Bipolar check-in #56

Nammu · May 26, 2021 at 11:16 AM

Mum has started a cleaning streak. She is emptying a large closet and pulling things out. The whole house is cluttered up with this stuff. I used to be into ceramics and some of the big pieces one is a watering can that she put flowers in, it looks nice. Another is made to look like a rope bag. It’s my favorite piece but what to do with them? Mum wants to sell the house and move to a townhouse or apartment. I can get behind that cause man, never realized what work a house is and with my back it’s hard. I have all my stuff in the basement too. And a few more bigger piece of ceramic art.

Mountaindewed · May 26, 2021 at 12:46 PM

I went with my mom to her attorneys because she wanted to make a will and a trust and whatever. It was uncomfortable hearing the words “when you pass” and “if you get temporally sick”. But my mom knows what she’s doing and I trust my sister and I know she won’t like take advantage or anything like that when my mom dies. The attorney was alright. My mom got me involved because the attorney needed my full legal name and then that got talking about the other stuff and my mom then asked how to change my name and stuff. The attorney was friendly and accepting although pretty clueless. Before she knew anything I used the men’s bathroom without an issue. The place was empty anyways. I thought it would be funny if I got busted in an attorneys office.

After that I went to the Vitamin Shoppe to get some protein powder. I’m glad the guy took me seriously because I’ve had issues before where your not “their” type so they don’t pay any attention to you. Has anyone else had that issue with going into certain stores? Anyways he helped me figure out the best thing that I was looking for. It’s Cinnamon Toast Crunch flavored. He said it will work for weight loss and also muscle gain. I had some for lunch and it’s pretty good.

I bought this like pull up chin up stand up thing yesterday from Amazon. I wanted just a doorway one but my mom said they can wreck the doors. I hope it’s worth the $100 I spent on it and that it’s sturdy.

Mountaindewed · May 26, 2021 at 01:38 PM

My mom said my aunt could meet us for dinner the night before my surgery at a restaurant near the hotel. I don’t know about anyone else but that doesn’t sound very good. I think I’d be too nervous to actually eat. I do want to see my aunt though. I was going to go to a concert though before my first surgery. But I had to quarantine for 3 days. I’m still kinda annoyed about missing that concert. Now since it’s a rapid Covid test I don’t think I’ll have to quarantine. But I kind of just want to hang out in the hotel the night before. But is it just avoiding my anxiety by staying inside instead of going out to eat. I’m having a hard time figuring out what’s reasonable anxiety and what’s irrational.

Nammu · May 26, 2021 at 02:40 PM

Well the flower box is full. Got what I wanted, Golden marigolds and red geraniums, plus a different reddish 🌺 🌸 🌹 thing. They only had a couple of those so I thought they must be popular and got a couple. Looks nice but I should have gotten 5 geraniums not 3. I always forget how big the flower box is. I like the contrast between the bright colors.

It’s a perfect day for doing this. Sunny and mild, 66 today. The next couple of days are cool and rainy so it should be good for the flowers to recouperate. At least now I now why I get winded so fast, it’s part of the low iron. So in a couple weeks I should be doing better that way. I didn’t have thrush but I did have a fungal thing. So I’m taking these tablets 5 times a day for that. It requires that I set my alarm for 6am. But this morning I got to turn it off at 5 as I couldn’t sleep. Should sleep good tonight.

*Beth* · May 26, 2021 at 03:59 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Well the flower box is full. Got what I wanted, Golden marigolds and red geraniums, plus a different reddish 🌺 🌸 🌹 thing. They only had a couple of those so I thought they must be popular and got a couple. Looks nice but I should have gotten 5 geraniums not 3. I always forget how big the flower box is. I like the contrast between the bright colors.

It’s a perfect day for doing this. Sunny and mild, 66 today. The next couple of days are cool and rainy so it should be good for the flowers to recouperate. At least now I now why I get winded so fast, it’s part of the low iron. So in a couple weeks I should be doing better that way. I didn’t have thrush but I did have a fungal thing. So I’m taking these tablets 5 times a day for that. It requires that I set my alarm for 6am. But this morning I got to turn it off at 5 as I couldn’t sleep. Should sleep good tonight.

The flowers sound beautiful, Nammu.

*Beth* · May 26, 2021 at 04:09 PM

I'm coming apart. My cat is still vomiting many times every day. He has to be seen again tomorrow. He's only 3. My husband is angry because we have no more money for vet payment. All I can do is ask them to hold a check. He says that sometimes pets have to be put down and I have to accept that. I told him that there could be medication that may help London. I'm so frightened, I've never been so afraid. I have no one to support me through this. I called my therapist, but she's out today. I emailed her, but what good does that do? She told me to call her if he was still sick, but she's not even there. What do you do when you're so terrified and anxious that every minute seems like an hour. I don't know what to do.

Mountaindewed · May 26, 2021 at 04:57 PM

I just had my pre surgery registration phone call. They just asked for my meds, medical history etc. the only weird question was if I have a large neck and what size I am. As I have said my shoulders don’t match my hips so button shirts don’t fit very well on me. But I often opt for a large when I’m a small in everything else. She said it’s an hour long surgery. The only thing that freaks me out is I’ll be under general anesthesia again. And the last time they intubated me and a tube down my throat is a bit freaky. Man am I glad I didn’t get Covid. They didn’t say anything about quarantine. So I guess I can go out to dinner the night before if I’m up to it. The nurse said staying in a hotel was a great idea and I’ll get my pain meds at a pharmacy close to the hotel. So based on that I expect to be in a good amount of pain. Hopefully the pain meds make me loopy so I won’t remember my cousins baby shower that Saturday.

But my mom bought the table she was thinking of getting. My sister and brother inlaw said it was great and a steal. I don’t really think $800 for a used table is necessarily a steal, but the table is really nice. They will pick it up on Friday and drop it off at our house that night. They have some errands to run Friday morning so my nephews will be at my house all day. I have a therapy appointment late Friday afternoon. Which I feel like is a weird time to do therapy. But then my mom is going to fix a nice dinner once the table gets to my house.

So yeah I’m nervous but excited.

MuddyBoots · May 26, 2021 at 06:37 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

I'm coming apart. My cat is still vomiting many times every day. He has to be seen again tomorrow. He's only 3. My husband is angry because we have no more money for vet payment. All I can do is ask them to hold a check. He says that sometimes pets have to be put down and I have to accept that. I told him that there could be medication that may help London. I'm so frightened, I've never been so afraid. I have no one to support me through this. I called my therapist, but she's out today. I emailed her, but what good does that do? She told me to call her if he was still sick, but she's not even there. What do you do when you're so terrified and anxious that every minute seems like an hour. I don't know what to do.

I'm sorry your cat isn't doing so well. I hope the vet can provide an optimistic prognosis for him. As a fellow cat-owner, I understand how hard it can be when they're sick. Sending hugs

MuddyBoots · May 26, 2021 at 07:05 PM

My day was okay, depression stayed pretty mild. We got some t-storms so that was nice. Got pretty close to a deer in this area in town I call the enchanted forest, and I found a spider I can't identify but it was very cool looking (definitely not a black widow or brown recluse so probably safe).

BeyondtheRainbow · May 26, 2021 at 07:22 PM

Thinking of you BethRags. I hope tomorrow goes well and you find an easy answer.

Sunflower123 · May 26, 2021 at 07:54 PM

Likewise, thinking of you BethRags and London. I hope things work out in the best possible way.

VerMOZZica · May 26, 2021 at 08:53 PM

BethRags I hope things go well for you and London at the vet. I hope they can find something to help your cat.

buddha1too · May 26, 2021 at 09:47 PM

Ditto with the good thoughts for you & London, BethRags. I know you've had low-grade anxiety even without the pressure of getting your cat the care he needs. Just know we all realize how supportive you are of everyone on these boards...even when you're not feeling your best. You're a good egg who deserves a break! I hope tomorrow is a better day.

Moose72 · May 26, 2021 at 10:38 PM

My pdoc called today. Just another check up. Said I'm good at vatching episodes before they become worse. She tells me this every time we talk but to her it seems like a first time revelation. She said I sound stable and that we won't have in person appointments until the summer.

I talked with Caleb today for a bit. That was nice. Talked with Noah over the phone. He said he had a secret shopper at work today trying to see if he would ask for ID for some jewel whatever they are's. Anyway he passed the test.

I finished my new book last night. It was a very-well-written novel. Its a "thriller" according to the cover of the book. I'm going to start another one of his-Daniel Kalla's- books.

Soupe du jour · May 27, 2021 at 01:59 AM

Welcome @peachiee23! We're glad you joined us here.

Soupe du jour · May 27, 2021 at 02:03 AM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

I'm coming apart. My cat is still vomiting many times every day. He has to be seen again tomorrow. He's only 3. My husband is angry because we have no more money for vet payment. All I can do is ask them to hold a check. He says that sometimes pets have to be put down and I have to accept that. I told him that there could be medication that may help London. I'm so frightened, I've never been so afraid. I have no one to support me through this. I called my therapist, but she's out today. I emailed her, but what good does that do? She told me to call her if he was still sick, but she's not even there. What do you do when you're so terrified and anxious that every minute seems like an hour. I don't know what to do.

Sending you hugs, BethRags. I sure do hope that London recovers from his sickness. Cats certainly can be resilient. But if his illness is too much to bear, I wish him relief either way.

~Christina · May 27, 2021 at 02:29 AM

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

The pandemic is becoming a major ball and chain for my husband and me. Even though the area we live in is pleasant in many ways, Hubby is not that happy here. It's hard for me to be happy, too, because everything is stalled. Under normal circumstances, we'd be thinking about next steps. It was our initial understanding that my husband's best friend would have work for my husband in the area we're living. However, the future of that seems grim as the friend is basically disabled by the psychosis he's experiencing from covid-19. If we had known this would happen, we would have picked a different area, much closer to my husband's friends and family in/near Prague. We would have also liked to start exploring France even more, but that can't happen either, because of covid-19. Let's get this stupid pandemic over with already! I'm eager to get the darned vaccine already and hope everyone else will, too. I can't express how people not getting the vaccine only makes life harder for everyone. Supposedly, people like me and Hubby who aren't yet in the insurance system can get appointments for the vaccine sometime in June.

Another hassle we're dealing with is getting our mail from the US. My husband's friend was getting it for us since he lives in our old area in the US. Since that friend also regularly came to Czech Republic, monthly, he was bringing it. As he has been ill with psychosis for so long, we've been unable to get it. We're not blaming him. Of course not. But that still creates a difficulty for us. My husband has asked another friend to get it and send it, priority, to us. My sister has already mailed stuff to us from another source. "Priority" seems to be extraordinarily slow, unlike in the past. I can't help but think the current USPS head, and his cronies, are mostly to blame. She mailed it one and a half weeks ago and it still hasn't arrived. One time we even had mail sent by UPS (United Parcel Service) but that cost almost $200. That reached us in three days only. That's not affordable to do more than once, or max twice. In contrast, USPS Priority costs about $35. If/when we finally get it, it will be received as slowly as regular Air Mail letters, way back when. In fact, I think the Air Mail birthday card my sister sent me reached us faster.

I'm sorry that the move hasn't been as easy as you had hoped for. Yes Covid has just screwed up everything!!!!

Ahhhh the Mail??? I've send my friend in Cape town South Africa cards and Birthday presents Its hella expensive and on average it takes 2-3 or more weeks to finally get to her door.

Most everything here in my state is back open at full capacity. I think right now there is just over 30% have gotten the vaccine.

I hope things get easier fast for you

~Christina · May 27, 2021 at 02:50 AM

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Originally Posted by peachiee23

Hi everyone! I'm new around here. In the new member thread, it was suggested I come over here.
I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 about a month ago - had my first manic episode, likely induced by taking Lexapro... which has lead into the depressive state, which I'm still clawing out from.
I am still taking the Lexapro and I'm on Lamictal, slowly tappering up. I'm wondering if the Lamictal is causing some crying bouts or if it's just the nature of being in this depressive state.
Anyway, I really look forward to chat with everyone!

Welcome

If your Pdoc ( Psychriatrist) feels that Lexapro caused it why do they still want you to take it? "usually" if there is a "chance" a medication caused an episode the first thing is to take a person off the med.

Lamictal works on the depressive end of Bipolar it does virtually nothing for hypo/manic mood shifts. Its also actually a Seizure medication that was found to offer some help with depression. I think they did finally add it to the class of " Mood stabilizer" Its takes time for that to show any signs its working because of the way you have to start out low dose and slowly increase to avoid SJS Rash

Do you have a follow up appt with your Pdoc soon?? Maybe there is a reason to leave you on it

How many sessions/ appts have you had ?

Sorry dont mean to fire tons of questions I'm just trying to get an idea of your situation

~Christina · May 27, 2021 at 02:59 AM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Mum has started a cleaning streak. She is emptying a large closet and pulling things out. The whole house is cluttered up with this stuff. I used to be into ceramics and some of the big pieces one is a watering can that she put flowers in, it looks nice. Another is made to look like a rope bag. It’s my favorite piece but what to do with them? Mum wants to sell the house and move to a townhouse or apartment. I can get behind that cause man, never realized what work a house is and with my back it’s hard. I have all my stuff in the basement too. And a few more bigger piece of ceramic art.

Oooooh I miss doing ceramics !

Upkeep on a home really is alot of work...

~Christina · May 27, 2021 at 03:07 AM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Well the flower box is full. Got what I wanted, Golden marigolds and red geraniums, plus a different reddish 🌺 🌸 🌹 thing. They only had a 's alreadycouple of those so I thought they must be popular and got a couple. Looks nice but I should have gotten 5 geraniums not 3. I always forget how big the flower box is. I like the contrast between the bright colors.

It’s a perfect day for doing this. Sunny and mild, 66 today. The next couple of days are cool and rainy so it should be good for the flowers to recouperate. At least now I now why I get winded so fast, it’s part of the low iron. So in a couple weeks I should be doing better that way. I didn’t have thrush but I did have a fungal thing. So I’m taking these tablets 5 times a day for that. It requires that I set my alarm for 6am. But this morning I got to turn it off at 5 as I couldn’t sleep. Should sleep good tonight.

Oh Flowers !!! They sound lovely. Id love some of your weather, We had a couple days mid 90's its May not freaking August

Hope the meds kick in quickly and your back rocking and rolling as fast as you'd like

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BeyondtheRainbow Wise Elder Member Since Apr 2015 Location: US Posts: 9,233 (SuperPoster!) 9 9,387 hugs given	May 26, 2021 at 07:22 PM #350 Thinking of you BethRags. I hope tomorrow goes well and you find an easy answer. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel

Sunflower123 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jan 2015 Location: USA Posts: 26,543 (SuperPoster!) 9 95k hugs given	May 26, 2021 at 07:54 PM #351 Likewise, thinking of you BethRags and London. I hope things work out in the best possible way.

VerMOZZica Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Nov 2009 Location: This Unhappy Planet Posts: 23,900 (SuperPoster!) 14 1,710 hugs given	May 26, 2021 at 08:53 PM #352 BethRags I hope things go well for you and London at the vet. I hope they can find something to help your cat. __________________

buddha1too Veteran Member Member Since Sep 2011 Posts: 735 12 2,547 hugs given	May 26, 2021 at 09:47 PM #353 Ditto with the good thoughts for you & London, BethRags. I know you've had low-grade anxiety even without the pressure of getting your cat the care he needs. Just know we all realize how supportive you are of everyone on these boards...even when you're not feeling your best. You're a good egg who deserves a break! I hope tomorrow is a better day.

Soupe du jour Elder Member Since Jun 2015 Location: Czechia Posts: 5,154 8 13.4k hugs given	May 27, 2021 at 01:59 AM #355 Welcome @peachiee23! We're glad you joined us here.