Bipolar check-in #64

Yesterday went well but I got some pretty bad post op procedure depression right after. It went away as soon as I woke up, but I was tired and dizzy all day today like I was told I would be. Donating blood because you want to is one thing. Donating blood because its medically necessary is completely diffrent. I got there on time and I got taken back and the set up was as I expected. A row of recliners lined up with curtains seperating them with a nurses station in the middle. Most of the people were in their 70's-90's on IVs and using walkers. The youngest people looked to be in their early 60s. A lot were there for chemo treatments I assume. I looked way out of place. The nurse put me in a corner recliner which I was glad. She had a lot of trouble getting a vein and finally a second nurse had to take over. She found a vein but on an odd angle. Which meant she had to stay with me the whole time to hold the tube so the blood would flow properly. The bag of blood was behind me so I couldn't see it. We made small talk. Mostly about our cats. She asked why I was there. I expained the high blood level but didn't go into detail. I didn't tell her I was trans. I had my Adidas pride hat on I try to wear to my medical appointments. I have no idea if she knew or not but its not something I share with anyone in real life. My vein went dry but they got enough blood. Almost instantly after, I got nauseated. After 15 minutes the first nurse checked my vitals again. I asked her if nausea was normal. She said not really and asked if I wanted to stay longer. I told her I really wanted to go home. She asked if I drove myself. I said my mom was in the waiting room. She said oh good. Then walked me out. I collected my mom and ignored the lady who was giving us a sympathetic look and I went home and got into bed for the rest of the day. It was just a physically and emotionally draining ordeal. Plus being around all those cancer patients was sad too. A very old lady on an IV 2 recliners away from me dropped her styfroam cup and I so badly wanted to go pick it up for her but I was already reclined and I didn't want to get into trouble. Luckily she was able to reach it herself. I really hope my level is normal when I get it tested next week so I don't have to repeat this again. Today I just watched TV. Our new furnace was in which took all day to set up.

How much do you need to drop levels wise? I don’t know your system there but here our levels are meant to be over 100 and under 70 you need a blood transfusion. I don’t know what the measurements are in but anyway what I’m saying this for is that each bag of blood brings you up 10 points / numbers so I’m assuming it should bring you down the same? If you knew your numbers you might be able to work it out.

I sent my giant packet for medicaid in the mail today. No way could I have fit all the paperwork in the tiny little envelope they gave me. I have a phone interview next week for SSI. I know I was freaking out about it but now I realize what I have control over and what I don't and I'm working on doing what I need to do in terms of what I can control and not worrying about what I can't. It's manageable.

I had chinese last night to celebrate my year drug/alcohol free. Soo expensive ($60 for me, my dad and both our SOs) but soo good.

I have a gynecology appointment monday. My period's lasted 26 days so far. I just switched from the arm implant to an IUD and this is my first period in 4 years so I'm assuming that's why. I could deal without the cramps though

Sending hugs all around. Stay gold my peeps

Hello • I’m really stressed about having to drive an hour away for appointment late this afternoon. I typically make morning appointments because of afternoon fatigue (due to heart failure and meds). It’s really frustrating. But I have to do what I have to do, I guess.

Be careful on the roads go slow and drive in the left lane. Use your cruise control and that way you don't have to worry about getting pulled over.
good luck this afternoon.
bizi

@Moose72:

I'm sorry to hear you are not enjoying your adventure as much as you'd hoped. I'm 55 and i had a similar experience last year when in a wild and impractical mood i decided to attend a fun craft-making special event in the city in an area not known to me. Well, it turned out to be a real fiasco getting there and back, i think it was eight buses all told and i was so stressed-out and exhausted and disoriented i threw the craft away.

Like you, i enjoyed adventures when i was young. But like you my lower back and feet were so sore and i was so full of anxiety and disoriented that it was just a bad memory. I've accepted that the time in my life for adventures has passed and that quiet calm days at home are what i enjoy now. I rarely go out of the neighborhood. I'm fat and out-of-shape. The wheelchair sounds like a good way of making the best of the rest of your activity.

I sent my giant packet for medicaid in the mail today. No way could I have fit all the paperwork in the tiny little envelope they gave me. I have a phone interview next week for SSI. I know I was freaking out about it but now I realize what I have control over and what I don't and I'm working on doing what I need to do in terms of what I can control and not worrying about what I can't. It's manageable.

I had chinese last night to celebrate my year drug/alcohol free. Soo expensive ($60 for me, my dad and both our SOs) but soo good.

I have a gynecology appointment monday. My period's lasted 26 days so far. I just switched from the arm implant to an IUD and this is my first period in 4 years so I'm assuming that's why. I could deal without the cramps though

Sending hugs all around. Stay gold my peeps