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#81
I also need the toilet again
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__________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#83
I’ve been having some UTI symptoms for a few days. And they were really stressing me out because I think they put a catheter in you for surgery. Which is another issue I’m trying not to worry about. But anyways for the past couple days I’ve been using over the counter stuff and chugging cranberry juice like crazy and it hasn’t been helping. So this morning I went to immediate care. I gave them a sample and got a 5 day prescription for an antibiotic and I was in and out in about half an hour. I feel much better mentally now that I’ve taken care of this. I’m not sure if it’s a UTI (they are going to call) or if it’s just hysterectomy related pain or even just anxiety. But I’m glad I’ll know and get this taken care of before my surgery. I honestly think my internal ultrasound caused this. I actually had a nightmare last night where I needed another internal one done and I was freaking out. Also my classmates from elementary school were watching. When I gave the sample today I ducked into the mens bathroom and it was empty and stayed empty the whole time. There was just one stall and one urinal. On my way back to the room the nurse called me sir.
I’m actually doing well with my therapist now that I’ve been to the doctor and had coffee. So I’m able to clear my mind now. I did send her one last email early this morning chewing her out a bit at how unprofessional she’s being. But now I am actually ok with things. I think this possible UTI was really concerning me. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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#84
After about 2 months, 3 weeks of which were hypomania and then I had lingering insomnia afterwards, I am FINALLY sleeping!
Pdoc put me on Temazepam, which I'm taking with the Klonopin I was already taking. We first tried Temazepam while stopping klonopin (after trying several other things to get me to sleep) so as to not be taking two benzo's at the same time, but then anxiety started keeping me up after Temazepam alone worked for about 2-3 days. ANYWAY, I'm now taking Temazepam and klonopin and I'm falling asleep in some 20 mins, which is nothing short of a miracle for me. And because I had been on the maximum dose of Abilify and had had that breakthrough hypomania, I'm now on 60mg of Latuda. My pdoc says that they've done clinical trials that say that it works for mania as well, but they're waiting on approval from the FDA. So I'm tapering down the Abilify and will be fully off of it as of Thursday. I feel so so much better now that I'm sleeping! Finally some good news! __________________ Bipolar 1 Lamictal: 400 mg Latuda: 60mg Klonopin: 1 mg Propranolol: 10 mg Zoloft: 100 mg Temazepam: 15 mg Zyprexa 5-10mg prn (for Central Pain Syndrome: methadone 20 mg; for chronic back pain: meloxicam 15 mg; for migraines: prochlorperazine prn) |
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#85
My therapist replied to my last email. Said she consulted with her team and code of ethics and says our relationship cannot be rebuilt because of my accusations of her doing more harm then good and of her being unprofessional. She gave me a few other places to look into. Then at the end of the email she made that whole speech about “if you are in danger call 911…” basically she just said that to save her ***.
I don’t know if it’s just because I live in a different state now so things are different, but I’ve called therapists unprofessional before and I’ve also said way worse things too and they didn’t immediately fire me. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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#86
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#87
I slept in too long today. I should've gotten up. Missed my groups. Tomorrow is N3's birthday. Day after tomorrow I leave! This is hard having him move without me. But he's doing it himself so I'm proud of him.
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#88
My husband and I are home from our little vacation. It was a much belated 50th birthday gift to me. It's nice to be back.
Last night was really the only decent dinner we had the whole time, and it was quite good. I lucked out in finding a very highly recommended restaurant in Krakow. The one we went to the night before was pretty so-so. Last night's was not really a strictly "Polish restaurant" but more Pan European. Tonight, at home, I grilled a chicken breast and a whole bunch of veggies. Delicious! Many Central Europeans barely eat vegetables, while they are a big favorite for me. Love, love, love them! __________________ Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 600 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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#89
N3 got into a fender bender yesterday with my car. The guy behind him heard a honk, turned to look and took his foot of the brake. Apparently, its just a small dent. I haven't seen it yet of course. The guy said he would pay to fix it- and he owns a well-to-do business in town so he should be able to- but we'll see if it's worth all that. The police came but no report was filed. N3 is fine. So all is well.
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#90
I'm starting to not freak out any more about why I came in here in the first place. Not ruminating about it. Ok, I was a little bit this morning, but that's because I stayed in bed. I hope I can learn to not ruminate at home!
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But I ruminated for a good year on the situation. About why I did it and stuff. ironically it happened because of an unprofessional therapist ditching me suddenly. And she got into a lot of trouble, then shortly after left the practice. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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#92
I’ve got a painting class today. It’s abstract. I’m not good at abstract but I’m going to go have fun. The day itself is pretty gloomy. Coolish and damp, but I slept great last night. It was cold so I put my comforter back on the bed. Warming up the sheets took a bit of time but once I fell asleep it was glorious. Slept the whole night! Don’t think I moved much my hair on one side was sticking straight up. 😃. In two weeks I have a jewelry making class and next week is my wine party. I’m having a blind tasting for a few relatives, there’s only going to be 8 of us and not everyone will be drinking. Have dancing sparkling grape juice for them.
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#94
I just realized how much money I’m going to be saving by not being in therapy for awhile. That actually makes me happy. I’ve been racking up huge bills each month because therapy costs me $40 a session and I don’t currently work.
But then again I do have a $300 dental cleaning and X-rays next month. At least the surgery’s been approved. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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sapien- getting my neurology appointment took 4 months, too. Craziness. Then they gave me a follow-up for 2 months. It's almost useless with such a weird schedule. But hang in there.
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#98
This tremor is sheer hell. I don't know why it's become so severe. I'm doing various med re-arrangements because I can't allow the tremor to continue (risk of TD).
I was given a 500 question psych test by the clinic where I receive my mental health care. A really kindly psychologist worked with me. I think the test is to determine (or refine) diagnosis. Ugh. I don't even know anymore, I just don't know. Maybe the best thing I can do is stop thinking...or over-thinking, anyway. I know I do way too much of that. __________________ |
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#99
Beth,
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#100
I went for a ride today. It was for physical and mental health. Then I ended up laying down for much of the afternoon.
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