Bipolar check-in #60

*Beth* · Dec 22, 2021 at 03:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

Does anyone else have a feeling that something really really bad is about to happen in the world?

What gave you that feeling?

Mountaindewed · 04:45 PM

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Originally Posted by BethRags

What gave you that feeling?

In 2019 at this time I had this same sudden feeling of unease and like something bad would happen real soon and then Covid happened. But I got suddenly scared like Christmas 2019 would be the last time things would be peaceful in the world.

I didnt know it would be a virus though I thought maybe someone big would die or there would be a giant terrorist attack or something like that. It was so strong I asked my mom if we could go look at Christmas lights which we never did before. So we could just really enjoy our Christmas.

But I just have the feeling again.

But my mom just counted and I have 17 (I take 3 a day) extra days of valium. So I can take an extra here and there and not run out.

I dont know if my doctor or the pharamcist screwed up and gave me too many.

Possible trigger:

But how do I tell anyone that I've run out of my geodon 20mil 11 days early because I kept taking extras, without getting into huge trouble?

I dont know. Maybe I do need to get into huge trouble to wake me up.

Nammu · Dec 22, 2021 at 04:37 PM

On day two of lousy sleep and really irritated. Every light particle and every noise sets me off. I took my package in to ups and the cold helped. I don’t feel so much like ripping everyone’s head offf. Haven’t felt this irritated in a long while. All I need is some decent sleep. Sitting at the red light on the way there I was tempted to floor it and scream my way though but nope, took a breath and opened the window. Then after I dropped off the package I stopped at the drug store everyone keeps telling me is so good, ehh. But it did help distract me.

~Christina · Dec 22, 2021 at 05:18 PM

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

@~Christina
Cheeto is still acting normal. He’s not hiding, which the vet said is a good sign as cats who are very ill and dying usually know they are and try to find a safe space to pass. I believe he’s still grooming excessively. But I’m really hoping it’s IBD. The vet will be able to advise me on how to manage that along with his urinary issues to hopefully get him eating and gaining weight again. Thanks for asking!

That’s great that he’s doing better. Hopefully you can get him back on track

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~Christina · 05:37 PM

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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I have a lot to do before M gets here tomorrow. I’ll easily be up all night. She’s asked for 3 things: a concoction of orange peels, cloves and cinnamon that I boil to make the house smell holiday like, my famous cube steak with golden mushroom gravy and to drive her around to see the Christmas lights - all of which I will happily do. I have all her presents as well.

I sent sister a text yesterday before she came over setting a boundary and in essence saying don’t poke the bear and that I didn’t want conflict before Christmas. It worked! She was quiet and subdued. I spoke up for myself diplomatically and I took back my power. Yay!

I hope everyone has a peaceful day.

Fantastic!!!! You did great

Yes enjoy M and the traditions. For over a decade my Daughter and I would go out late night on Christmas (after she did Christmas with her dad ) always went to IHOP ..

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~Christina · Dec 22, 2021 at 05:27 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

On day two of lousy sleep and really irritated. Every light particle and every noise sets me off. I took my package in to ups and the cold helped. I don’t feel so much like ripping everyone’s head offf. Haven’t felt this irritated in a long while. All I need is some decent sleep. Sitting at the red light on the way there I was tempted to floor it and scream my way though but nope, took a breath and opened the window. Then after I dropped off the package I stopped at the drug store everyone keeps telling me is so good, ehh. But it did help distract me.

Ooooo Nammu

I hope you sleep well tonight

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Nammu · Dec 22, 2021 at 05:32 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Fantastic!!!! You did great :thus:

Yes enjoy M and the traditions. For over a decade my Daughter and I would go out late night on Christmas (after she did Christmas with her dad ) always went to IHOP ..

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Oo IHOP sounds so good right now. I’m hungry but there’s not much to choose from in this town. Was just debating a gyro from Arby’s. But that means going out in the cold again. Brr

~Christina · Dec 22, 2021 at 05:35 PM

Well hell I went to fill my pill boxes and I can’t find my last refill of Geodon. According to pharmacy records I got it on the 19th.

I have no refills left but couldn’t afford to buy out of pocket anyway since insurance won’t pay. I am not sure the new NP would send a new script. Dr Graves would have since I never ever lost any medications in 13+ years. So only 40mg and I’m spacing out every 3 or 4 days. This has a bit longer half life than most meds.

It’s always something ! Just hope withdrawals arent hellish.

Today is the one year anniversary of us bringing Gus into our home. He’s just a joy ! Bipolar check-in #60

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Moose72 · Dec 22, 2021 at 05:48 PM

Saw my case manager at my pdoc's office. She helped me fax my EBT renewal form along with all the proofs. I hope they take it by fax- why shouldn't they- my case mgr does this for a living so she should know what she's doing right?

Nammu · Dec 22, 2021 at 06:33 PM

Christina, your mention of IHOP was just the ticket 🎟! I made pancakes for supper. We had a real Scandinavian dinner. Pancakes with applesauce and cool whip and salmon.

*Beth* · Dec 22, 2021 at 07:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

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In 2019 at this time I had this same sudden feeling of unease and like something bad would happen real soon and then Covid happened. But I got suddenly scared like Christmas 2019 would be the last time things would be peaceful in the world.

I didnt know it would be a virus though I thought maybe someone big would die or there would be a giant terrorist attack or something like that. It was so strong I asked my mom if we could go look at Christmas lights which we never did before. So we could just really enjoy our Christmas.

But I just have the feeling again.

But my mom just counted and I have 17 (I take 3 a day) extra days of valium. So I can take an extra here and there and not run out.

I dont know if my doctor or the pharamcist screwed up and gave me too many.

Possible trigger:

But how do I tell anyone that I've run out of my geodon 20mil 11 days early because I kept taking extras, without getting into huge trouble?

I dont know. Maybe I do need to get into huge trouble to wake me up.

I think just about everyone, especially Americans, are feeling very tense about the political rivalry in our country. It gives one a feeling of doom, I think.

All I can think of with regard to your Geodon is to tell your prescriber that you lost some pills down the sink, or something like that. But of course you can only pull that once. So yeah...basically, it IS a wake-up call.

*Beth* · Dec 22, 2021 at 07:21 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Fantastic!!!! You did great

Yes enjoy M and the traditions. For over a decade my Daughter and I would go out late night on Christmas (after she did Christmas with her dad ) always went to IHOP ..

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Oh...my mom and I had some fun times at IHOP over the years.

*Beth* · Dec 22, 2021 at 07:23 PM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Well hell I went to fill my pill boxes and I can’t find my last refill of Geodon. According to pharmacy records I got it on the 19th.

I have no refills left but couldn’t afford to buy out of pocket anyway since insurance won’t pay. I am not sure the new NP would send a new script. Dr Graves would have since I never ever lost any medications in 13+ years. So only 40mg and I’m spacing out every 3 or 4 days. This has a bit longer half life than most meds.

It’s always something ! Just hope withdrawals arent hellish.

Today is the one year anniversary of us bringing Gus into our home. He’s just a joy !

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Gus got so big! He's really sweet looking, and a pretty pup.

Please, please ask your prescriber for a Geodon script. Everyone truly does lose a prescription at least once.

*Beth* · Dec 22, 2021 at 07:26 PM

I'm basically obsessing over whether to tell my therapist that I want to cut back to one session per week. I'm getting annoyed with myself...I absolutely hate when I start ruminating instead of just letting things be.

Mountaindewed · Dec 22, 2021 at 07:33 PM

I was thinking that maybe switching my testosterone injection to every other week wasnt helping. So I had my mom email my doctor and ask if I could go to every 1.5 weeks. Then she realized after looking at his notes and the prescprtion bottle that she thinks shes giving me too low of a dose. Which could very well explain the fatigue and anxiety that I had for no reason yesterday and the feeling of doom and depression I have today. Low testosterone can cause just as severe physical problems as too high of a dose so I'm hoping to get this figured out this week but with it being the week of Christmas it could be tough to get an answer. I don't feel right but I thought it was just stupid intution stuff not more testosterone related stuff. This seems never ending.

Dec 22, 2021 at 09:24 PM

My neighbor gave me a Christmas card with a dog on it and a Scrabble magnet in it. It was very thoughtful. My depression continues to get worse. Mostly i sleep as much as possible, doze during the daytime and watch the fireplace app in the evening with occasional breaks for Scrabble games and news. I don't feel well.

*Beth* · Dec 23, 2021 at 12:08 AM

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Originally Posted by whatever2013

My neighbor gave me a Christmas card with a dog on it and a Scrabble magnet in it. It was very thoughtful. My depression continues to get worse. Mostly i sleep as much as possible, doze during the daytime and watch the fireplace app in the evening with occasional breaks for Scrabble games and news. I don't feel well.

I feel proud of you for having relationships with your neighbors. Give yourself credit for that!

I'm so sorry that you're having a rough go of it these days.

buddha1too · Dec 23, 2021 at 12:14 AM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

On day two of lousy sleep and really irritated. Every light particle and every noise sets me off.

I hope you get some decent sleep soon. You're generally pretty mellow (compared to folks like me, anyways!). I think you must miss dreaming, too. You remember dreams more vividly than most anyone I've ever encountered.

Victoria'smom · Dec 23, 2021 at 12:43 AM

So I never got my injection. I cancelled the holidays and will just sleep 😴 instead. I hate feeling this way but don't want to do anything about it. I know I should go get my shot but that involves taking a 🚿 which I really need to do but I don't have the motivation. I didn't even go to my sister's birthday and I'm not going to a close family gender reveal. They even offered for Christmas here so I would not have to leave the house and I said no. I haven't colored in weeks. It just sucks. I'm not doing much all day. I'm scrolling through the phone. Getting into arguments online. Nothing helpful. I no longer know if I'm staying away from my treatment team for fear of hospitalization or embarrassment is what's driving me to not get the shot.

Soupe du jour · Dec 23, 2021 at 04:41 AM

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

Well hell I went to fill my pill boxes and I can’t find my last refill of Geodon. According to pharmacy records I got it on the 19th.

I have no refills left but couldn’t afford to buy out of pocket anyway since insurance won’t pay. I am not sure the new NP would send a new script. Dr Graves would have since I never ever lost any medications in 13+ years. So only 40mg and I’m spacing out every 3 or 4 days. This has a bit longer half life than most meds.

It’s always something ! Just hope withdrawals arent hellish.

Today is the one year anniversary of us bringing Gus into our home. He’s just a joy ! Bipolar check-in #60

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I don't really want to scare you on this, but Geodon withdrawals were the worst I ever experienced going off any medication. Ever. And that was even weaning off very slowly. I do hope your pill bottle shows up somewhere. If not, and you experience any withdrawals, I'd try to get a replacement. Or try anyway. And not just for withdrawals, but also risk of mood lability

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Anonymous41462 Guest Posts: n/a	Dec 22, 2021 at 09:24 PM #976 My neighbor gave me a Christmas card with a dog on it and a Scrabble magnet in it. It was very thoughtful. My depression continues to get worse. Mostly i sleep as much as possible, doze during the daytime and watch the fireplace app in the evening with occasional breaks for Scrabble games and news. I don't feel well.