Bipolar check-in #67

Wow, time for a new thread already! Here it is.

I accidently posted this on the old one.

The hida scan came back normal. No clue where the pain is coming from and why its happening. The doctor is prescrbing something I take 4 times a day and says to avoid fattening foods. My mom is super pissed he doesn't seem to be taking this seriously. But GI doctors are notorious for not taking people seriously. The last GI doctor I saw once and never went back because he was an asshole with bad bedside manners. Anyways I'd rather take a pill to get rid of this then go under antheseia or have surgery. Maybe I'm so currently calm about the situation because I took an Advil a couple hours ago and only had vegetables to eat in 20 hours. He didn't tell me to lose weight though. Or that it would help.

I heard on this podcast that you don't mess with a big persons food and you don't mess with a small persons food and she was talking about how some of her soy something or another was missing. I think this person is just a secret fat phobic but she is kinda right when she says you don't mess with that stuff. I got super pissed this morning when I thought my vegetables from yesterday were missing....

I'm pretty sure I have ADD. I just don't know where to begin to get a diganois and possibly meds. I can't concentrate on anything. I turn on the TV and see an episode is 45 minutes and I know I can't deal with it. I haven't watched AGT this year because I can't stand concentrating on a show for 2 hours. Same with reading. I really like the book I'm reading. I just can't focus for me then 15 pages. Theres so much I want to do and watch but its just I can't focus.

My flight is at 6 am tomorrow. We have to drive a ways to the airport and drop off the rental car, so we'll leave around 1 am. Yes, a.m. Hubby has already slept almost 2 hours to make himself ready, and is still sleeping. I can't sleep at 7 pm!!!!!!!!!!!! Or without my evening meds.

I'll probably take my evening meds around 2 am. I can't NOT take them or I will surely sicken more. Even when I'm reasonably well I become "off" if I forget them until late. In the past when I skipped (i.e. for reasons of travel), I became very unwell like the flip of a switch. As my light has already been flashing, I won't be pushing it.

I called my psychiatrist from France and he gave me an appointment next week, the soonest he could.

Oh, rocky having to try and sleep around travel schedules. I’m so glad your pdoc could work you in that soon. Great.

I had to email my pdoc though the portal to give him info from the pharmacist and he acted on it but didn’t send me a message that he got it. That was. Disappointing.

He also has a groin infection so maybe a combo? Yes I hope it sparkles and shines. But I'm worried that he will just destroy it again.

Confirmed: Prozac. Tapering Trintellix for a week and then start Prozac.

Riding the med merry-go-round...

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed I accidently posted this on the old one. The hida scan came back normal. No clue where the pain is coming from and why its happening. The doctor is prescrbing something I take 4 times a day and says to avoid fattening foods. My mom is super pissed he doesn't seem to be taking this seriously. But GI doctors are notorious for not taking people seriously. The last GI doctor I saw once and never went back because he was an asshole with bad bedside manners. Anyways I'd rather take a pill to get rid of this then go under antheseia or have surgery. Maybe I'm so currently calm about the situation because I took an Advil a couple hours ago and only had vegetables to eat in 20 hours. He didn't tell me to lose weight though. Or that it would help. I heard on this podcast that you don't mess with a big persons food and you don't mess with a small persons food and she was talking about how some of her soy something or another was missing. I think this person is just a secret fat phobic but she is kinda right when she says you don't mess with that stuff. I got super pissed this morning when I thought my vegetables from yesterday were missing.... I'm pretty sure I have ADD. I just don't know where to begin to get a diganois and possibly meds. I can't concentrate on anything. I turn on the TV and see an episode is 45 minutes and I know I can't deal with it. I haven't watched AGT this year because I can't stand concentrating on a show for 2 hours. Same with reading. I really like the book I'm reading. I just can't focus for me then 15 pages. Theres so much I want to do and watch but its just I can't focus.

I'm so glad the hida scan went well, and that the result is a good one. 2 hours and a med that makes you have cramps and nausea. Sounds like a blast.

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour My flight is at 6 am tomorrow. We have to drive a ways to the airport and drop off the rental car, so we'll leave around 1 am. Yes, a.m. Hubby has already slept almost 2 hours to make himself ready, and is still sleeping. I can't sleep at 7 pm!!!!!!!!!!!! Or without my evening meds. I'll probably take my evening meds around 2 am. I can't NOT take them or I will surely sicken more. Even when I'm reasonably well I become "off" if I forget them until late. In the past when I skipped (i.e. for reasons of travel), I became very unwell like the flip of a switch. As my light has already been flashing, I won't be pushing it. I called my psychiatrist from France and he gave me an appointment next week, the soonest he could.

A stress overload. Good that you have the appointment next week. And good that the flight won't be a long one. Be safe. Sending you love

My sister just called. Dad needs rehab which he does not want because he said the last time he did that for his ankle it was "a half way house". The lady who found him this new rehab place says it's really nice and "Boujee" and that it's amazing that he got in because "nobody gets in there". They also cut off his long white beard and left him with a moustache and short white hair. I hope he's happy with it. He's gotta get cleared by the Neuro surgeon about his cracked vertebrae before they put him in rehab. He was on morphine sleeping last night so my sister didn't get him a sandwich but she did today.

I gave oxygen company the pulse ox back yesterday. They download info to our Doctor then they sent order immediately and the oxygen company. They brought the concentrator and mandatory tank this morning. Living in a small town really allows for fantastic medical care. I’m so relieved Steve can get back on oxygen. He will feel so much better tomorrow.

I’m feeling pretty good my stress level certainly has dropped.

It’s still so hot here. Days like this I sure wish we had a pool.

Take care all

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I think I've been poisoned by Caplyta. (Kidding...I hope.) I didn't take it last night and had only taken 5 doses of it. But last night it was as if I was going through withdrawal. I was moving around in bed and aware that I was talking. My breathing was difficult and my heart beat was jumpy. I thought I had to buy something, it seemed extremely important, and I was trying to figure out how to get the money together. Then I sort-of awoke when I found myself walking in circles around my bedroom, still trying to figure out how to get the money to buy whatever I thought I needed to buy.

I'm still very sleepy, but I had to drive to the new medical clinic and turn in paperwork. I have never went to a clinic that required so much paperwork. On the way I felt the car pulling to the left and I jumped just as I almost hit a parked car. It was way too close.

I parked at the clinic and was walking to the front doors, but I felt my body pulled to the left. It took immense effort to pull back to the right and walk in a straight line.

Anyway, you get the idea. When I read that Caplyta is known as a "one size fits all" medication I felt uncomfortable. It was originally used for schizophrenia. Then bipolar depression. And everybody starts and stays at the same dose. That seems weird.

I hope by tomorrow I've shaken this off.

I called my daughter and left her a birthday message. Got off the phone and sobbed my heart out. She spoke with David this morning, she's having a rough time. Her stomach pain is intermittent and she's in touch with her surgeon back east. Her soon to be ex husband is selling their house, so she'll get 1/2 the money (Calif is a common-law state, which means that married couples have to split all possessions evenly - a major reason why movie stars end up fighting over their millions when they get divorced.). That's a good thing. But she's having a hard time trying to deal with her possessions (she has tons of stuff), and of course, the whole thing is hurting her.

Geez, I'm falling asleep. Guess I'll take a nap and hopefully shake this creepo medication off.

~**~***~Peace, Love~**~**~**

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Originally Posted by ~Christina I gave oxygen company the pulse ox back yesterday. They download info to our Doctor then they sent order immediately and the oxygen company. They brought the concentrator and mandatory tank this morning. Living in a small town really allows for fantastic medical care. I’m so relieved Steve can get back on oxygen. He will feel so much better tomorrow. I’m feeling pretty good my stress level certainly has dropped. It’s still so hot here. Days like this I sure wish we had a pool. Take care all Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Oh, that is excellent news! Yes, there's no doubt Stave will feel better now.

The heat. It's sickening. 103 again today with a hot, dry wind. The stinkin' power company drops the force of electricity so a/c's work weakly. If they don't do that everybody's electricity will go out because the power company is inept.

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Originally Posted by Scooter9 Confirmed: Prozac. Tapering Trintellix for a week and then start Prozac. Riding the med merry-go-round...

Seems most of us have life tickets to that merry-go-round....

Sigh.

Summer classes are coming to an end so naturally I’m stressed lol next summer course starts right after these two end. It will be a course on addiction tx. More interesting than marriage and family. Lol it’s been nothing but dr Gary Chapman in that class and I’m
Sick of him! Lol

I have something I wanna say but I'm too paranoid to say it.

I'm glad your scan was clear. I hope the medicine and diet helps you feel better.

Short update: The therapist's office got back to me and gave me a revised total owed of $235, down from $1200. I'm not going to look a gift horse in the mouth because that's a hell of a discount! Billing has their $15, so I'm going to consider that a monthly payment for the meanwhile. I went ahead and basically prepaid my next appointment. Who knows what the future will bring? But, good news!

I’ve been sick for 12 days now. I remember telling mom and sister as we were leaving Florida on the 11th that I had a sore throat and was coming down with a cold. I didn’t take a COVID test because it acted like a cold until it gradually got worse. After the first seven days, the tests are not as accurate. I had a telehealth visit today with my doctor and he prescribed steroids which I took for the first time tonight. I’ve been really under the weather today. I hope things improve soon. I have so much to do to wrap up brother’s estate and catch up my own affairs. I think I caught a moderate case of COVID and it’s lingering. Fingers crossed on the steroids.

I’ve rested all day. I hope to be on my feet tomorrow. Perfect weather and perfect water temps. Don’t feel well enough to enjoy it. Maybe tomorrow.

I hope everyone has a peaceful evening.

I haven't posted or followed much in quite some time. I think many will not recognize my handle. I read than some folks are in recovery periods, some hitting low spots, and those in stasis...or whatever you call it. I've been down & very up since I was here last. Must have been February I went through a vicious depressive spell. May was my no sleep, spend on the internet & stay awake for days month. Lessons were learned...for now.

I don't hang around as much because my partner of 19-years retired cat the end of last June & I've found it harder to justify long periods in front of the computer screen. That, & I want to stay out of the doghouse. I think of all my friends here on a regular basis, but unless I follow religiously, it's easy to lose context. I guess you could call me a "peeker."

Wherever you are, & whatever space you're occupying, take care!

Mike

That's great news!