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I made it home ok. I got my shoes returned. I ended up needing a full size smaller. They are slip on though and I am only used to ones that are tied. My mom was talking to me last night and she said her lawyer was talking to her about a non for profit organazation that helps people with autism and other disabilties with like vocational training and housing and transportation. 3 years ago I would have been totally agaisnt a program like that. But honestly I am just not as capable mental health wise as I was 3 years ago and a program like that could really help me. My mom is 70 and I really want to become independent. I'd like it if they could find me a non retail job where I'd get holidays off since Thanksgivngs are now a big travel deal for me. I know office companies hire autistic people for various postions. At least according to 60 minutes. My mom thinks this place may really help.

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I made it home ok. I got my shoes returned. I ended up needing a full size smaller. They are slip on though and I am only used to ones that are tied. My mom was talking to me last night and she said her lawyer was talking to her about a non for profit organazation that helps people with autism and other disabilties with like vocational training and housing and transportation. 3 years ago I would have been totally agaisnt a program like that. But honestly I am just not as capable mental health wise as I was 3 years ago and a program like that could really help me. My mom is 70 and I really want to become independent. I'd like it if they could find me a non retail job where I'd get holidays off since Thanksgivngs are now a big travel deal for me. I know office companies hire autistic people for various postions. At least according to 60 minutes. My mom thinks this place may really help.

That sounds terrific, Md! Check into it, for sure.

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An absolutely gorgeous spring day! I am so sleepy, though, I will probably lie down and see if I can fall asleep for a while. Falling asleep has become this like...occupation in my life. A full-time job.

Has anyone here seen the movie Magnolia?

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I thought the movie sounded familiar but no I’ve not seen it. I see it has Tom cruise in it and I don’t watch him, but the movie sound intriguing 🤔

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I got my new phone today. It was time to upgrade since I've had my old one for several years and it was falling apart. I'm all moved into my new phone now.

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I know we often discuss this on here but weight gain from meds sucks.
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I thought the movie sounded familiar but no I’ve not seen it. I see it has Tom cruise in it and I don’t watch him, but the movie sound intriguing 🤔

Yeah, I'm not thrilled to watch him, either. I do like Julieanne Moore and some others in the film. I need something to watch tonight and I have Netflix and PBS...I could find something on either of those. I'm so curious about Magnolia, can't really get a feeling from the trailer, and I so don't want to spend $3 to watch a movie that I end up not liking. But there's that curiosity. Actually, if I rent it on Amazon and don't like the first bit of it, they'll refund my payment. Of course I'd have to go through the hassle of calling them.

Talk about a "first world problem"

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Yeah, I'm not thrilled to watch him, either. I do like Julieanne Moore and some others in the film. I need something to watch tonight and I have Netflix and PBS...I could find something on either of those. I'm so curious about Magnolia, can't really get a feeling from the trailer, and I so don't want to spend $3 to watch a movie that I end up not liking. But there's that curiosity. Actually, if I rent it on Amazon and don't like the first bit of it, they'll refund my payment. Of course I'd have to go through the hassle of calling them.

Talk about a "first world problem"


Beth, have you watched Dumplin on Netflix? It's pretty good. I think it's Jennifer Anniston and I can't remember who else (or for sure if it is her, my mind isn't very clear yet). But I did like it when I saw it about a year ago.

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Yeah it funny how I don’t want to spend 1.99 on a book I might not like but I’ll think nothing of spending $5 for for a cup of coffee. Of course I rarely buy coffe out but it’s the weird hesitation to spend any amount for something I might not like.

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I'm going to try some other things, it won't cure anything but it won't make it worse (hopefully) (yoga being one thing)

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Since it's already 12:12 am, I must say that today is my last day in the US. We head out in less than 24 hours, back to Germany. When we arrive, we pick up our car from long-term parking then visit my husband's brother for a few hours before driving back to CZ. Not sure if we'll make it all the way home in one shot or if we'll stop somewhere en route, in CZ. I know we'll be beat!

Tonight we went to Carnegie Hall to see pianist Emmanuel Ax play Chopin. Before that we met up with Hubby's friend, who works in the city. Yesterday I actually rode a bike for the first time in at least 12 years. I was nervous and struggled a bit to get going on a much heavier bike (an ebike) than I was ever used to. No falls, but my left arm hurts as I was squeezing the handles with a death grip. We rode around Central Park for almost an hour, ending at the Guggenheim Museum, which had an amazing exhibition of Wassily Kandinsky. Hubby loved the bike ride. Me, not as much, but I did it for him.

I'm not sure what we'll do before the flight. We'll figure that out when we wake up. I won't be visiting my nephew, though. My sister said that due to covid, only one designated person can visit during his stay. That's her.

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I'm going to try some other things, it won't cure anything but it won't make it worse (hopefully) (yoga being one thing)

I'm so sorry, Fuzzy dear. I truly feel for you...especially when it comes to med providers I'm so disgusted with them, in general.

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Since it's already 12:12 am, I must say that today is my last day in the US. We head out in less than 24 hours, back to Germany. When we arrive, we pick up our car from long-term parking then visit my husband's brother for a few hours before driving back to CZ. Not sure if we'll make it all the way home in one shot or if we'll stop somewhere en route, in CZ. I know we'll be beat!

Tonight we went to Carnegie Hall to see pianist Emmanuel Ax play Chopin. Before that we met up with Hubby's friend, who works in the city. Yesterday I actually rode a bike for the first time in at least 12 years. I was nervous and struggled a bit to get going on a much heavier bike (an ebike) than I was ever used to. No falls, but my left arm hurts as I was squeezing the handles with a death grip. We rode around Central Park for almost an hour, ending at the Guggenheim Museum, which had an amazing exhibition of Wassily Kandinsky. Hubby loved the bike ride. Me, not as much, but I did it for him.

I'm not sure what we'll do before the flight. We'll figure that out when we wake up. I won't be visiting my nephew, though. My sister said that due to covid, only one designated person can visit during his stay. That's her.

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I read what I wrote and then sealed it. I don't want to modify it because If I do it'll just be to exclude things. I wrote mater of fact and I'll right another one between today and Tuesday. I'm kinda mad it'll be two weeks after next week because next week is going to be heavy. I feel good about this therapist. We'll see.

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Rainbow, thanks! Dumplin' looks like a movie worth watching. I put it in my Netflix list. I have in my mind that Dumplin' was a book...but I might have the story mixed up in my mind with an old teen novel by Judy Blume.

15 minutes into Magnolia I gave up, called Amazon, and got a refund
Looked like a dopey movie - at least, not my style. Along the lines of Fight Club, but not nearly as clever or effortless. It seemed like everyone involved was trying too hard, including the writer. He also wrote Boogie Nights and Licorice Pizza. I absolutely love Boogie Nights - wow, did that movie ever nail southern California, emotional pain, and being in emotional pain in southern California! - so have tried to make myself watch Licorice Pizza, but deep inside I doubt I'll like it.

So, here I am, haha. I'm making myself not watch anything now so I'll maybe actually end up in bed at 11 p.m. or, with God's grace, earlier Surely I'll lie there for a good hour before being able to sleep, but at least it'll be dark, quiet, and comfortable. I can lie there and listen to the sound of the cats' fountain. Wow, I remember that for years I went to bed by 9:30 every night. That was too early, though.

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Beth, what do you do if you want to stop a movie from Amazon? Do you tell them you don't lik it or that it was an accident or what? I know I cancelled one once because I started it and realizd I didn't want in 2 minutes in and I couJld just clickkrious
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Here’s a picture of Maybelle when she got here yesterday. Also a random picture of a mixed berry smoothie I made yesterday that was really good

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I slept really good. I was considering staying up all night but I made myself go to sleep around 1am because severe lack of sleep triggers mania and psychosis for me. I woke up at 6am and feel well rested. Even though I sometimes enjoy feeling manic the psychosis is a very bad feeling/experience

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