[Miss Laura]

Hi,

I'm needing to get this out. I'm raging but I'm more raging at my team and myself equally.

I was just discharged from my CPN (Community Psychiatric Nurse) just 2 weeks ago after being under their care for 11 years. I know this is long, I'm lucky to have had him and her both my nurses. But I was only discharged cause I am "not working towards scything with CPN" ice never heard of this in 11 years so I feel they want rid of me.

Last Wed I saw my Peer Support Worker who has said I'm going to be discharged if I'm not working on anything. She tells me this in the middle of a cafe where I burst into tears. I'm so angry why are people leaving me. I feel its a personal vendetta against me. She says she's not abandoning me yet it feels like she is. I was told by CPN that I would still get to see PSW so why am I being discharged??? I'm angry and upset and feel abandoned.

She knows they all know I have fears of rejection. I was talking to a fried who has BPD and she says I might have high functioning BPD as I'm very similar to her. I'm stressing out I'm not seeing her until 2nd week in May. I have to cone up with a plan of action if not I'm being discharged.

Can't stop crying and I'm aching cause I'm losing another person. Although she says she isn't abandoning me SHE IS ACTUALLY ABANDINING ME

I have told her too much info re me and she's leaving me now

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[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Hi,

I'm needing to get this out. I'm raging but I'm more raging at my team and myself equally.

I was just discharged from my CPN (Community Psychiatric Nurse) just 2 weeks ago after being under their care for 11 years. I know this is long, I'm lucky to have had him and her both my nurses. But I was only discharged cause I am "not working towards scything with CPN" ice never heard of this in 11 years so I feel they want rid of me.

Last Wed I saw my Peer Support Worker who has said I'm going to be discharged if I'm not working on anything. She tells me this in the middle of a cafe where I burst into tears. I'm so angry why are people leaving me. I feel its a personal vendetta against me. She says she's not abandoning me yet it feels like she is. I was told by CPN that I would still get to see PSW so why am I being discharged??? I'm angry and upset and feel abandoned.

She knows they all know I have fears of rejection. I was talking to a fried who has BPD and she says I might have high functioning BPD as I'm very similar to her. I'm stressing out I'm not seeing her until 2nd week in May. I have to cone up with a plan of action if not I'm being discharged.

Can't stop crying and I'm aching cause I'm losing another person. Although she says she isn't abandoning me SHE IS ACTUALLY ABANDINING ME

I have told her too much info re me and she's leaving me now

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That SUCKS. I think this would be hurtful (and wrong) doing this to anyone, especially anyone with MH issues. Bipolar, BPD, why do some professionals do that? Leaving someone in a non professional, non therapeutic way.

You are lucky having seen them for so long.. but it still sucks

I don't know what ''not working towards scything with CPN'' means.

Why do they have to issue BLAME together with ''discharge'' ...

ETA I think you've posted that you're talking to a private therapist? Hopefully you can talk through some of your, completely natural and understandable, feelings with the T? And people are here to listen too..

Maybe you can sort something out with the peer ''support'' worker? Keep us posted. I hope she is more supportive than her last statement seemed to be

What are you wanting to work on? I suggest having something you want to work on prepared to talk to her about. Then if she threatens to discharge you again... ?? She doesn't have much ''ammunition'' to do so?

[Miss Laura]

Hey there,

Not working towards anything means I have no goals I'm aiming for. In my opinion I have always been led to believe my CPN is someone who I see once a month for an hour to discuss what's happened in the last month and if any issues they are there to help solve them. The fact my last ever session with my cpn was 15 mins long if that and was 25 mins late to my appt then turn to me and say sorry I'm late was yapping is very disrespectful towards me. She didn't give a s*** about me.

I spoke to PSW about this last appt and she says I didn't need an hour WTF!!! I mean I hadn't seen her in 6 weeks. Then i forced myself as I had very bad covid to go on the phone to her. The least she could of done was be on time calling at 2pm and lasting until 3pm. Waste if time

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[Miss Laura]

I'm trying to think of thongs I can work on but considering PSW mentioned psychological input last March and I'm still waiting on CPN talking to me re this there is no hope. All I can think about working on is confidence but PSW says I'm better at this now WTF???

Sorry I'm raging

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[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Hey there,

Not working towards anything means I have no goals I'm aiming for. In my opinion I have always been led to believe my CPN is someone who I see once a month for an hour to discuss what's happened in the last month and if any issues they are there to help solve them. The fact my last ever session with my cpn was 15 mins long if that and was 25 mins late to my appt then turn to me and say sorry I'm late was yapping is very disrespectful towards me. She didn't give a s*** about me.

I spoke to PSW about this last appt and she says I didn't need an hour WTF!!! I mean I hadn't seen her in 6 weeks. Then i forced myself as I had very bad covid to go on the phone to her. The least she could of done was be on time calling at 2pm and lasting until 3pm. Waste if time

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Oh, I get it now, I thought it was some weird word I had not heard of.. (scything). Sorry, I wasn't trying to be a smart A, I was genuinely confused

15 minutes for last session with CPN? Wow, I'm appalled, quite frankly.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

I'm trying to think of thongs I can work on but considering PSW mentioned psychological input last March and I'm still waiting on CPN talking to me re this there is no hope. All I can think about working on is confidence but PSW says I'm better at this now WTF???

Sorry I'm raging

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I'm sorry, that sucks.

Does the PSW know you well enough to say you are ''better with confidence'' now? I doubt it. And a sub optimal discharge would, in my opinion, be very unlikely to help anyone's confidence, mood or general well being.

[Miss Laura]

Sorry speed typing and predictive text is a nightmare.

Yeah and all she said at the end of call was bye not its been nice knowing you or working with you etc. Just a slap in the face

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[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Sorry speed typing and predictive text is a nightmare.

Yeah and all she said at the end of call was bye not its been nice knowing you or working with you etc. Just a slap in the face

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No problem

Wow yeah, that really stinks. Can you make a complaint? idk, I don't know if that would help

[Miss Laura]

My CPN has retired so no point in making a complaint at all.im not wanting to cause trouble either. I'm in their eyes easy going it's just when home I am like a raging bull.

I do not handle rejection well.... I know that. I live it daily. I try not to let people get close to me but I let the 2 of then CPN and PSW get too close I let my guards down now I'm paying the price rejection.

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[Miss Laura]

PSW has worked on and off with me for 6 years. She was working on a confidence book with me last year for a few months I was doing exercises in it abd taking the work to her. She then said she was going to speak to CPN re psychological support but that never happened. She says cause I have a bit of a social life and I volunteer then I'm fine confidence why which is a lot of bull. I suffer on a daily basis I just try not to let it get the better of me

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[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

My CPN has retired so no point in making a complaint at all.im not wanting to cause trouble either. I'm in their eyes easy going it's just when home I am like a raging bull.

I do not handle rejection well.... I know that. I live it daily. I try not to let people get close to me but I let the 2 of then CPN and PSW get too close I let my guards down now I'm paying the price rejection.

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[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

PSW has worked on and off with me for 6 years. She was working on a confidence book with me last year for a few months I was doing exercises in it abd taking the work to her. She then said she was going to speak to CPN re psychological support but that never happened. She says cause I have a bit of a social life and I volunteer then I'm fine confidence why which is a lot of bull. I suffer on a daily basis I just try not to let it get the better of me

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[*Beth*]

I am so sorry, Laura. I, too, think it stinks that they've done this to you. I am reminded of my therapist. We've worked together for about 3 years and due to some changes in the clinic her case load is suddenly very large. She kept telling me in the past 2 months that I'm "doing so well, so much better!" Well, medication certainly helps. As for therapy, I believe I have improvement, but certainly not dramatic improvement. I think she's simply trying to lighten her caseload.

I wonder if there's a similar situation with you. Please don't "go quietly" - let a supervisor or the most appropriate person know how you feel, and that you still need the service.

[Moose72]

I checked the Facebook invite list for N1's recital Friday and there are 31 people going, including my ex's wife and my ex, the latter of whom is doing sound for the show. Caleb and I will be going.

I wish I had a boyfriend. A good boyfriend! There's Caleb but actually fwb asked today why Caleb and I aren't an item and I said it's because Caleb doesn't want to move here and he doesn't think I should move where he is - about an hour away- because then I wouldn't be as close to my kids. Maybe bigger than that is the fact that Caleb is a heavy smoker- can't go an hour without smoking unless he "has to". Otherwise he's thinking about smoking the whole time! I don't want to be with anybody who has that type of relationship with drugs so there's that- and it's gross.

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I checked the Facebook invite list for N1's recital Friday and there are 31 people going, including my ex's wife and my ex, the latter of whom is doing sound for the show. Caleb and I will be going.


I wish I had a boyfriend. A good boyfriend! There's Caleb but actually fwb asked today why Caleb and I aren't an item and I said it's because Caleb doesn't want to move here and he doesn't think I should move where he is - about an hour away- because then I wouldn't be as close to my kids. Maybe bigger than that is the fact that Caleb is a heavy smoker- can't go an hour without smoking unless he "has to". Otherwise he's thinking about smoking the whole time! I don't want to be with anybody who has that type of relationship with drugs so there's that- and it's gross.

Sorry? What's this got to do with my post? I'm a little bit confused sorry

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[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Sorry? What's this got to do with my post? I'm a little bit confused sorry

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I'm sure that Moose meant to post on the check-in thread. Do you ever read threads besides your own?

[Miss Laura]

Yes I do read other threads I don't read check in thread though as I don't find it useful

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[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Yes I do read other threads I don't read check in thread though as I don't find it useful

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I sometimes get lost in the check in thread.

I was wondering what the book you were working on with the PSW is?

[Miss Laura]

Overcoming low self esteem by Melanie Fennell

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[*Beth*]

Looks like a worthwhile book.

The check-in thread helps with having a sense of community and a place to belong and to be heard. Also, to offer support. It's about relationships.