[Bipolarchic14]

All week I have been struggling at work. I have just been having so much difficulty sitting still reading through emails that I have to respond to and I keep drifting off not like sleep but like zoning out. So it has greatly impacted my work. All week I’ve been telling myself I’m not getting hypo cause I am sleeping at night. Well it’s now 2 o’clock in the morning and I am not sleeping. So I’ve been pacing around the house because there’s nowhere to go during the pandemic at 2 o’clock in the morning! Even Walmart in my area is closed not to say that I want to go there at 2o’clock in the morning but whatever. So in my last pace around the house my dad says if you don’t go to sleep I am going to get out my spanking stick. I want to add that my father has never hit me in my life. So a new warning sign for me if my father is threatening to hit me at 2o’clock in the morning it’s probably not a good sign. 🤣🤣🤣

[Soupe du jour]

There definitely can be a humorous side to hypomania (not as much full blown mania). It's good that you are aware of something amiss with your mood.

There were times in the past when I left the house in the middle of the night. Like your father, my husband pretty much ordered me to never do that again. Truth is, it can be risky being out late at night hypomanic/manic.And I think a loved one's minor nightmare is getting a call at 3 am finding out you're somewhere outside of the house.

If you really have no prn to help you get to sleep, I hope you will direct your late night energy into something more positive that is in the house. I've been known to bake in the middle of the night. Then at least you have the hold of the wooden spoon, and not your dad. If you don't get the wooden spoon reference, then that really ages me. What also ages me is that in my day many kids did get spankings. It wasn't as taboo back then as it is now. Even some schools (states) administered the paddle, and apparently over a dozen US states still allow it in schools. Oddly, of my over 300 blog posts, my post on the topic "story of being disciplined at school" has been the most viewed this particular month (June) with over 200 views alone (from google search finds), since June 1st. About 3,000 year to date. Don't get me wrong, I am not in favor of corporal punishment at schools. Sorry a bit off topic.

[Bipolarchic14]

I don’t think my parents would have been afraid to hit me it just wasn’t necessary. Even as a child I had mental health issues. So all my father really had to do was slam his hand on the table and I would burst into tears.