How to hang on to reality?

How are you doing MM?

I got a hold of a pdoc not mine but one that could change my meds. I'm now on 30 mg abilify. I'm still unwell but there's nothing I can do until I move. Currently I'm on waiting lists for my new city. We have until January to get a place. I'm getting anxious.

So my mom is getting a Craft fair table. So I got a bunch of digital stamps and I'm going to color them and make blank inside winter cards. I'm worried about the price 2/$5, 5/$10, 10/$15. I don't know how I feel a card for $1.50-2.50 a card. I was thinking 50¢ a card but the supplies are 85¢ and h says I need to account for my time. I'm worried I'm not good enough to sell cards. The most I'll make $65 which goes to more alcohol ink for my markers.

But that's so great, Mm! Your prices are low, though. 2 for $5? How about 2 for $6? And the other prices, too low. I'm really afraid you're underestimating yourself. You need to figure in cost of supplies + your time + enough to make a profit.

How are you doing MM?
(((((HUGS))))
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I'm also thinking of you, MM ((((((((( hugs )))))))))

Things are all ****ed up and I'm traveling between families homes right now. My old city sent the stuff to the new city and it's lost now. Meanwhile we need a place by January. I look calm and collected but I'm a mess inside. I've decided no matter how disabled I truly am I need to start making moves to work at least part time. But it's not like I'm well enough to. Hell I need do something. I can't deal with this. Thank you all for thinking of me. I think about you guys a lot. I'm sorry I'm not on more. Lots of hugs.

Sorry everything is so hard MM.

Have you tried vocational rehab? they help you find work that is manageable for you and can provide support when you are working too.


If you go to school as you mentioned on another thread could you take one class the first semester just to get a feel for it before jumping in.

If you really need money have you tried swagbucks? I have been doing it since the months I had no income while waiting for SSDI approval. You do surveys, search using their search engine, play games, lots of things. I make between $10-$20 per month usually with it but I've made as much as $50/month. You do have be dedicated to it to make money but when you really need money it helps. You earn gifts cards that include PayPal cards, Amazon, I forget what else.

I hope tomorrow brings more hope and less stress.

Physically I can't do Starbucks. Mentally I need something that gives me work and I barely have to talk to anyone and it's remote because I'm still a bit agoraphobic. At least until I'm use to my service dog, which is a whole nother issue. I'm going to take classes through a website then transfer them in to a school if it works out. So I can go as slow as I want. Unusual I get really sick mentally when trying to go to school so this whole thing can backfire quickly. We don't need money we need the system to work. I'm just so frustrated. We moved because my h is my caretaker and I we both need medical and dental. But we need housing too. It's just not feasible long term. It bothers me that things are so much easier with money. So I'm going to set up a pass program for me and both my boys and we're going to get down to business. My therapist and Drs would hate this idea but I need to become self sufficient. My parents are doing their will and I have to do a SN trust. This is going is a 2 to 3 year plan after we get housing again. I have to focus on something because of I don't I'll loose it.

I never actually noticed the similar spellings, but I meant swagucks,not starbucks. You do everything from your own computer, no connecting with anyone. It's also just something you can focus on. When I wasn't doing as well I would set goals for myself and try to meet or beat them daily. It didn't matter if I didn't succeed, it was just something to do and the money came in handy.

What is PASS?

PASS is plan to achieve self sufficiency through SSA. I have to decide what I want to do for a living what I can do with my limitations.

Yesterday was hard I slept most of the day away. I had no soda in the house and Walmart wouldn't deliver any. I don't have my headphones and everything is so loud including my head.i feel like this won't be taken care of and we'll loose housing. I don't think even if we have to we won't. The whole process should be a lot easier.

Setting goals for ourselves and trying to meet or beat them daily would be helpful. Still thinking of you ((((( mm ))))) Thanks for checking in!

I'm getting discouraged what I thought was a cheaper program turned out to be more expensive program. I don't think they'll let me do the program because my physical disability. H says email them but I don't even know what to say. I'd don't have the money to do the program right now. I like the idea of taking the program but I don't know how I would. There are less extensive programs but I don't feel they will prepare me or they're too expensive or won't let me train due to not being of the safety risk. I'm also afraid of having to be on campus for 2 weeks.

I'm so tired. I'm done fighting I'm going to try to relax this weekend and start fresh Monday. Depression sucks. Food struggles in a place where I can't just deal with that right now at least not here. I have to call my old therapist next week but I don't feel like lying, getting my meds are a hassle, IP is not an option. It's not bad here. Just I'm dealing with symptoms want to isolate or at least not play pretend. I need to just wait until they get back to us.

I'm rooting for you, MM. Hope everything works out in the end, hang in there

I didn't even know if I was speaking coherently at the time because my head is everywhere right now. H and I had a long talk about changes that need to be made. He feels responsible for our current lifestyle and there needs to be healthy changes to it. So very actionable things are being put into place like no computer after 4 pm. Getting year long passes to the theater. Giving up the car, no more delivery. Care for our space.

I'm thinking of you ((((( mm ))))) Keep us updated!