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I thought this topic might fit in the bipolar forum here. I've thought about this topic before. I was wondering if a therapist or pdoc has ever said to you that you're one of their most boundary aware clients? Or have you worked on boundaries in therapy? If so, does it help manage mood swings, general well being, anxiety etc (I don't know if it could help with psychosis, I'm guessing not - I could be wrong, I don't think I've ever really experienced psychosis.) How would you say your boundaries are? Firm, not firm or does it vary a lot? And how intuitive do you think you are about other people?

Hi Fuzzybear. I'm not 100% sure how you are referring to "boundaries", but what came to my mind about myself is what I refer to as having a window-like "glass wall" between myself and most others. People can see me, but very few can figuratively touch me, and vice versa. It is a matter of trust issues and even more so, expectations. I know this wall is unhealthy, but it's tough to break down. When it is, my sensitive underbelly is exposed. Only my old psychiatrist and a couple therapists truly had an idea who I am and that I have the wall. Beyond them, my husband, and yet even he doesn't know everything. Everything? I suppose that's always hard to know.

The wall does allow for misunderstanding and interpretation from others, I think. And yet, perhaps some see in me something true that even I don't know? If so, I keep it hidden from myself. What can seem a protection may sometimes be a negative barrier.

I've been told I have poor boundaries that fluctuate a lot. Sometimes I'm too "rigid" and sometimes I'm too "porous." It's hard to explain but I feel like both at the same time? Like I'm needy but keep others from helping me kinda