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Hi Moose, what are you afraid will happen if you take your Haldol? __________________ |
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@*Beth* I didn't take a prn but I did take my nightly meds and there is Haldol in there. It must've been the little fan or air conditioner (?) whirring that did it. I know there was nobody else here. I am still afraid of what the Haldol might do- as if it was poisoned or maybe there's a separate pill in my pack that is solid poison- but I did take 5 mg which is my normal nightly dose. Didn't take a prn dose. (I just put all the pills in the pack in my hand and swallow them all at once with water.) My brain won't quit telling me that someone is going to break into my apartment tonight and that someone put poisoned powder on the raw broccoli that I bought yesterday and ate some of earlier. I did eat more but I cooked it and I don't know if boiling broccoli would get rid of poison. __________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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A whirring fan can certainly sound like voices. At least, I've experienced that. I hope you're soundly asleep, but if not would watching a show help distract you? I'll be looking for you in the morning (well, 3 hours behind you) to see how you are feeling. __________________ |
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In my old house the AC unit was outside my bedroom and it took me a couple of years to figure out that the voices I heard at night were the AC unit kicking on and off. Hope you got a good night of sleep and the voices are all gone when you wake up. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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When it comes to your insight about your relationship with your so-called friend, I admire that you have come so far in your life that you are able to take a good introspective look and accept what you find. A good weekend to you! |
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I know I've had the surgery already. So my body shape wouldn't change back. People often thought I was male before I was even on T anyways. Plus my voice wouldn't undeepen again. I'd probably lose a lot of weight since it makes me hungry. But theres just that weird feeling of missing my identity that is just too unsettling to deal with.
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Just wanted to share some pics of Maybelle and Mustachio I took yesterday
I’m doing well, my psychiatrist said she’s proud of me and the progress I’ve been making __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Thanks @GoGo2 for your kind words.
The pain has found me today. I’ve put these things in my rear view mirror and am practicing good self care yet I am in pain. I wish I could extricate all memories of the friendship and move on. I have a tapping app on my phone and I’ve been tapping a lot to the dealing with grief meditation. It states that although you can tap away the stress, tension, anxiety etc associated with grieving, you can’t tap away the grief over losing someone. You have to go through it. I’m moving on but I find myself impatient with this pain that makes me want to sit and stare at the wall. I feel stuck right now. This episode makes me want to say to heck with relationships. Nothing but trouble. I’m glad my daughter is coming down tomorrow for a few days. She’s going to help me with a tough project, we’ll go floating and hiking and up to the mountain to view the sunset and try a new restaurant and I’ll beat her at uno and rook. It will lift my spirits. We’ll take a picnic to the lake as well. I’m going to be okay. I’m a strong, resilient woman and I don’t give myself enough credit for the things I’ve overcome. I am an amazing person with lots to offer. I won’t let this bias me. I’ll keep an open heart and mind. I hope everyone has a peaceful day. Hugs to all. |
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They both look adorable I love Miss M.'s mustache, it's quite darling. Where did you buy the fuzzy thing Miss M. is lying on? My cats have a cat tree that is carpeted and it's coming apart already. __________________ |
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Amazon.com __________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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No, that one relationship is not cause for you to become bitter or to give up on relationships. But I know that you are aware of that. Your plans with your daughter sound lovely. I hope you enjoy every moment __________________ |
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So are Maybelle and Mustachio buddies yet? Who is the alpha cat? __________________ Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 600 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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__________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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I dreamed so I know I slept, but it feels like I didn’t. It was 77 when we went to bed, just too hot. I got up and turned the AC on, then later I got up to turn it up, was worried mum would find it too cold and turn on the heat. Then I had to get up again to turn it back down as it was too hot again. In between I had this weird romantic sci fic dream about this couple being in love but having all these obstacles and my aunt who died 10 years ago was one of the things keeping them apart. Every time I went back to sleep I played a different part. Once I was the guy, once I was the girl, once I was separate and watching the drama on a tv in a sky rise on another planet. I feel quite exhausted. For some reason the fashion was French 1400-1500 dress with pink wigs.
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I encouraged my husband to go for a walk with me a bit ago. Boy, are we out of shape! Our walk was almost 50% up semi-steep hills. Along the walk was a line of "chata", which are typical Czech summer cottages, many not much bigger than sheds. People buy these little shacks, of sorts, along with a strip of land where they grow veggies and fruit. One place had strawberries already getting red and some bushes containing angrešt (gooseberries). I hadn't actually even seen them on the bush before. Before long, other fruit will be coming. Moravia is particularly chock full of plums called "blumen" that are free for the picking along country roads.
Our landlady had invited us for coffee last week, but we managed to weasel out, though Hubby went just to pay the rent for two months (since we'll be away). She asked us again, so we're sort of obliged to go. She's had us over for coffee in the past. I'll confess that I'd rather not be that chummy with our landlady, but I imagine she means well. However, there's always a mini fear she'll ask for something out of it or make another request. She also has foreigners renting in her apartments downtown. I doubt she has them for coffee. Perhaps that's the trouble with renting within walking-distance of her home. Plus, maybe because Hubby speaks Czech and can chat with her Slovak husband. She likes speaking English with me. I confess to have splurged on a couple dresses for my trip, plus a new pair of summery shoes. Hubby submitted the order, including a "surprise" third dress. The dress he picked out is sadly not my style, but I won't tell him that. It's way too crazy with pineapples, papaya, and even a parrot on it. Almost costume-like. I'm sure the parrot was what grabbed him. __________________ Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 600 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. Last edited by Soupe du jour; May 28, 2022 at 11:51 AM.. |
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I bought contacts earlier this month which came with a $30 rebate. I had to take photos of the receipt and the box tops and upload them to a website. Now I get an email saying to click the link in it. It went through what is your email etc which was already filled in. It asked whether I want a virtual card of a physical card. BUT it went to a page that wanted me to accept their terms but when I clicked "accept" it gave me half a message about scrolling down but I couldn't scroll down. So I decided to click the email link from my laptop. But it wanted me to input some code numbers which it filled in for me but then did nothing when I clicked it. So I decided to click on log in and I had written down my password so I knew that was right. But it told me my log in was incorrect so I thought I made a mistake typing the password so I tried again. I thought my username was my email but I tried logging in the second time and it told me that I only get three login attempts before it will lock me out. So I clicked "contact us". They obviously know who I am since they've emailed me- even if it's automated. There is no way to recover your username- just the password. Soooo..... I guess I'm ****ed. I don't expect them to be able to help me. So I'm out $30.
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The (hopefully) good idea is to plan days and set small aims for what one want to do with life and how to get there step, by step. God wishes! |
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