He said you did wrong and you faced unpleasant things .ok he was thinking my sister but he has gone bit further and I didn’t interrupt enough.so I am feeling quilty even though he is good friend and don’t wanna harm my sister.I wouldnt let him make upset my sister.so I am upset today and I smoked today .I couldn’t tell this anyone .i tried to talk with my sister.she seems unhappy and I am unhappy.I love my sisters more than world but I feel I am weak when I feel bad I can’t read,I can’t watch tv series,do nothing.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

I woke up so exhausted this morning that I declared I'd take a day off, finally. I mostly did. I'll admit when I was doing work today I sort of put on a sound of strain and exhaustion hoping that Hubby would get the message. He didn't. Oh well! Anyway, dinner will be microwaved leftovers.

This coming week, we will be contacting a prospective psychiatrist close to my home. My new therapist also recommended someone, but that psychiatrist works even further from my home than she is, which I find a bit far. I mentioned this to my new therapist, and she understood, and even asked the name of the other for any other English-speaking clients she gets. I'll provide it, if it works out, but not until I'm on that pdoc's calendar.

I'm not clicking with my current (new) therapist, and seemingly vice versa. I'm even wondering how much she can help me, or even how much help I really need. My concentration was mostly to be "adjustment" to my new country environment, but she made that seem like a five minute topic. I am already knowledgeable about CBT, DBT, and other coping skills. Not that I don't need reminders to use them, sometimes. Plus, she doesn't concentrate on CBT, more psychoanalysis, which I don't need. I could present "Myself" in an hour-long spiel and that would be that. I just think I need someone to chat with in a way I don't with Hubby. I sense that that's not what she's willing to accept. I'll give her another session, or two, before possibly quitting her. My mindset does change.

I sort of hope that my future psychiatrist can offer both med management and a teensy bit of therapy. That would be ideal! I've gotten that from my American psychiatrist in recent years. It made my American therapist less significant.

It seems to me that a therapist who has never lived in (or even visited) the States would be at least somewhat difficult for you to work with, especially since cultural adaptation is one of the issues you want to work with.

[*Beth*]

After a not very restful night's sleep I awoke feeling short-tempered - which can rapidly turn to irrational anger. I made myself take some deep breaths and wrapped myself in a "protective light." Then I decided to do a major, deep cleaning chore that needed to be done today. Finished by 9 a.m.! That gives me time to cook a beef and barley stew this afternoon.

Winter is gone, gone, and spring is certainly here. These are the nice days when I can open the windows wide and enjoy the breezes. I'm looking forward to more trees blooming. The time changes in TWO weeks!! Wild! So, yeah, time to enjoy the lovely weather...until late May, when the windows close, the a/c gets turned on along with our sweltering "dry heat."

I heard that it was 1 year ago this week that a national emergency (covid pandemic) was declared in the U.S. One year! It feels to me like it's been three years. Not having to wear a mask to the grocery store seems like a distant memory.

@Soupe du jour: You've been working so hard you certainly deserve a day off. Sorry your husband didn't pitch in when you sighed. Hope things click with the psychiatrist you meet with this week and that you can work it out with your therapist or find one more suitable. You're being really pro-active about finding mental health professionals and sooner or later you will find a team you like.

[~Christina]

Hi yaa everyome

I fell a week ago and hit my head hardon the dog crate, Steve feeds awful he didnt know, I sai i had anthining was bleeding I would have die . Today ois the first day I can thin k , Im still struggli e wiht rwading and spelling, The entire week I do not rem member since i fe l l .. I hav e A concussion , I need it to go awcy.

Hope everrone is doing okay .

Hugss toi a ll

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hi yaa everyome

I fell a week ago and hit my head hardon the dog crate, Steve feeds awful he didnt know, I sai i had anthining was bleeding I would have die . Today ois the first day I can thin k , Im still struggli e wiht rwading and spelling, The entire week I do not rem member since i fe l l .. I hav e A concussion , I need it to go awcy.

Hope everrone is doing okay .

Hugss toi a ll

Oh, Christina . You are in my prayers. It's so good to hear from you.

[Mountaindewed]

To be honest I haven’t been S since I ended things with my therapist. And when I was seeing her through video sessions I was constantly S and thinking of SH. Theres been the depression about ending things but this weekend it hasn’t really been a problem. I didn’t know things were that bad with her and I felt such strong emotions because of it. Now I am actually looking forward to things like my move.

[Uykulu]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hi yaa everyome

I fell a week ago and hit my head hardon the dog crate, Steve feeds awful he didnt know, I sai i had anthining was bleeding I would have die . Today ois the first day I can thin k , Im still struggli e wiht rwading and spelling, The entire week I do not rem member since i fe l l .. I hav e A concussion , I need it to go awcy.

Hope everrone is doing okay .

Hugss toi a ll

I hope you get better soon Christina

[Innerzone]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hi yaa everyome

I fell a week ago and hit my head hardon the dog crate, Steve feeds awful he didnt know, I sai i had anthining was bleeding I would have die . Today ois the first day I can thin k , Im still struggli e wiht rwading and spelling, The entire week I do not rem member since i fe l l .. I hav e A concussion , I need it to go awcy.

Hope everrone is doing okay .

Hugss toi a ll

Big hugs. I hope you are better soon.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hi yaa everyome

I fell a week ago and hit my head hardon the dog crate, Steve feeds awful he didnt know, I sai i had anthining was bleeding I would have die . Today ois the first day I can thin k , Im still struggli e wiht rwading and spelling, The entire week I do not rem member since i fe l l .. I hav e A concussion , I need it to go awcy.

Hope everrone is doing okay .

Hugss toi a ll

doing ok.
hope you get back to normal asap.!!!!!
thank you for checking in, I have missed you.
((((((HUGS)))))
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