[Nammu]

Welcome back Whatever!

[wildflowerchild25]

Well I was really ambitious with my pierogi experiment and I ended up making 6 dozen. I was really, really hoping it would turn out ok because while I was confident about my potato and onion filling, I accidentally grabbed whole wheat flour at the grocery store instead of all purpose and I was afraid they would be too Chewy. But my son absolutely loved them! He ate 8 of them. He usually only eats 4-5 of the boxed ones. I have two bags in the freezer for future uses and I have leftover filling to go as a side with a pork roast I’m hoping to do on Sunday.

I’ve seriously been watching too much food network lol it’s all I watch now because I have discovery plus! It’s even on one of the TVs at the gym and I always use the equipment in front of that Tv so I can watch while I work out!

[bluescifi]

I'm new so this is me trying out a post haha.
My psychiatrist doubled my dose of lamotrigine and I'm feeling real weird today. I don't know how to explain it. Like floating, but under rain clouds. I always seem to have the same sort of reaction whenever my medications are altered a bit.
It's nice to look over all your replies and get to know you all!

[Sunflower123]

My therapist strongly recommended that I suspend all conversation with a loved one until our therapy session next Thursday. This person is my sunshine and while it breaks my heart there is some relief there as well. Entirely too much sniping and toxicity going on currently. Hopefully we’ll get it all sorted out soon.

I’ve been floating every day as weather permits. Still getting my zen on.

I hope everyone has a peaceful weekend.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by bluescifi

I'm new so this is me trying out a post haha.
My psychiatrist doubled my dose of lamotrigine and I'm feeling real weird today. I don't know how to explain it. Like floating, but under rain clouds. I always seem to have the same sort of reaction whenever my medications are altered a bit.
It's nice to look over all your replies and get to know you all!

Welcome @bluescifi !

I always get weird reactions to meds. I have so many that I can't take now because of that.

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by bluescifi

I'm new so this is me trying out a post haha.
My psychiatrist doubled my dose of lamotrigine and I'm feeling real weird today. I don't know how to explain it. Like floating, but under rain clouds. I always seem to have the same sort of reaction whenever my medications are altered a bit.
It's nice to look over all your replies and get to know you all!

I don’t know if you titrated up or not. Sometimes going up too fast, especially with lamictal, can knock you for a loop. I’m on 300mg and tried to go to 400 no taper and got extremely sick. Turns out there’s a test for lamictal blood levels, which I didn’t know, and I was already at the high end on 300mg. So now I know!

I hope you adjust soon.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by bluescifi

I'm new so this is me trying out a post haha.
My psychiatrist doubled my dose of lamotrigine and I'm feeling real weird today. I don't know how to explain it. Like floating, but under rain clouds. I always seem to have the same sort of reaction whenever my medications are altered a bit.
It's nice to look over all your replies and get to know you all!

bluescifi

[Soupe du jour]

Welcome @bluescifi! We're glad you joined us here.

I hope the extra Lamictal does what you and your doc want it to. A lot of people highly value that med. I have taken a bit of it, too, for a while. I think it is partly responsible for keeping depression away, for a long time. I have also had adjustment periods to higher doses and meds. Hopefully yours will be quick.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by Moose72

This is great news!

What oral sensory items do you use? Can you give a link to them?

Reading really relaxes me. I hope you keep it up.

I use a pacifier and a bottle. I know it’s not everyone’s thing, but for me because I’m autistic and I have an oral fixation, these things can be a lifesaver at times. I used the bottle so much yesterday my anxiety was completely under control after 11AM and I also wasn’t drinking any soda or getting too hungry so I dropped a couple pounds from yesterday.

I told my therapist on Monday about them and she was cool and had no problem but I told her I was worried I was becoming dependent on them.

You can find all this stuff on Amazon.

I was reading a lot yesterday. I’m reading 2 non fiction books at once. I have 3 fiction books on my shelf I want to read. A Clockwork Orange, Winesburg Ohio, and The Grapes Of Wrath. I’m also thinking of buying Gone With The Wind from Amazon. I used to have 6 full bookcases of books 7-8 years ago. Then I downsized over the years and now I’m down to one almost full shelf on my small bookcase. But I write down the books I read. At least I did from 2009 until the end of 2017. I read 6 books in 2018 and then I read 3 in 2019. I have down the books I’ve read since November in the notes section of my phone. But I should probably add them to my notebook.

Edit: based on the “what are you reading” thread I was able to look back at my old posts and write down the books I read in 2018 and 2019. In late 2020 I read 5 books and now i’m on my 17th and 18th book this year. That is more then 2018, 2019, and 2020 combined and it’s not even August. I was just getting super distracted by my chest and my dysphoria would act up every time I looked down and I wouldn’t be able to concentrate because I’d be upset. Once I got my surgery the problem was instantly solved and I went back to reading a lot.

[Soupe du jour]

I mentioned elsewhere that Hubby and I are again looking for a new therapist for me, after several weeks not seeing one. It seems a bit of a challenge finding one without a waiting list or "not currently accepting new clients" that takes insurance. Those that do are mostly all with Ph.D.s Ones with only masters degrees do have space, but don't take insurance. Most of the latter can't even do so because of minimum education and experience requirements here in CZ. Normally I'd be just fine with one with masters degree only, but I think because I'm on disability it is best to aim for the Ph.D. The ones with masters degrees here mostly cost 700 and 800 czk ($32 to $37) for 50 minutes. That's the same as just my copays for in-network therapists in the US, who took insurance.

@Bluescifi:

WELCOME!!!

What is the significance of your screen-name? Do you really like sci-fi?

I just started "Solaris" yesterday, the virtuoso late Russian director Andrei Tarkovsky's sci-fi film. Vexingly, the free online copy i am watching only has about 75% dubbed in English. Then suddenly the chars will start speaking Russian and there are no sub-titles. It's annoying. But gorgeous to look at, as is all Tarkovsky's work.

Have you seen "Solaris"?

Or do you like READING sci-fi better? I like Lawrence Sanders "The Tomorrow File" in which society is organized by genetic-rating. Very original!!! Isaac Asimov's "The Foundation Trilogy" is good too.

What ones do *you* like?

Hope the Lamictal works out. A lot of people swear by that drug. Not to discourage you but it did not work for me, but then i am med-resistant and no meds work for me, planning on going meds-free, in a slow, controlled, doctor-approved and doctor-supervised withdrawal.

Hugs,

Jane.

[Lizzie1813]

Originally Posted by bluescifi

I'm new so this is me trying out a post haha.
My psychiatrist doubled my dose of lamotrigine and I'm feeling real weird today. I don't know how to explain it. Like floating, but under rain clouds. I always seem to have the same sort of reaction whenever my medications are altered a bit.
It's nice to look over all your replies and get to know you all!

Welcome, blue! I take lamotrigine, too, 300 mg. I look forward to getting to know you.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by bluescifi

I'm new so this is me trying out a post haha.
My psychiatrist doubled my dose of lamotrigine and I'm feeling real weird today. I don't know how to explain it. Like floating, but under rain clouds. I always seem to have the same sort of reaction whenever my medications are altered a bit.
It's nice to look over all your replies and get to know you all!

Welcome!

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by BethRags

That's the biggest frustration about having a mental health problem...the inability to handle stress like "normal" people do. I had a friend once; she said those of us who have a mental illness are without a screen to keep the bugs out, whereas so-called normal people have a screen.

good post BethRags, I agree

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Lizzie1813

Whew! I just exercised for the first time in 10 years! I did a Walk at Home workout on YouTube. Kinda proud of myself right now! 😀

Great idea, I've not tried this. Great job

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by bluescifi

I'm new so this is me trying out a post haha.
My psychiatrist doubled my dose of lamotrigine and I'm feeling real weird today. I don't know how to explain it. Like floating, but under rain clouds. I always seem to have the same sort of reaction whenever my medications are altered a bit.
It's nice to look over all your replies and get to know you all!

Welcome bluescifi

[Mountaindewed]

I placed a grocery order on Thursday for pickup today. My mom will get it on her way home. And they are out of a lot of stuff. I ordered 4 different kinds of rice cakes and they are out of all those. How can a store be out of rice cakes? Also the orange Vanilla Coke Zero I ordered is out of stock. I’ve been looking for that for a couple months. For once in my life I’m getting low on soda because all I drink is zero sugar and it’s for some reason been very hard to find lately. I know Coke Zero is rebranding their cans. So maybe that’s it. But it’s not just Coke, it’s Pepsi and Dr. Pepper too.

But they had all my ramen and Goldfish crackers and European chocolate. They had to substitute one of pack of Gatorade. Which is slightly annoying. But mainly it’s just the soda I was looking forward to.

But at least the Mountain Dew I ordered on EBay finally shipped last night and it will be here on Tuesday instead of next Saturday like it was originally scheduled. I don’t drink regular soda anymore but I’m dying to try this kind. But I’ll probably give some of the cans to my brother.

My anxiety is kinda sucky but I probably should take my 20mil Geodon. When I use my non meds coping skills my anxiety is ok but my brother is up now so I’ll have to close the door if I want to use them. He doesn’t care if I close the door or not. He doesn’t wonder at all what I do. I brought my package into the house yesterday, a decent size box, right by him and all he did was give me a confused look.

Edit: like the last 2 days I seem to be feeling more alert and less anxious and depressed now then I did this morning. I’m not sure what the issue has been or why I feel better suddenly. I’ve only had oatmeal today but I’ve had 3 bowls of it. One was just regular maple and brown sugar. The other 2 bowls were Trix flavored. It tastes exactly like the cereal. I also got Cocoa Puffs and Cinnamon Toast Crunch oatmeal at the same time.

I saw that the store I got the grocery pick up from had Vanilla Coke Zero so I asked my mom if she wouldn’t mind running into get me some. They had it so at least I have that now. She told me she had a lot of fun at her reunion. I’m glad she’s getting a break from all her stress even though I’m not really getting a break from mine. But since she’s the glue that holds everyone together it’s better that she’s not stressed then me.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I took this yearsss ago and it did nothing for me... My daughter tried it and with in a week it made a huge difference..

Every med works differently for everyone.. Try and hang in there.. Stop punishing yourself. Take another day to float

Buspirone, hmm. Thanks for this post. I need to ''float'' too

[Sunflower123]

My brother fell this morning and couldn’t get up. I was helping mom get ready to go to the funeral of a good friend of hers. I helped him up and sat with him until he stabilized. I decided at that moment that it is imperative for me to build up my world aside from them: exercise, hobbies, getaways, social events, friends etc. It’s not because I don’t care but because I do…too much. I need something to offset the deterioration I’m seeing. I’m deeply disturbed. Also, I’m 54, healthy and energetic. I still have life in me and this situation has expanded to be the majority of my world.

I think it’s a positive decision that will benefit all of us.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

My brother fell this morning and couldn’t get up. I was helping mom get ready to go to the funeral of a good friend of hers. I helped him up and sat with him until he stabilized. I decided at that moment that it is imperative for me to build up my world aside from them: exercise, hobbies, getaways, social events, friends etc. It’s not because I don’t care but because I do…too much. I need something to offset the deterioration I’m seeing. I’m deeply disturbed. Also, I’m 54, healthy and energetic. I still have life in me and this situation has expanded to be the majority of my world.

I think it’s a positive decision that will benefit all of us.

Jennifer, absolutely! Do please be kind to yourself. There's no need to make YOU unwell, too.