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Default Jul 24, 2021 at 09:40 AM
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Good for you for taking care of yourself! Please know that I'm thinking about you and will be looking for updates from you.

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Default Jul 29, 2021 at 07:22 PM
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I'm home! Saturday spent in the psych ER and then Sunday morning transferred via ambulance to a hospital an hour and 20 minutes away.

I spent those 5 days going to groups, some of which I showed for but didn't fill out the forms for. The other patients were interesting. One woman who said she is 39 and a "dentist" kept calling everyone "sweetie pie" and talking in this choppy voice. This other guy who said he has kids didn't participate very well in groups but he basically wandered around talking and laughing to himself. It was never enough to know what he was saying, but there it was. One guy who was in his 60's it looked like was homeless and an alcoholic who blacked out a lot and just came to the hospital for the shower and the 3 squares a day. He also said something about not having his cpap and therefore spent most of his time sitting in the day room with his eyes closed.

Speaking of 3 squares, they fed us healthfully- exactly what a dietician would say you should eat, but we got to eat pudding and jello sometimes too. Anyway, I weighed myself when I got home today and I have lost 7 or 8 pounds! I know it will probably pack back on once I start to eat normally, but I can TRY to eat healthfully, right?

My friend sent flowers- they are sitting here next to me on the table. My mom's husband came to pick me up today and he brought me my cell phone. I didn't even bring it with me because I knew I wouldn't be allowed to use it . Even in the psych ER I wasn't allowed to. That's why I made one post here before I went. When I turned it on in the car on the way home, it went nuts chiming and dinging and donging, etc.! Emails, texts, Facebook chat notifications, etc. all at once! I had jotted down about five important phone numbers before the phone was taken away. That way I was able to talk with Caleb- which I did a lot- and N3 and several others.

That all said, the psychiatrist on staff at the hospital was an idiot. He first started out by looking at my file, telling me I was on "too many" and "the wrong" medications. He then decided that my pnurse's- the one who prescribes all my meds- pdoc that she works under should see me instead of her. As it is, I'm not scheduled to see her until September! I do, however, see her nurse (RN) before that so that's good.

In the hospital, I had vivid dreams all about being in the hospital and other vivid places. And then this psychiatrist dude told me that the catalyst for this "episode" was Karen unfriending me on Facebook. That was six weeks ago and I got over it when she lambasted me all over Facebook with lies! So no, it wasn't her that started my road toward being
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. That would imply that I care deeply about our relationship and I certainly do not. In fact, it had been failing for quite some time before she de-friended me. Anyway, the psychiatrist took off on that theme and wouldn't let it go. I had to have a zoom meeting with him, too and I HATE zoom! I look stupid and the video is choppy.

BUT, the friends I did talk with all said that they love me! I mostly talked with Caleb and Christopher and Noah and my mom. Caleb is a dear heart. (It's too bad he is stubborn about smoking.) I know he loves me! Noah took me out to eat and I resisted ordering a beer, after the groups about addiction. It seems that I'm "addicted" to Starbucks. Got cut that quick! If only because I won't have any Disney money if I don't. So they didn't change ANY of my meds! Didn't add any, didn't change the dosages, nothing! I was there 5 days to sleep and socialize I guess. I don't feel as slow and blah as I did when I first got there. I am listening to one of my favorite Rene Jacobs CDs right now. It's very soothing.

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I hope you continue feeling even just a bit better.

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I'm sorry to read your stay in-patient was so unproductive, except for weight loss (grats by the way). I think these professionals are doing their best, but without knowing us over time, they are of limited use.

And never forget that it's just a job for them, it's a financial transaction, we are the customers and they are the service providers. That's why i prefer peer support. Then at least the caring is genuine and not financially-motivated.

Are there support groups IRL you could get involved in? Free ones that are peer-led, where the profit motive doesn't play a role?

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I'm sorry to read your stay in-patient was so unproductive, except for weight loss (grats by the way). I think these professionals are doing their best, but without knowing us over time, they are of limited use.

And never forget that it's just a job for them, it's a financial transaction, we are the customers and they are the service providers. That's why i prefer peer support. Then at least the caring is genuine and not financially-motivated.

Are there support groups IRL you could get involved in? Free ones that are peer-led, where the profit motive doesn't play a role?

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I guess it makes sense that if you're the psychiatrist for a mental ward, you'd become pretty jaded too. He exclaimed all these weird things like "All your medications are wrong!" and "But you can't take anything else, so I'm not going to change your meds". Pshaw! I hope my pdoc can sort it out. My pharmacist was so nice yesterday when I went to pick up my meds and drop off two bottles of Rexulti- my mom picked it up and brought it to me at the hospital since their pharmacy didn't stock Rexulti- she asked how I was and said it was good to see me- genuine affection, even though she only ever sees me when I'm picking up my meds. Such a limited relationship, but I guess she knew that that hospital I went to wasn't where I normally got my prescriptions from- and so nice of her! She fills my blister packs every 2 weeks and is always kind. This is why I won't change pharmacies to "Something bigger, like Rite Aid, CVS, or Walgreens" as others have suggested.

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So glad you're back and feeling better! Good vibes for continued healing
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Can you be depressed for only a week? I got out of the hospital and feel much better but that means I had depression symptoms for just a week. The doctor at the hospital put "Reason for admission: Depression with
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Well, don't look a gift horse in the mouth. If you're feeling better, just enjoy.

I also found the director of the psych ward at a hospital i went to in crisis was a major a$$h@le.
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I can't understand why most ER psych doctor are jerks. Surely they know what they're going to be dealing with when they sign up for the job.

Anyway, the important thing is that you took care of yourself by seeking help. I think depression can last for only a week.

I'm so glad you're doing better now, and very happy to see you here

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Can you be depressed for only a week? I got out of the hospital and feel much better but that means I had depression symptoms for just a week. The doctor at the hospital put "Reason for admission: Depression with
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I get depressed for short periods of time like that sometimes. I just got depressed for like 1.5-2 weeks. At first I thought it was PMS but then it kept going. Now I feel pretty much ok the last few days Down and Empty

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I found out today that my pharmacist was going to keep the store open late for me Thursday because I needed to get my usual refills and give her my Rexulti back to put in my bubble packs. I was being driven there by my step-dad and he had to pick me up a little late to get there on time. But we made it and the pharmacist was very nice to me and asked how I was and seemed genuinely interested. It had been since 2016 that I was hospitalized so she'd never known me to have to go inpatient. (They had to have my Rexulti from my pharmacy brought to the hospital and hour and a half away because their pharamacy that they normally fill people's meds with for the hospital stay didn't have Rexulti.)

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My pharmacy is a small, locally-owned one, too. I so prefer it to a corporate pharmacy. So many reasons why I prefer it.

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I miss that kind of pharmacy. I have to use CVS because of the requirements to get clozapine and they make mistakes, lose stuff, etc. I miss the pharmacy where I walked in and was greeted by name and the pharmacist knew exactly what meds I needed. But that was a long time ago and clozapine is worth the inconveniences to everyone except my pdoc's poor secretary who has to re-fax my labs about every 2-3 months.

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