Bipolar check-in #60

Moose72 · Dec 17, 2021 at 12:24 PM

I'm watching Office Space and drinking coffee. I should change my sheets and put away my laundry. It's 40 here- yesterday it was 60!- clear blue skies and sun. I walked to Starbucks and back yesterday. However, it was pretty windy yesterday. Wednesday, pdoc commented on how my hands shake especially when I'm holding a cup of coffee. I don't know if that's from the increased Haldol but I've always- since psych treatment- had this issue.

Sunflower123 · Dec 17, 2021 at 12:42 PM

Our cat, Sassy, died yesterday. She was a beautiful cat with long, silky fur the color of a flame and unusual green eyes. Her absence is felt by me and I grieve her loss but I feel sorrier for mom. She’s had a pet for every one of her 86 years and she is struggling right now. We have no more pets with no plans to get any.

I had a good time at the drum circle if I hadn’t already said that. This month has been kind of blah for me and with the exception of my daughter, I would happily skip the holidays. As it is, we are having it over here so I have much work to do. I don’t think anything could get me in the holiday spirit at this point. I just want it over with.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day.

Nammu · Dec 17, 2021 at 12:56 PM

Oh Jennifer I’m sorry about the passing of your cat. Is your brother home yet. Did they arrange care for him this time?

Soupe du jour · Dec 17, 2021 at 02:20 PM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I was thinking of getting my haircut but its probably a mad house right now. I'm glad you got yours done. My hair never quite turns out the way I want it to and I feel like I always look like one of the 3 Stooges. I'm glad you know of someone who knows what they are doing. I just go to a chain place and I've thought of going to a barber but I'm not totally comfortable with the idea.

I'm glad to read that you have some relief from your anxiety. And it's certainly fun to be in the Christmas spirit.

I think that if you maintain a man's haircut, a barber is worth considering. My husband has always had a much better result from barbers over places like a Hair Cuttery or Short Clips, and the like. He said he once even saw a woman get a cut at his old barber shop, since she had very short hair. I think since you're now a man, it should hopefully not be a problem, though of course I'm not familiar with the attitudes where you live. My old town was fairly progressive in most ways.

Soupe du jour · 04:03 PM

@Jennifer 1967, I'm sorry to read about your kitty. Condolences to you and your mom. I do hope that something about the holidays brings at least a little light into your lives. Do stick to your guns about not being pushed beyond your limit with your brother. There comes a time when a family (and the family member themselves) must accept that assisted living is necessary.

@Moose72, if the tremors are really bad has your pdoc considered propranolol? It did wonders at calming my old Lithium tremors. It was a very small pill and didn't give me any side effects. And was inexpensive.

Mountaindewed · Dec 17, 2021 at 02:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

I'm glad to read that you have some relief from your anxiety. And it's certainly fun to be in the Christmas spirit.

I think that if you maintain a man's haircut, a barber is worth considering. My husband has always had a much better result from barbers over places like a Hair Cuttery or Short Clips, and the like. He said he once even saw a woman get a cut at his old barber shop, since she had very short hair. I think since you're now a man, it should hopefully not be a problem, though of course I'm not familiar with the attitudes where you live. My old town was fairly progressive in most ways.

I did end up going to the chain place this afternoon. I was suprised, it was empty. I thought with 15 thousand covid cases a day and that number expected to go way up and it being a week before Christmas Eve that the place would be crazy. At least that were the reasons I was there.

But I showed her a picture. I had to give her instructions at times because at one point it was getting to be a little bit like the 3 stooges. But she ended up doing a good job.

~Christina · Dec 17, 2021 at 03:50 PM

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’ve been away from the forums for a few days but I’ve been doing well. I’m going to a drum circle tonight and the thought of that is a big mood booster.

I’ve still got much to do before Christmas gets here and we just found out my brother will be home Friday. I’ll go get him when he is discharged. That is just not good news. It’s been so nice having this break and just caring for mom. I can’t go back to caring for him. It’s too much. I have moments of anxiety. I’ve started to see and believe that I deserve a life as well and I don’t want to lose my momentum. I will pray and look into solutions.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day.

I'm glad that you are going to get him some help other than you. As Nammu said he really needs more care than you can provide.... Yes you deserve a life and you cant be tied down the way you have been.

~Christina · Dec 17, 2021 at 04:05 PM

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Our cat, Sassy, died yesterday. She was a beautiful cat with long, silky fur the color of a flame and unusual green eyes. Her absence is felt by me and I grieve her loss but I feel sorrier for mom. She’s had a pet for every one of her 86 years and she is struggling right now. We have no more pets with no plans to get any.

I had a good time at the drum circle if I hadn’t already said that. This month has been kind of blah for me and with the exception of my daughter, I would happily skip the holidays. As it is, we are having it over here so I have much work to do. I don’t think anything could get me in the holiday spirit at this point. I just want it over with.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day.

I'm so sorry for your loss

~Christina · Dec 17, 2021 at 04:10 PM

Steve made it to Amandas this morning. So grateful he had no trouble and he didn't have to deal with any awful traffic for the most part.

I'm going to work really hard on not letting my anxiety snowball into true panic attacks

Hugs and love to all

Nammu · Dec 17, 2021 at 04:35 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Steve made it to Amandas this morning. So grateful he had no trouble and he didn't have to deal with any awful traffic for the most part.

I'm going to work really hard on not letting my anxiety snowball into true panic attacks

Hugs and love to all

It’s really hard not to be anxious over spouses and our kids but you can do it! Let Gus distract you with his antics. I’ll send those calming purple vibes your way too.

Mountaindewed · Dec 17, 2021 at 07:29 PM

I have another headache. I'm not sure where these are coming from. I have a slight cough and a sore throat. Covid sucks in my state and my mom goes out almost everyday. I'm not particularly worried although my brother cant get boosted until Monday. He wasn't eligible for the first one until April and things were ok then so he just waited until we moved in May. Since I was having surgery in June I wanted to be fully protected so I got the first shot before we moved then the second one right after in May. So I got my booster a few weeks ago.

I'm trying to switch things up so I can fix my schedules. Food, meds, sleep. So I can get on a consistent schedule with everything. So far tonight has been ok. I ate 2 hours later then normal and I've taken my melatoinin but not my geodons. So I'm hoping to get to sleep closer to 10.

Basically everything just comes down to me fixing my sleep first which means just staying up later.

*Beth* · Dec 17, 2021 at 09:11 PM

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Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

9 hours til I report for surgery. Cant sleep of course. Dreading this.

Update us when you can.

*Beth* · Dec 17, 2021 at 09:14 PM

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Our cat, Sassy, died yesterday. She was a beautiful cat with long, silky fur the color of a flame and unusual green eyes. Her absence is felt by me and I grieve her loss but I feel sorrier for mom. She’s had a pet for every one of her 86 years and she is struggling right now. We have no more pets with no plans to get any.

I had a good time at the drum circle if I hadn’t already said that. This month has been kind of blah for me and with the exception of my daughter, I would happily skip the holidays. As it is, we are having it over here so I have much work to do. I don’t think anything could get me in the holiday spirit at this point. I just want it over with.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day.

I am so, so sorry for the loss of your kitty.

BeyondtheRainbow · Dec 17, 2021 at 09:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Our cat, Sassy, died yesterday. She was a beautiful cat with long, silky fur the color of a flame and unusual green eyes. Her absence is felt by me and I grieve her loss but I feel sorrier for mom. She’s had a pet for every one of her 86 years and she is struggling right now. We have no more pets with no plans to get any.

I'm so sorry about the loss of your Sassy.

Scooter9 · Dec 17, 2021 at 09:48 PM

I got an appointment for my third dose on Sunday through work because I work at a hospital. My wife is only getting her appointment Jan 20 at a public clinic.

My anxiety is still pretty high. I'm 16 days into Trintellix.

I was under a lot of stress today at work. I went for training last week and today I had to put my newly learned skills to work.

Technically I'm not allowed to do the work until I pass an exam but I got special permission. Things worked out in the end but that was super stressful. And they say I'll be called upon over the next couple of weeks because the person that usually does this is on vacation.

Victoria'smom · Dec 17, 2021 at 11:09 PM

I missed my injection and didn't shower. My husband has been angry anxiety ridden depressed for months and his pdoc won't do anything. It's on the verge of paranoia maybe passed it. I don't know what to do about it. He's been having asthma attacks and won't see his pcp either. He outright yelled like yelled,yelled at Miguel tonight and we just don't do that. I didn't know how to approach him.

HALLIEBETH87 · Dec 18, 2021 at 01:14 AM

I got home around 6pm. I’m in a lot of pain right now. :’(
My dr said it was likely a benign tumor not a cyst. He sent it off for testing. My boyfriend Ben took me and I’ve never felt so loved by a man! He’s so incredibly sweet and even the nurses said so! Idk if I can sleep with this pain!

Sunflower123 · Dec 18, 2021 at 05:19 AM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Oh Jennifer I’m sorry about the passing of your cat. Is your brother home yet. Did they arrange care for him this time?

My brother came home yesterday. Mom is not following through with care. First, we have to use his assets to pay for his current care. Then he would qualify for Medicaid and could be placed in a facility. His assets are under mom’s control and she is not budging. I have restated my assertion that I will not be taking care of him and I am calling around for part time care givers to be on hand. We had a family meeting last night to talk about what is expected of him as he’s doing much better with this hip replacement. Thank you for asking.

Sunflower123 · Dec 18, 2021 at 05:33 AM

We had a family meeting last night. My sister was there. She has an alpha female, hostile, aggressive manner about her. It’s either her way or she’ll attempt to yell you down. It’s really rather upsetting. I wasn’t feeling tops yesterday and really got sick to my stomach as she yelled and denigrated each of us. She put each of us down for our limitations and other things that didn’t live up to her standards. My confidence and positive outlook took a hit. I still feel sick this morning. It was so totally unnecessary. And unwelcome. And unacceptable. Thank you for letting me get it out here. I’m not sure yet how I will address this.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day.

unlived · Dec 18, 2021 at 06:46 AM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I have another headache. I'm not sure where these are coming from. I have a slight cough and a sore throat. Covid sucks in my state and my mom goes out almost everyday. I'm not particularly worried although my brother cant get boosted until Monday. He wasn't eligible for the first one until April and things were ok then so he just waited until we moved in May. Since I was having surgery in June I wanted to be fully protected so I got the first shot before we moved then the second one right after in May. So I got my booster a few weeks ago.

I'm trying to switch things up so I can fix my schedules. Food, meds, sleep. So I can get on a consistent schedule with everything. So far tonight has been ok. I ate 2 hours later then normal and I've taken my melatoinin but not my geodons. So I'm hoping to get to sleep closer to 10.

Basically everything just comes down to me fixing my sleep first which means just staying up later.

I don’t know for sure but you will probably feel a lot better with a set routine - I know I did. I like my routine now and look forward to it in a way. Good luck with it.

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Nammu Crone Member Since May 2010 Location: Some where between my inner mind and the solar system. Posts: 71,401 (SuperPoster!) 13 53.7k hugs given	Dec 17, 2021 at 12:56 PM #863 Oh Jennifer I’m sorry about the passing of your cat. Is your brother home yet. Did they arrange care for him this time? __________________ *Nammu* …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann

~Christina Legendary Wise Elder Community Liaison Member Since Jul 2011 Location: Tennessee Posts: 22,450 (SuperPoster!) 12 12.7k hugs given	Dec 17, 2021 at 04:10 PM #869 Steve made it to Amandas this morning. So grateful he had no trouble and he didn't have to deal with any awful traffic for the most part. I'm going to work really hard on not letting my anxiety snowball into true panic attacks Hugs and love to all __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~