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Default Jan 31, 2023 at 02:13 PM
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Well, what do you mean by he'll "get angry" with you?

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Well, what do you mean by he'll "get angry" with you?
He'll just be pissed. He might get even more forceful.

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Well, it sounds like you're setting yourself up to be abused. I don't believe in telling adult people to do or not do something, but I will say that the idea of you being hurt makes me extremely sad.

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I swear to god this was laced with meth

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My case worker is very concerned about me for some reason. Says I'm obviously on an upswing. I'm worried she's going to tell my pdoc I got high (I had a bit of word fvomit) and I'll have to go back to the state hospital. Fckc I can't even type I'm so anxious.. Like I'm on a laptop and my legs are shaking violently. She says I'm setting myself up to be abused just like Beth said. I need a break from hurting myself, let someone else do it for a bit! It might not even go down that road again, the dude seems a lot cooler than he used to be. I need to go skiing again, I just got a bunch of work done on my car. and now I''m broke but I think I can afford a $45 lift ticket and some gas.
Also there's like a million "covers" of Apple Bottom Jeans (it's a meme) and it's fccking hilarious. My favorite is "Louis Armstrong's"

welp, we just hit the record windchill ever on Mt. Washington in scenic, windiest recorded place on Earth, New Hampshire

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I think skiing is a great idea, Boots, although I don't know about that extreme weather landing on you. Using physical energy can be a dynamic way to channel high mental energy, as I'm sure you already know.

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Default Feb 04, 2023 at 06:03 AM
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Yeah, I'm thinking sometime midweek this week when ticket prices are down and the temps go up. We might even get a little bit of the white stuff Tuesday/Wednesday.

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Yeah, I'm thinking sometime midweek this week when ticket prices are down and the temps go up. We might even get a little bit of the white stuff Tuesday/Wednesday.

The prices of lift tickets, wow. One of the ski resorts here (well, in the mountains, not right here ), a lift ticket is $104. For kids it's $84. I used to go to the snow once/year when the kids were young so they could experience it. The beauty is incredible. But after my horrible experience sliding down the mountainside on my bare back, then riding back home in sopping Levi's, I tend to head west, not east

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The prices of lift tickets, wow. One of the ski resorts here (well, in the mountains, not right here ), a lift ticket is $104. For kids it's $84. I used to go to the snow once/year when the kids were young so they could experience it. The beauty is incredible. But after my horrible experience sliding down the mountainside on my bare back, then riding back home in sopping Levi's, I tend to head west, not east
Yeah, a one day ticket at Stowe (fancy place in VT) is $189. The place I usually go to has deals midweek for NH residents for $45 which is still a lot, but it's half the price of a regular ticket!

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Stowe looks like such a cute village (I just looked it up). There's a covered bridge! We must have been in Vermont when I was a little girl, because I remember my parents saying they'd drive there and we'd go through a covered bridge. I remember seeing it as we approached and feeling really excited.

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I've never actually been to Stowe (when I'm up that way I either go to Smuggs or Bolton Valley), but yeah, covered bridges are so New England.

I just went for a walk in -5dF weather, windchill of -24. So well prepared (two pairs of pants and a long sleeve and a hoodie and a hat and gloves) only my neck was cold. Of course my eyelashes froze though :P

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The mania was bad this morning. ACT is checking up on me daily in the afternoons. I had enough sense to take a PRN Haldol and that helped a lot but it's wearing off now. It's true what they say, "There ain't no rest for the wicked [awesome]." The only R's in Boston are in "idea" and "soda." I'm hearing thirteen again. She's just saying "come on Sam. You know what you have to do." There's a lot of things I have to do, but I don't know what she's referring to. Maybe stop the doxepin? One of the people on ACT said I have to be careful about how much melatonin I take so maybe I should only take one tonight and see how that goes. I took four last night and slept five broken hours, even though I wasn't all that hot because I used this blanket I stole from the hospital. I'm sure they don't miss it. I have like five bottles of lotion from the hospital. This guy I'm talking with used lemon essential oils to clean my acoustic with. Didn't know you could do that. Thought you needed wood polish. I forget where I put the hex heads. My new bike sucks. Bulimia made me better at deepthroating.

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....Bulimia made me better at deepthroating.

I'm sorry, but I had to laugh when I read that

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Okay so I'm pissed. My therapist said either she or my pdoc willl give me a call around 1:30 and it's 2:30 now and nothing. I'm supposed to get an emergency appointment tomorrow and I don't know what time it is I'm supposed to take the cats to the vet.

Past 3 and still nothing. Way to not give a flying fk about your patientst.

Now I'm worried they're going to IEA me again

EDIT: Finally got the xcall back. She "lost track of time" and still no word froom doc so she just called to say she'll call back when she hears froj hte doc

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Ooooh, that's aggravating! "Lost track of time"

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Yeah, and now I have an emergency appointment with pdoc tomoorrow but I don't know what time it's at and it's 1hr 20 minutes past the time the agency closes to patients (idk how long they're their they stay afterwards and nake calls).

It's stressing me out and I decided to go for a walk and I just wanna get druuuuuunk.

Had my hand on my pepper spray the whole way and flicked off the safety several times even though I only saw one person who is usually nice t me but it's always the nice guys. That's why I strictly fcck addicts.

Ughhh just got another call saying gthey're still trrying to figure **** out and I'll get a call in the AM

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It's been over an hour since they opened and d still no word on when my appointment TODAY is.1

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