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Default Oct 15, 2021 at 05:00 PM
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Therapy today made me realize that I am living my life in constant fear.

I fear that I am a bad mom.
I fear that I am a bad wife.
I fear that I am a bad employee.
I fear that I am a bad daughter.
I fear that I am a bad sister.

Those are the core fears but then I have new fears of going to the store, driving, ordering food at a drive in, interacting with people, etc.

Fear runs my life.

I fear how bipolar can shorten your life span.

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Default Oct 17, 2021 at 10:35 PM
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Being consumed by fear is awful. I have struggled with it all my life but things are not so bad for me right now. My heart goes out to you! I hope you can find ways to free yourself of your fears so you can have peace of mind and joy of living! So sorry I do not know how to help. But I am a fellow struggler myself. The only things that have helped me are medication and Cognitive Behavior Therapy self-help books.

I think you are good person. There are so many things to treasure you for.
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Default Oct 19, 2021 at 05:59 PM
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You're not alone @Crook32. I also live in fear.

I have come to understand that my anxiety and depression are the cause of all of this fear. The anxiety triggers the fear and the depression continues to feed it and causes it to grow.

I wish I had some wise words for you, but I don't. I just cope day to day with the knowledge that the fear is my mind playing tricks on me. It doesn't make it any less real though. I still feel like a fraud, like someone will come to know one day that I am not who I seem to be.

You're not alone in this. Maybe write about your fears if you can, or talk them out with your pdoc or T.

Take things slow and be kind to yourself, you deserve it.

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