BeyondtheRainbow

Last question:

Do you wish you could see your tdoc and pdoc more or less often?

Answer:
Not really. I think my therapist thinks we could do less but I feel safer at the weekly visit level.

Question:
What is the last thing you bought?

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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD.
Clozapine 350 mg, Emsam 9 mg, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1200 mg & 100-400 mg PRN, 1.5 mg clonazepam, lots of meds for side effects and vitamins

lightly toasted

Some potting soil and a couple of saucers to go under the plant pots.

Did you have a disappointment today?

BethRags

Yes, my therapist took the week off on just a few hours notice. I hope she's not doing one of her month-long "disappearing acts."



If you could be somewhere right this minute, where would you be? Alone or with someone?

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-Beth

Moose72

I am alone right now, but it would be nice to see my daughter. I haven't heard from her in a little while now.

What is your favorite creative outlet?

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*Schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type*

Haldol 2.5 mg daily; 2 mg Pro Re Nata
Seroquel 150 mg
Wellbutrin XL 300 mg
Rexulti 3.5 mg
Topomax 50 mg
Trazodone 50 mg - as needed


Most recent episode:

Mania (April/May 2019)


"You will never get any more out of life than you expect"- Bruce Lee

Soupe du jour

Humor. Also baking and writing.

Do you tend to tell a lot of stories?

raging vortex

if it comes to nostalgia. I like to look back on things, especially toys I used to own, or experiences I had

not so much about the present day

question: have you ever had someone who you thought was being really supportive turn round and hurt you just like that/ speak behind your back

BeyondtheRainbow

Yes, my so-called best friend.

What is the worst side effect you put up with now or have tolerated in the past?

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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD.
Clozapine 350 mg, Emsam 9 mg, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1200 mg & 100-400 mg PRN, 1.5 mg clonazepam, lots of meds for side effects and vitamins

Soupe du jour

My worst were in the past. Severe akathisia from Geodon was a major doozy. Severe! Also, I had a period of hyperprolactinemia on Invega. It's bad enough to have lactation, but to have it cause a pituitary microadenoma was the last straw. Plus, I was depressed on that mix of Invega and Depakote ER. It made me gain the most weight ever, and my blood work results so bad that I had to go to a dietitian.

My current med mix is a comparative dream. Very tolerable side effects. Unfortunately, I do still live with permanent damage to my kidneys and thyroid from Lithium, but my current mix doesn't exacerbate them.

Do you consider yourself child-like in any way(s)?

Bipolarchic14

My moments of anger make me feel like a toddler having a temper tantrum. Also when I go through euphoria I feel childlike glee for really no apparent reason. Do you ever feel trapped inside yourself?

raging vortex

yes, in a lot of ways- mainly I want to remain a kid and by a kid, I don't just mean mentally.. I mean actually being at a kids age and getting a chance to have a better childhood

but also I hate my body. I must be related to shrek- his sister or something.

do you find gaming a good source of distraction?. do you do gaming at all?