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He came back to bed that's a good start. I don't know how I am. Definitely angry, like electric running through my body. I feel trapped to always be poor. I want to apply for the ticket to work program but I won't just in case I am manic.
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I’m glad he came back. I see your signature where you’re SzA and he’s BP1, that has to be hard, I’m sorry. I’ve only knowingly met one other BP person and we were…..interesting. All the **** you and he have been through cannot be discounted.
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We have been through a lot. Hopefully this is just a hiccup but I was really mean. I've never been that mean to him. I don't think he slept well because he keeps falling asleep.
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Have you given a sincere, genuine apology? Those can go far.
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He says he doesn't want an apology or me to feel bad. This is who I am and he doesn't want to be controlling by giving me my meds to take and making me eat. So he's going to back off and let my team handle it. He's just done. I laid out all his problems and told him to take care of himself before trying to help me because he is a hypocrite. He's hurt. I tried apologizing but sometimes that's just not enough.
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So I'm thinking of taking my thorazine. Kinda just laying in bed with my loud head agitated. Shaking my leg if I'm not thinking about it. I'm trying to prevent my outside signs. As I always do. Bugs crawling on my skin and in my hair. H cooked for us. We have to clean but we don't feel like it. Miguel called and said he isn't doing well. I can't help him. He either has to find a job or move back home. I want to pay for next month but I spent that money so no idea how to help. I went negative in our bank to do/help all the things we did.
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Yeah, in my experience there's never only 1 person in a family with MI. And families are "as sick as their secrets." I, too, was taught to shut up or risk being "taken away."
(Replying to your post about MI in your family of origin.) __________________ Last edited by *Beth*; Jun 18, 2022 at 07:36 PM.. |
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I'm sorry guys I'm trying to keep everything to one thread. My T will call Wednesday to remind me of my appointment on Thursday. I'm thinking about waiting until Thursday to bring anything up. She's not going to be happy I'm not taking my pills. She wanted me to continue until talking to pdoc. in 3 weeks but I just can't and anyway if I'm manic meds will not help within those three weeks. At the same time I feel she's going to hospitalize me so I don't continue ruining my life. Financially I ****ed us, emotionally I ****ed us. We may not recover this time. I just want an injection that I keep my personality, even the pickily parts but calms the SzA parts. My pdoc isn't going to change my meds but maybe I'll calm down once I withdraw and just keep my abilify shot. I can concentrate on acting normal it's only an hour meeting 1x a week I won't lie but concentrating on acting normal won't concern her as much. I don't want to be dropped. I need therapy. I need to make a plan. I don't know how to fix everything. T says I'm under a lot of stress. I just need to stay out of the hospital durring this withdraw.
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I have not met a T who wants to do therapy with me unless I'm on the proper meds. They say it's just too hard to work with someone who gets manic.
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bizi __________________ 150mg of lamictal 2x a day haldol 5mg 2x a day 1mg of cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, 4-5 peri-colace for chronic constipation multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine at noon PRN Remeron 15mg at night, zyprexa10mg under tongue, requip2mg. |
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My husband will not advise me because of how mean I was to him yesterday. It was bad. He of course wants me to take all my meds even my prns 3x a day but is done and let me lead. The fact that he is talking to me is an improvement. I hurt him a lot. He wants me to talk to my T and work it out with her and pdoc. Honestly he wants me to change pdocs. They are booked out till sept. so I have to keep my appointment with my pdoc. T wanted me to get an earlier appointment or call the med line. But that was when she thought I was restarting my meds that night. but the night came I through a fit and continued it to the next day. and haven't taken anything since Thursday night before that I missed 3-4 days. So I'm about a week into unmedicated besides the shot. I'm suppose to be on Thorazine, Prozac and hydroxyzine (up to 3x a day)(SP?)
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@*Beth* so I am (hypo) manic?
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I don't want to take them unless not taking them will lead to hospitalization.
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Well, I was referring to my own experience with T's not wanting to work with me unless I was on meds. But yes, you seem to be manic to me, Mm. I completely understand how you feel about meds making you be not yourself. I battle that all the time. I feel angry about it and I feel damn cheated. You're not on many meds, actually. I'm wondering if your husband may be correct, that a different pdoc could be more helpful. Have you ever been on a mood stabilizer, like Lamictal? __________________ |
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Beth is right.hAVE YOU EVER been on a mood stabilizer? I've never heard you say you were on a mood stabilizer. And I know that you have trouble with pills but at least 2 have options. Lamictal comes in an ODT and Depakote comes in sprinkles you put on your food. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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I just was reading the title of this post and I realized that it has 2 meanings. One, I can't accept that I need meds all my life. (I know that's what you intended). But it also could mean I can't accept that I need meds to live, as in stay alive. And those are very different things.
For me I now that I need meds to stay alive. I'm blessed that it's been a very long time since I had a struggle with needing them. So it's hard for me to know what to say to help although I feel so bad for your struggles. But I just wanted to share my revelation because I thought it was interesting. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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