Bipolar check-in #64

I'm sorry about the lost time lately. ''Internal family systems''.... Interesting. Let me/us know how it goes!

Much love

It’s so easy to get behind on here. What’s internal family systems?

Really depressed right now. If I can just remember where I put my bottle of seraquil

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I can’t get a link to work. Probably because I’m on Tapatalk.

Wikipedia has a good overview of it.



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Cool, I used to have a reoccurring dream decades ago, there was three of me, we were each holding a gun on the other. If anyone fired all of us died. I bet that would have been handy back then.

I'm home from my biopsy. It went well enough although was not comfortable. I am extremely tired.


Beth, your massage table question is good and I'll answer when I've had sleep. Right now I'm just trying to stay awake until bedtime. I'll tell you all about it tomorrow. There is a story.


Thank you all so much. I felt much less alone.


I hope I never have to do that again.

Have a good rest.

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow I'm home from my biopsy. It went well enough although was not comfortable. I am extremely tired. Beth, your massage table question is good and I'll answer when I've had sleep. Right now I'm just trying to stay awake until bedtime. I'll tell you all about it tomorrow. There is a story. Thank you all so much. I felt much less alone. I hope I never have to do that again.

I am SO glad you're through with that. Congratulations! I'll be waiting to hear from you when you're ready

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird @BethRags hope you get your basket soon, and I'm glad you got some good sleep I'm here, just haven't been posting much. I'm doing pretty well, haven't had any med changes since I'm doing good lately. Tomorrow I'm scheduling an appointment to get Miss Mustachio spayed. Tomorrow I also have people coming over to change the filter to my air conditioning and I'm really not looking forward to that. I hate having people come to my apartment. They could be here anywhere between 8:30am and 12pm so I have to stay here and wait because I don't want my cat getting out when they come. I'm trying to eat healthier and am having massive sugar cravings but am trying to ignore them lol I didn't sleep well last night, and was looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow but I can't because I need to be awake for the people coming to change the filter, so that ruins my plans. I sat outside in the morning for about 30 minutes, it was nice being outside for a change. It stays pretty cold here in upstate NY kinda far into spring, on Tuesday it was like 16 degrees here and in the low 20's throughout the day. It's starting to get warmer now though

I glad you're doing pretty well. Yay! Ugh, I hate maintenance coming into my apt. It messes up my day (although never as badly as I imagine it will). My toilet lid has almost broken off, I need to get the maintenance dude in and I keep putting it off

Kisses to Miss M. for her *big day*!

I filled out a bunch of online forms and I'm supposed to be scheduled with a med provider at a new place. The provider is a man, which I generally do better with when it comes to medical stuff. If Tuesday could be my last appointment with that b**** it can't come soon enough.

Are you changing therapists too?

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow Are you changing therapists too?

No...I currently see my therapist about twice/month. I'm kinda done with regular therapy. I'm so tired of it. Not that it hasn't helped me, it definitely has. But I'm using the sessions now as a place to just de-stress. Not to go deep into anything.

Hey all. Checked on my mom's place and watered all the plants. Put my suitcase in their basement where it lives. Did two loads of laundry at the same time- two washers and two dryers- vacation stuff and stuff I didn't wash before I went on vacation. Talked with C for a while on the phone. Have a mammogram on Monday. Bills day is tomorrow. Bills day is always busy. But by evening I hope to be watching Golden Girls.

Glad it’s over.

Now is time to take extra good care of yourself. Love you

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This is great news, BethRags! I hope this really works out for you. Good for you for taking such a step.

Checking in. I was on the phone with my best friend yesterday when I heard my highly aggressive sister outside yelling at my mom. I should have known to get off the phone then. She came in and yelled at me to stop talking to my best friend and not to talk to him ever again and to clean the room I was in. How dare she?!? My friends are my business. She was way out of line and was totally inappropriate. She then demanded to know how long I had been talking to him that day.

She also isn’t living in a 4 bedroom house with two incontinent, mentally impaired people and trying to keep all the balls in the air. She occasionally brings a meal over and that’s it! When she comes at me like that I don’t engage with her. It only devolves into a screaming match where nobody wins.

I got on Amazon and bought a book with 365 words and phrases for dealing with difficult people. I’ve had just about enough.

I was having a bad day yesterday. Therapy was tough and I was physically under the weather. I tried to drive my brother to the doctor but he wouldn’t go in without me and I wasn’t well.

I’m feeling better today but my sister really made me angry and embarrassed me in front of my friend. Throwing my hands up.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day. Hugs to all.

feeling quite anxious

basically over the fact I have 2 coppies of the same dvd, and finding it hard to throw one of them away

then finding it weird that I have 2 coppies even to begin with

It’s a stormy morning; heavy rain and wind. Electricity went out. My dog max had to be medicated because he has terrible storm anxiety.

Feeling apprehensive about the day even though I have no appointments scheduled. I typically enjoy stormy days, but just feeling exposed and vulnerable this morning.

Depression: 6 out of 10
Anxiety: 6
No mania
No SI/HI

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