[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by leomama

We’re the servers down for anyone else last night?
I’ve had a super rough week at work and also increased my dose of lamictal last night from 50mg to 100mg per my doctors orders. I’m ready to give up on medication but that’s how I got into this situation in the first place.
I was looking at the wellness wheel and my occupational health is very low. I know I need a different job. I don’t have the energy to find one while working and being there for my daughter and looking after my apt.

Like Mountaindewed, I also couldn't get on for a while. I assume they did some update? I tried between around 7 am and noon, my time (middle of the night to early morning US EDT).

[leomama]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Like Mountaindewed, I also couldn't get on for a while. I assume they did some update? I tried between around 7 am and noon, my time (middle of the night to early morning US EDT).

Glad that people are posting about it now. First crazy thought I had was “was I banned for being too harsh? Did someone complain about me?” Lol, that’s where my mind goes.

[Fuzzybear]

Feed is served, Papa bear has told me. I was going to post something else but do not have time...

[Fuzzybear]

Yeah, I couldn't get on for a while either, yesterday or today

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Hubby and I have worked our tails off all day preparing for our guests tomorrow and the next day. In reality, we've gone overboard, but I suppose if you can do little spring-cleaning stuff, why criticize it?

I might be wrong, but I am a tinge nervous that my sister-in-law and her son will want to "test" me to see how my Czech has come along. The sad reality is that it hasn't that much. There will come a time when I truly must put the nose to the grindstone. Ideally, I should register for formal Czech language classes. However, I'd like a couple things to happen first. One, get my second vaccination. Two, feel a bit more comfortable driving here. I don't think that's unreasonable.

I think it sounds very reasonable to want your second dose before attending a language class. The driving will just take time. Have fun!

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by BethRags

The 4th of July is my least favorite holiday because of the noise (illegal fireworks) that terrorize my elderly cat and cause my Vietnam vet husband to be on edge. I'm going to enjoy the day - weather shouldn't be any hotter than typical summer - then close the windows before dark to mitigate the bomb-sounds. When I was a kid the 4th was so much fun, but that was before jerks were setting off illegal fireworks.

Hugs all around

Yup, I don’t recall so many people shooting off illegal fireworks when I was a kid. We had small things but the big one are illegal in my entire state. And last night they were going off for almost 2 hours! Thankfully my cat ignores them, they don’t bother him at all. Yeah the fourth was a lot of fun when I was a kid.

[Moose72]

I couldn't get on last night either. I figured they'd fix it soon and they did.

The party last night was fun- as always. My cousin has a good-condition VW bus! I just can't imagine how much my cousin makes a year but it's got to be a lot. Every Independence Day party he buys a lot of expensive fireworks. Its a great show. Good thing he lives in the country - the fireworks are very loud! He owns his own cement business and though he lives 45 minutes outside of town I often see his truck (with his name on it!) around my town. And he makes his money during the Spring/Summer seasons. I know he does snow removal in the winter too. This is the cousin who is 3 years younger than I am and when he was 3 would talk about "Back-Oh's". Now he's middle aged using all kinds of equipment!

I've got to do laundry today or tomorrow. I will have to see if the card readers are still down.

Day after tomorrow is my big dentist day! I owe a lot of money and already paid 2/3 of it last time. I'd rather just keep my temp teeth- they seem good and solid. I wonder if it will be easier this time- just pop out the temp ones and pop in each of the new ones? Nah. Can't be. I will be up early to make sure I have enough time to shower and to drive there. Drive time is 5-10 minutes- more like 10 door-to-door. I'll take pix of the new teeth and post here once the numbing wears off- at least, I HOPE they numb me!

[Mountaindewed]

I was also on lithium and it caused me to puke and the hospital said I was just faking it because I had actually been displaying bulimic behaviors before. Then the lithium caused me to throw up for real and no one believed me. They didn’t believe me about the bulimia either and said I was just faking it for attention. Now 14 years later I’m being told I do have an eating disorder and almost got sent IP and stuff and I’m kind of in denial about it because I’m still confused from what I was told as a teenager. Man did I get ****ed over when I was a teenager.

The only thing I took out of that experience is that when you ask for help, you won’t get it and you’ll be labeled an attention seeker. But if you don’t seek help but you show some behaviors they will think you have legit issues.

I didn’t want to bring it up at all with my last last therapist but I mentioned my weight loss from getting off meds, during our second or 3rd session and she read a lot into it then it kind of got out of control, but I swear it was on her part.

[MuddyBoots]

More poison ivy, sunburn, sleep deprivation... yeah, I'm in summer mode, and I don't like it one bit.

[wildflowerchild25]

We are home from vacation finally! I had some fun but I am so relieved to be back at my home base with no one but RS and my son around. I was upset this morning and I couldn’t shake it for a couple of hours but once we got to the bridge and tunnels I was ok. I am just not a beach girl. I suggested we should go up to upstate New York near the Adirondacks one year. I used to go to a lake there when I was very little with my family while my dad was alive. It’s one of my few good memories.

I texted my mom real quick to let her know we were home and she said she was on her way to my uncle’s and then going to stay overnight at my grandma’s. My mother hates her brother so I’m wondering if his mystery illness is getting worse. Unless they’re having a bbq, they used to. My uncle’s birthday is the sixth so maybe that’s all it is. But I’m not going to ask because a) I don’t like my uncle anyway and b) if everyone wants to continue to be secretive and passive aggressive they can go for it but I’m not getting involved anymore.

Personally I think 45 years of heavy drinking is catching up with my uncle but I could be totally wrong. But I’ll probably never know because he won’t even tell his wife so whatever.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Sapien

Yesterday I was told to go back to taking 1200mg of lithium/day, so I did. Last night after dinner I passed out on the couch! Only slept about two hours (the first block of sleep, got another two in from 1am-3am), but that was definitely an improvement from anxiously passing time until midnight and then being up at 2am. I feel amped, I think I'm going to try going for a run soon, see how my hip does.

Edit: omg, I just realized today is 100 days clean and sober!!!

Congratulations !!!! That is Fantastic

Hope the increase works quickly, years ago when I took it I noticed a difference pretty quick when increasing dose .. Hope you enjoyed your run

[*Beth*]

The forum was down for several hours last night. Frustrating.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’m back to being in my right mind today. I was getting really worried there. I’m lucid, functioning well and am happy and content. I was totally incapable of taking care of mother and brother for a few days and it all worked out. I must do a better job of protecting my mental and physical health in future. Still, my sister’s recommendation of putting my brother in a home just doesn’t sit well with me.

My daughter and I went to Red Lobster last night. Love that coconut shrimp and those crispy brussel sprouts! We went to the swimming pool late this morning. It’s 77 and breezy here so a little cool in the pool. I still enjoyed it immensely. Tomorrow we’re going to see F9 and then on to a venue to listen to two bands and to see fireworks. That should be enjoyable. Her visit couldn’t have come at a better time.

I hope everyone has a lovely weekend and a wonderful 4th.

So Happy that your feeling better.. Pool, yummy dinner and time with M... Sounds perfect

Yes doing self care is hard when someone needs so much care, I can relate. But do make sure you take time daily to do a mental check in with yourself and carve out time to do something you enjoy or do nothing at all

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by xRavenx

I don't know where else to write this and just want to get this off of my chest. I woke up, something triggered me, and then my mind keeps racing and racing. I am full of anxiety and intrusive thoughts that go along with it. I can't seem to turn it off, and my stomach is hurting. Then I just stare off into space not having any clue what to do. The pain is just too much, and I can't handle it anymore. When I'm not in this terrible state, my mood is elevated. But it is getting harder and harder to focus. I don't know if this is rapid cycling or mixed or just hypomanic with anxiety. I feel like I am having a breakdown and ended up taking a klonopin.

I have no Magic words.. Do you have a T ? if so maybe get in sooner? Also with Pdoc or NP any sooner?

Did the Klonopin help? I sure hope so

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

We are home from vacation finally! I had some fun but I am so relieved to be back at my home base with no one but RS and my son around. I was upset this morning and I couldn’t shake it for a couple of hours but once we got to the bridge and tunnels I was ok. I am just not a beach girl. I suggested we should go up to upstate New York near the Adirondacks one year. I used to go to a lake there when I was very little with my family while my dad was alive. It’s one of my few good memories.

I texted my mom real quick to let her know we were home and she said she was on her way to my uncle’s and then going to stay overnight at my grandma’s. My mother hates her brother so I’m wondering if his mystery illness is getting worse. Unless they’re having a bbq, they used to. My uncle’s birthday is the sixth so maybe that’s all it is. But I’m not going to ask because a) I don’t like my uncle anyway and b) if everyone wants to continue to be secretive and passive aggressive they can go for it but I’m not getting involved anymore.

Personally I think 45 years of heavy drinking is catching up with my uncle but I could be totally wrong. But I’ll probably never know because he won’t even tell his wife so whatever.

Hey there !

I am so glad that the vacation wasnt as bad as you were expecting, you know how I get making the stupid trips to Florida..

Yes being back home is such a huge relief and you can find your balance.

I'll sit here and type how you should not beat yourself up over a meal But yeah I get that also.. When Steve was diagnosed with Diabetes ( he was first) I googled and looked at all kinds of sample meals etc. I was beyond frustrated.. Our Doctor set us up with the Hospital Dietician.. Oh that helped me Soooooo Much ! She helped me to read the food labels on all foods and what means what and how XYZ effects Diabetes and its not just the Sugar content. I left with tons of information, guide books, cook books.. A giant tower of things to read. Normally I am fine googling anything online, But actually having the physical papers and books in hand really made a huge difference in my understanding how to manage food and a new lifestyle, I refuse to say Diet.

Maybe seeing someone can help you?? What also really helped is there was Zero judgement I had taken a list of what I had been cooking a few things she said okay split meals a bit .. Like instead of eating X on Monday and Y on Tuesday she said take One meal on Monday and that other one on Thursday. Certainly there were some foods I just cant make but once every blue moon.

I wont lie there are sometimes that I truly thought if I saw a elderly person holding a Reece cup I'll Just go grab it LOL

Life is so hard and throw food difficulty with food and how you feel mentally?? Geeeezzzzzzzzzzz its so wonder we struggle so much

Hang in there

[Mountaindewed]

I just spent 1.5 hours reading old posts. It seemed like I was having a lot of vague health anxiety this past winter. But I also was reading that my primary told me that kidney issues can cause your mental health meds not to work. My kidneys have still been messed up so I’m wondering if that’s why my meds seem to have crapped out on me. Then I was reading about all the transference I was having with that one therapist. But still feeling messed up and sad about her after I ended things. Geeze what a mess. I hope tomorrow goes decently so I can forget both of those therapists.

But the kidney thing really has me thinking. I also remembered that at home UTI kits exist. So I’ll get one of those tomorrow when I go to Walmart in the morning to do some shopping. I plan on going out to eat after therapy. My mom complained today that I don’t do anything all day and that I’m dealing with depression. But I had planned on doing things tomorrow.

I told my mom to hide all my meds early tonight. I took out the stuff I needed for tonight, just my normal stuff. And my morning Geodon for tomorrow. Then she took the basket and hid it in her room. I took my 2 zzquil melatonin’s but nothing else that I shouldn’t be taking.

[Nammu]

Mum and I went for a early dinner late lunch. All the mum and pop restaurants we wanted to eat at were closed! We ended up at Perkins ( kind of like Denny’s and ihop.) there were a lot of people there. But not else where.. We drove around to all the parks and the two lakes and there is nobody! Main Street was deserted. It used to be that people went to the parks on July 4th. But the food was very good. Had shrimp 🍤 and broccoli 🥦 with strawberry pie to go.

[~Christina]

Well my Garbage lungs took another 2 different hits yesterday.. I'm nebulizing around the clock. I have Steroids I can take but being so Mixed that easily could cause put me in alot of danger.. I'm running about 88 But I'm having drops down into low 80's so yeah that is not so good.. Its the hacking cough that Asthma attacks are all about. My voice is gone which Hey Steve gets a break from my Yakking, SO much pressured speech it drives me crazy. He's a true guy and can totally tune me out when needed thankfully.

I am literally so sick of ALL my health problems. Some I have no control over. I look over my every growing med list and even my NP doesn't see anything we can cut out.. and I don't even want to think what psych med this new Psych NP might suggest and what meds I could possibly consider..

Yesterday I got very dizzy I am sure my oxygen levels were very low that I fell in the damn shower.. Like really ???

So I have decided I'm just gonna shut up about all my physical and psych problems and spend days deciding what septum ring I will want once the piercing heals. Oh and I found a cat/dog toy.. its a fish and it uses motion sensors and flops all over.. I think Gus would have a ball with it. So yes I can spend days wandering Amazon , Ebay and any sites trying to find just the right stuff..

Oh I dont know if there are any people here who like Toms shoes?? They are having a huge sale, I got a pair with Foxes on them 24.99 ! They also have tons for 19.99.. Just throwing that out there. I just could never justify buying a pair at full price.. My Visa just cant even peek out of my wallet for many things that are just to expensive.

Hope everyone is having a Wonderful 4th of July

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Mum and I went for a early dinner late lunch. All the mum and pop restaurants we wanted to eat at were closed! We ended up at Perkins ( kind of like Denny’s and ihop.) there were a lot of people there. But not else where.. We drove around to all the parks and the two lakes and there is nobody! Main Street was deserted. It used to be that people went to the parks on July 4th. But the food was very good. Had shrimp 🍤 and broccoli 🥦 with strawberry pie to go.

Strawberry pie I bet it was outta this world !

I'm glad you and Mum had a lovely day

[Nammu]

I googled toms shoes, nice but I wouldn’t wear them, I pretty much wear crocs all the time. I had a favorite pair of leather sandals that I wore to pieces then got my crocs. Toms are pretty though, of course the ones I liked best weren’t on sale!