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Monster on the Hill
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#221
I'm a bit paranoid today. I got my Haldol shot today so hopefully that'll kick in over the next few days.
holy shyt, how am I still alive?
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#222
I'm a filthy piece of shyt that deserves to be thrown away like used toilet paper.
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#223
No, Boots, you are not a filthy piece of sh-it. You are an amazingly gifted, intelligent, lovely woman who happens to have a mental illness. I'm sending you love
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But I am. I don't particularly care to explain why here, but trust me, I am.
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Muddy boots, your a caring friend that we have the privilege of knowing. That won't change no matter what happened.
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#226
Hey, @MuddyBoots. Sounds like you're getting down on yourself again. Give yourself a break. I don't spend much time around these parts lately, but I did notice you're making an attempt to stay clean. That's a huge step!
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#227
Thank you. All the pain came a couple months ago. Right now it only starts hurting if I overdo it. One witness, saw the car hit me, I flipped in the air and came down on the ground with my back down on the pavement.
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#229
Concerned. How are you @MuddyBoots ?
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#230
Things are still hard, but I'm surviving. We lost power for a bit from the last storm, but it wasn't bad because it was in the low 40's yesterday. There's still 27 people on NHEC out of power. I had a pdoc appointment yesterday and she's decreasing my Haldol, increasing my doxepin, and she wants me to do some research and decide between Rexulti and Vraylar for a replacement because of the tremors I've been having. I'm leaning towards Vraylar because I know last I was on it, I didn't gain weight.
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#231
I'm glad you've checked in. That your pdoc respects you doing your own research on meds is commendable. Most of the prescribers I've had get defensive when I do my own research.
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#232
I've decided to go with the Vraylar.
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#233
Gorgeous photograph, Boots. It reminds me of a time before there were people.
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#235
I'm sending you love, Boots. I really am.
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#236
Boots, gentle hugs. Do you have anyone you can call for support?
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#237
Sending you purple healing/soothing vibes. Hugs if you want them.
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#239
I would not get together as it sounds more stressful than it's worth.
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