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Default Apr 06, 2021 at 06:00 PM
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So as of like 3 weeks ago my sleep has started to get a little out of control. We'll now its massively out of control. I'm sleeping very little at night maybe 4 hours. Then having to sleep throughout the day to function. I know this isn't good at all. It's nearly midnight I have been up 14 hours and I have slept 8 of these hours. I am still in bed. I ordered take out for tea and ate it in bed as going to the door was enough energy.

I am going through the motion of not showering the longest I have went is 4 days. Same with brushing my teeth. Tbh if I could I wouldn't shower despite smelling (sorry eugh and tmi)

I need to cry but really can't except the odd tear rolling down my face.

I have no-one in real life to turn to, I did a mood scale and I was sitting on a 1 or a 2 which is depression. I was hyper last week now I'm sad

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Default Apr 06, 2021 at 07:41 PM
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I'm so sorry, Laura. It seems that you were rather manic for quite a long stretch, if I'm correct. Maybe now you're plummeting into the other side of bipolar disorder?

Is it possible to have your medication adjusted before your depression gets any worse?

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Default Apr 07, 2021 at 04:21 AM
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My Depakote just got upped at night to 750mg so that's it.

I think I need sleep and help but I don't know the help is avaliable. I don't even know what help I need.

I have just cut ties with 2 "friends" who have treated me badly. So guess that's a positive. Wish I felt good about it but I don't.

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Default Apr 07, 2021 at 05:32 AM
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i agree with the wise and wonderful BethRags about this being possibly an effect of your bipolar and about adjusting at least some of your meds if it works out. It seems like you're already working on that latter part, which i think is good. i am also not sleeping regularly recently so i can partly relate although for me it's mostly a matter or laziness and not really bipolar since i don't have it. Try to sleep more regularly even if it simply means taking one step at the time. Same with showering and brushing your teeth. i Hope and Pray things will improve for you. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Miss Laura, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!
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Today I cut ties with a "friend" of 17 years. She has been making my mental health suffer for years in respect she doesn't talk to me, treats me at a distance, is a lousy friend.... but expects me to keep giving. So I cut ties with her she is now deleted off of my phone. I feel s$$$ for doing it but know I need to, to move on in life.

I feel really sad, upset, lonely as she is the last remaining friend of my youth before I got ill. She has been there through everything. It hurts that she treated me like a piece of poo on your shoe.

This is adding to my low mood I have to admit I'm just tired all the time and sad and teary

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Default Apr 08, 2021 at 07:57 AM
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That hurts!

Maybe, instead of changes to meds, what you need to do is to mourn the loss of this friendship. Acknowledge it, give yourself permission and time to remember the bad -and surely some good- times, and only decide to move on when this mourning phase is over. There's no telling how long it will take, but I wish you the best. What you're going through is very painful.

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Default Apr 12, 2021 at 06:27 PM
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Yesterday was a bad day, the tiredness was just unreal slept most of the day again. Had my therapist but the signal kept going so she is calling on Thursday. I just feel really sad and down. I thought of telling her I've been hurting myself but I couldn't I've been doing so well lately. Being medicated, taking my meds, being ok etc. I've been staying at my Sister's a lot which my mental team don't like they think I need to spend time at my flat and they are right but it's complicated huh.

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Default Apr 12, 2021 at 08:18 PM
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You can adjust your medication(s) and still mourn the loss of your friendships. My best friend of 53 years died in February very suddenly of heart failure. I've been grieving her death since she died; it turned my world upside-down. I also added in (at my pdoc's suggestion) another AD. Due to the grief, I was falling into a major depression. Now I don't have to give all my energy to the depression - but I can grieve and process properly.

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Default Apr 12, 2021 at 10:37 PM
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I can't adjust anything in the UK I would need a Psychiattust appointment and I'm not seeing him for another 2-3 months time can't get a sooner appt.

I can't take an anti-depressant as it sends me manic so I have to ride the depressions out been like this for 10 years.

I'ts not my friendship breakdown that caused this I was depressed prior to this happening. Its not nice but it was a necessity I'm sick of being a door mat.

I guess I was just showing my frustratiins at not being able to be happy

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Being a doormat is no good. I commend you for establishing a healthy boundary with your former friend.

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Hey Miss Laura, I also commend you for setting a healthy boundary with this person.

I'm sorry you have to wait so long for (edited)

Being a doormat is not good. Plenty of people try to treat others that way. They suck.

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Default Apr 17, 2021 at 03:56 AM
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Thankfully I'm coming out of the depression I have now the odd day where I'm blah but I'm bouncing back to my old self. I'm glad my depression only lasts a few weeks.

I was feeling really low the other day I'm working with my support worker on self esteem. Been reading a few chapters of a book and working through the exercises. It's made me realise my life hasn't always been good/fine that I preach. When I come up against something hard in life even though its not good I will say to people "Auch it's all good!" I'm trying to convince myself it will be alright in the end.

My worker is going to speak to my nurse and see if I can be referred to another team in my mental health team to delve deeper into my low self esteem. I'm really scared and I might need to give up on my private therapist which I'm scared of too

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Default Apr 17, 2021 at 11:16 AM
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Good for you, Laura, for getting in there and doing your self-work!

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