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buddha1too · Jun 14, 2021 at 09:36 PM

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What things have helped you change?

To some extent, getting older. The School of Hard Knocks offers quite the education. When I was young, I thought I was invulnerable & could get away with all forms of nonsense. Well, it turns out that wasn't the case at all...

Of all the sensory experiences you've enjoyed in your life, which was the most enjoyable?

BeyondtheRainbow · Jun 14, 2021 at 09:40 PM

The first time I laid under my weighted blanket.

Did you go to a prom? My friend just posted a picture of my senior prom. So long (and so much psychotropic weight gain) ago.

Soupe du jour · Jun 15, 2021 at 01:05 AM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

The first time I laid under my weighted blanket.

Did you go to a prom? My friend just posted a picture of my senior prom. So long (and so much psychotropic weight gain) ago.

I don't remember if they were called proms or some other type of dance parties, but I went to two that were at least prom-like. At one, I was surely hypomanic, at the least. I likely embarrassed the date (who never called me again) and myself, though like Mr. Bennett of Pride & Predjudice, I forgave myself, quickly. But there was a high school prom I refused to go to. I was in a most irritable or down mental state at the time. A guy that I knew very little invited me, and I said no. Though these were the main reasons, I strongly fear that nice guy thought another was. If he did, I feel deeply ashamed. Actually, my fear now is that he did.

How many people did you date in high school? And in your 20s?

mssweatypalms · Jun 15, 2021 at 05:46 AM

None. The first time I went on a date was when I was 29. I met a guy from an online dating app, but it didn't work out. I hope I dated earlier, but my mom was always telling me it was not good for my studies when I was younger. Plus, no one asked me out before then.

What colors do you think look good on you?

buddha1too · Jun 15, 2021 at 01:12 PM

I have green eyes with a distinctive bright yellow circle around the pupil (hazel eyes, I guess you might say). Green or yellow really make my eyes pop (or so I'm told). I don't, however, stock up on those colors because of this.

OK...County and state fair season is fast approaching. Do you enjoy attending such events? If so, what is your favorite part? Which rides do you enjoy?

Nammu · Jun 15, 2021 at 03:58 PM

Oh I used to love fairs. But my back prevents me from enjoying them now. However I’m going to PT now so maybe by the time August rolls around I’ll be stronger? I love the industry buildings, and 4H buildings so many interesting things to see. And free stuff to pick up!

Favorite rides? All of them when I was younger. One year a friend and I were on the zipper, every time they opened the door we handed him another ticket so we could go around again. Now-a-days it’s limited to the ferries wheel and the Matterhorn.

Good question, I’ll repeat it. With the fairs coming up, do you go? What’s your favorite things and rides?

*Beth* · Jun 15, 2021 at 07:21 PM

I absolutely love fairs! Some of my best memories happened at the fairs I've been to. The State Fair is held every year in my hometown, so I attended every summer from young childhood until my 50's. Now I live in a different town, but it has a cute little fair every summer...except not last/this summer because of covid. Disappointing. Next year!

Rides - LOVED them, especially roller coasters, until I was rear-ended in an accident in my 30's. After that, unfortunately I couldn't do rides anymore due to having had a whiplash. But I still love the amusement park section, all the lights are so pretty at night.

Continuing...what was/is your favorite amusement park ride?

Jun 16, 2021 at 04:32 AM

as a kid, I remember going on a ride that was themed to a tour of a fizzy pop factory. I don't remember too much about the actual experience, but I do remember the soundtrack, and I think I remember going round in a little boat seeing diffrent sceens from the factory. I'm sure that if I heard the soundtrack today, I would remember standing their in the queue

I have not been on anything since though- my weight is the main issue with rides, the safety bars don't like me. but their's my only ride memory

question: do you ever see something and wish, I wish I could do that?, but know that for what ever reason, you can't (been here a lot)

MuddyBoots · Jun 16, 2021 at 08:35 AM

Yeah. Work, read, sleep...er, function. There's also this long run called the Pemi Loop that some people run in a day it's like 30 miles and has 10,000ft of elevation gain.

Do you have any comorbidities?

Soupe du jour · Jun 16, 2021 at 09:03 AM

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Yeah. Work, read, sleep...er, function. There's also this long run called the Pemi Loop that some people run in a day it's like 30 miles and has 10,000ft of elevation gain.

Do you have any comorbidities?

No, nothing really firm right now. I suppose there are always bits of low-level anxiety issues, at times. One could say that I have very mild social anxiety for some situations. I used to have an alcohol dependence code, but I demanded that be removed after a long effort to prove I wasn't a bona fide alcoholic.Not that I didn't abuse alcohol, at points, but that was more self-medication of bipolar disorder.

Did you ever have a major disagreement with a psychiatrist or therapist? If so, what was it about (if you're willing to share)?

Jun 16, 2021 at 09:16 AM

yes.

Possible trigger:

me and a friend were organizing a suicide pact and I remember my therapist asking me about my plans

I told her well, I'm going to do watch the musical avenue q first, then after the musical, I'm going to do it in a hotel with her.

she asked me: are you sure it's not that you just want to see the musical? (I have no interest in seeing avenue q, this was her idea)

me: I come in here every week, despearet and upset, and you're asking me if the only reason I'm going to london is to watch avenue q?

her:

Possible trigger:

well if that's what you want, just do it. it will make my life easier and you'll stop *****ing about it.

it was a very difficult time in my life, made worse by the fact that it was my parents who provided

Possible trigger:

stuff to do it

so, I'm going to ask..

what would you say was the hardest time in your life?. how did you get through it?

buddha1too · Jun 16, 2021 at 10:00 AM

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Originally Posted by raging vortex

what would you say was the hardest time in your life?. how did you get through it?

This might sound like a pretty high class problem, but when I was living in Germany I booked a summer vacation to Crete (a beautiful Greek island in the middle of the Mediterranean Sea). A woman I lived with had broken things off with me a few months before, & I thought getting away would make time go faster. I was already morbidly depressed before I left, but vacationing alone made matters even worse. While there was much to do & see, I spent the entire 10 days holed up in my hotel room drinking all day...with the TV blaring American programs dubbed in Greek. I've never felt so utterly alone. So far from the States...unsure if I'd ever live long enough to return.

To be honest, I'm not sure how I got through it. My drinking was out of hand at that point; a few months after my return to Germany I came back to the States, & started going to AA to put my life back together.

Do you have a green thumb? Have aquariums, or other pets? Other interactions with living things? How do you live in harmony with life in your own small space of the world?

Soupe du jour · Jun 16, 2021 at 12:57 PM

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Originally Posted by buddha1too

This might sound like a pretty high class problem, but when I was living in Germany I booked a summer vacation to Crete (a beautiful Greek island in the middle of the Mediterranean Sea). A woman I lived with had broken things off with me a few months before, & I thought getting away would make time go faster. I was already morbidly depressed before I left, but vacationing alone made matters even worse. While there was much to do & see, I spent the entire 10 days holed up in my hotel room drinking all day...with the TV blaring American programs dubbed in Greek. I've never felt so utterly alone. So far from the States...unsure if I'd ever live long enough to return.

To be honest, I'm not sure how I got through it. My drinking was out of hand at that point; a few months after my return to Germany I came back to the States, & started going to AA to put my life back together.

Do you have a green thumb? Have aquariums, or other pets? Other interactions with living things? How do you live in harmony with life in your own small space of the world?

No green thumb here. Not one of my talents, but I do try hard with mixed success. When successful, it's mostly because of trying and trying again. Or luck. That doesn't stop me from planting things, because I love plants, flowers, trees, and herbs. I am fairly good at flower arranging.

As for pets, I've never had a fish. In my youth, I had a cat. Later I had parrots (one at a time). I had mixed success caring for them sufficiently. I loved them, but I guess I wasn't cut out to ever be a mother. Never had a human kid. When I could have, I wasn't ready/interested. When I was older, I was too sick (and didn't want them). My husband dislikes children even more than I do. Of course if we'd had them, we'd have loved them.

I live in harmony with my hubby. He is the greatest thing in my world. We explore the rest together.

What is something you're very good at and something you're not?

Nammu · Jun 16, 2021 at 01:18 PM

Well it’s been a long long time but I’m very very good with architecture drawing. The old fashioned way with a pencil, drawing board and rulers. That’s what I went to college for for two years. But I was convinced by my professor that in that field it depended on being able to hear to make connections with others to get ahead no matter how good you were with the technological parts. So I switched schools and went into archeology! That did me no good. Of course now-a-days everyone uses computers to make blueprints.

What I’m not good at, small talk. I need a topic. I’m not good at coming up with questions for this thread either. I cheat and google it.

With modern life comes keyboards, are you a fast typer? I’m a slow bear and do the hunt and peck methods

BeyondtheRainbow · Jun 16, 2021 at 09:09 PM

My guidance counselor in high school pressured me into taking typing. It was the best advice he gave me. I touch type and I do it fast.

What is/are your pet(s) name(s)?

buddha1too · Jun 16, 2021 at 09:29 PM

I have a 6.5 pound chihuahua/fox terrier mix named Big Papi. I wish I knew how to post a picture of him. He's a speedy, yet compact little dude.

In grade, middle, or high school, did you have one favorite teacher who stood out above all the rest? What was it about this teacher that you found especially wonderful?

BeyondtheRainbow · Jun 16, 2021 at 10:08 PM

I was an athlete in an abusive home. There were a number of coaches who watched out for me and protected me as much as possible. Once one literally pulled me away from my father who was screaming at me and coming at me. He pulled me in the school, hid me in a room with no windows and wouldn't let me out until they calmed my father down. There were a lot of times those coaches stepped in and if nothing else they helped my self esteem a lot. I think without them my life would have been vastly different (yet still landing on disability).

Is pineapple a good topping for pizza?

Nammu · Jun 16, 2021 at 11:10 PM

If it’s the right pizza it is. Canadian bacon 🥓 and cheese 🧀 with pineapple 🍍 yum. But other pizzas 🍕 can be better. I just have to be in the mood for it. Ironically it’s the only way I like pineapple, on a pizza!

Do you like watching late night TV? If so who?

Jun 17, 2021 at 04:15 AM

my late night tv usually comes in the form of animated sitcoms- family guy, american dad, bob's burgers, that kind of thing. we have a channel that shows late night marathons of those shows so it works

thoughts on eating seafood?. love it?. hate it?. not bad?

Soupe du jour · 07:40 AM

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Originally Posted by raging vortex

my late night tv usually comes in the form of animated sitcoms- family guy, american dad, bob's burgers, that kind of thing. we have a channel that shows late night marathons of those shows so it works

thoughts on eating seafood?. love it?. hate it?. not bad?

I adore seafood, but don't eat as much as I like because my husband doesn't like the large variety that I do. Plus, some of it is quite expensive. Especially in my new land-locked country. But I grew up in New Jersey, a coastal state. My grandparents and parents had boats on the bay. We would crab, clam, and fish many summers, in my childhood. I like pretty much all seafood.

Do you avoid eating new foods, or at least give them a fair shake? What is the food you tried most reluctantly? Did you like it?

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BeyondtheRainbow Wise Elder Member Since Apr 2015 Location: US Posts: 9,226 (SuperPoster!) 9 9,383 hugs given	Jun 14, 2021 at 09:40 PM #522 The first time I laid under my weighted blanket. Did you go to a prom? My friend just posted a picture of my senior prom. So long (and so much psychotropic weight gain) ago. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel

mssweatypalms Member Member Since May 2021 Location: middle of nowhere Posts: 242 2 476 hugs given	Jun 15, 2021 at 05:46 AM #524 None. The first time I went on a date was when I was 29. I met a guy from an online dating app, but it didn't work out. I hope I dated earlier, but my mom was always telling me it was not good for my studies when I was younger. Plus, no one asked me out before then. What colors do you think look good on you?

BeyondtheRainbow Wise Elder Member Since Apr 2015 Location: US Posts: 9,226 (SuperPoster!) 9 9,383 hugs given	Jun 16, 2021 at 09:09 PM #535 My guidance counselor in high school pressured me into taking typing. It was the best advice he gave me. I touch type and I do it fast. What is/are your pet(s) name(s)? __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel

buddha1too Veteran Member Member Since Sep 2011 Posts: 735 12 2,547 hugs given	Jun 16, 2021 at 09:29 PM #536 I have a 6.5 pound chihuahua/fox terrier mix named Big Papi. I wish I knew how to post a picture of him. He's a speedy, yet compact little dude. In grade, middle, or high school, did you have one favorite teacher who stood out above all the rest? What was it about this teacher that you found especially wonderful?

Anonymous32451 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 17, 2021 at 04:15 AM #539 my late night tv usually comes in the form of animated sitcoms- family guy, american dad, bob's burgers, that kind of thing. we have a channel that shows late night marathons of those shows so it works thoughts on eating seafood?. love it?. hate it?. not bad?