Bipolar check-in #69

Call the Midwife is one of my favorite shows, too. But I feel like I've already seen Season 11... @BeyondtheRainbow and @Nammu...hasn't Season 11 already been out?

It has but only on PBS which I don't have. I've seen some spoilers and it sounds like a good season.

I'll be watching on Netflix this month.

I’m pretty sure but not positive season 11 was the last one I watched. I’m thinking the Christmas episode will be in December then season 12 starts

It seems like this past week has had a "No good deed..." theme. I've got another entry. I was in my local grocery store picking up BBQ sauce and ranch when a woman comes up asking for money to buy food. Having the ability to be generous, I asked her specifically "Simple meal. What do you want for dinner?" She asks for lunch meat. I guess she had bread. I told her I would buy her the lunch meat and threw in the few items she had in her cart.

I didn't have cash on me (You can guess where this is going.) and was not going to pay the fees on a grocery store ATM, but she very helpfully and repeatedly made me aware of its existence. I could hear the irritation in her voice when I wouldn't go to it. She hid it with others, but not with me oddly enough. I hope I'm wrong and I'm being needlessly suspicious (I've been in the asking strangers for grocery money position myself.), but I'm not sure I am. We were both committed, me to my good deed and her to her... ? Maybe she was trying to con me. Maybe she didn't get the memo about "Beggars can't be (pushy) choosers." Maybe she was moody for lack of food (Again, I've been there.) All I know is that interaction didn't sit right with me.

Work was equally contentious. Only had four phone sales for a Saturday and immediately had to take back three of them because of other phones being brought back for stupid reasons, including one person who insisted FIVE times that she knew what she was doing when buying a phone with no connection to her carrier. She brought it back angry that it didn't work. $50 loss.

Another was due to a broken phone not activating properly. In other words, old phone had no service and the new phone wasn't active. I couldn't return it as that would risk her phone number being lost. I took over an hour troubleshooting the issue, which effected no change. I finally had to replace the phone and service (That activated in three minutes this time.) which resulted in a $75 loss to my sales, a lost phone number for the customer and served to make me look like I'm incompetent and a liar. I talked up how quick and simple and easy it would be. The last one was a "whoopsie" by a Walmart worker that resulted in the wrong phone being sold and a $150 loss to sales.

REALLY crappy day!

Tomorrow, I meet my mom for Sunday service like we usually do and then we go on a small road trip! She's spending the Labor Day holiday with extended family and wants me to take her. I'm okay with that and I get lunch out of it!

I've got an idea for a trip of my own the two of us can take. The musical Hadestown is doing their big national tour and it's coming to my neck of the woods soon. I figured a couple of nights up there in an Airbnb, tickets for the two of us and generally a fun time! She's the reason I enjoy mythology, history, musicals, etc., which Hadestown covers in spades! Hopefully, it'll work out.

I haven't had much to report these past days. Just waiting. I've kept myself very busy meal planning and tracking what I will and ultimately did eat. This is always the best and necessary way for me to lose weight, and I did. Nine days ago, I weighed 4.4 lbs more than I do today. Right now I have meals planned through Tuesday morning.

Hubby and I have started to exercise a bit more to train. Once we move near s-i-l, we can't be needing a horse to rescue us from the woods. She's even older than Hubby and leaves some young folks in the dust, when she exercises. The last time I walked with her, we walked 12 km (7 1/2 miles) in the woods. Only the desire to survive and get home to pee allowed me to make it. Of course she said she pees in the woods, but that's not my thing. That walk was like a daily thing for her.

Theres this woman I know whos a bit older then me who exagerattes her medical conditions. She has a feeding tube for some reason and is always taking selfies and pictures of herself and her supplies and stuff. Then her best friend has factious disorder and I just learned last night that now she also has a feeding tube for some reason.
Idk but I find their behavior super super disturbing. And the fact that they seem to play off each other makes it even more strange to me.

I am legit struggling not to lose anymore weight and to get enough calories in and its freaking me out at the idea that I'll be sent IP. I lost a bit more weight today and I barely even got out of bed yesterday because I felt off. I don't know whats going on and neither does my mom. Today I feel better and I got my room cleaned and my laundry put away. I organized my big mess of a storage rack I use as a pantry. I took the boxes of pork rinds and Lays chips off the top shelf since there were only a few left in each box. That left almost the entire top shelf for me to even out the rest of the rack. It still looks full, but it looks less cluttered.

Then I ordered some Yankee Candle Halloween melting scent cups for my candle melting thing I got from a thrift store in 2016.

Calorie wise I'm doing ok so far although I may be at a bit of a standstill.

Sunflower, you have been exhausted for years and then came the death of you brother at the top. It is not helpful to eat healty if other things in your life are not healthy. I don't know if you know that, but there is a stong link between our mental health and physical helath and the other way around.

I googled for a link for you about the topic and found this: Connection Between Mental and Physical Health.

When you have more energy, perhaps you can google more about the topic yourself.

I am glad you have access to good doctors that take your case seriously.

Best wishes for your health!

Sorry to hear about all this! Please take care of yourself.

I am sorry on your behalf, Beth. The worst I know is too high temperatures.

Thinking on you!

Hi, I feel down, down, down! I did partake in a religious forum where I tried to help a person. The person was ungrateful and turned the whole thing around blaming me

Now I am angry at myself for being so vulnarable.

I need to protect myself better ...

A continued good day to everybody else!

I truly and deeply appreciate the support I’ve received on this forum. It’s meant so much. Oftentimes, I come here to post because it helps me get my thoughts together and make sense of things in my mind. I can then put it on a back burner and move along with my day. It’s been of great help. I’d like to continue to do that.

Yes, I’ve had a tough few years. We can almost all, if not all, say that. We’ll make it through. I feel most hopeful of brighter, happier days ahead. Yes, some rough waters but overall good.

Please support me, yes, if you feel you can. What stings is to be chided or lectured. I appreciate your consideration in not doing that.

Thank you.

We were supposed to have a labor day bbq with my sister and her family. We had planned it out last Sunday at lunch. My mom got all the food and made the potato salad for everything. My mom texted them this morning and asked if they were coming and my brother in law called and asked what was this about a BBQ and my mom told him and then he started venting to her about how they werent ready for the baby and how my sister hadn't done her chores since Feburary and how he is going to be out of town for the next 2 weekends. But that he'd try to make something happen. My mom was kinda upset and sad that he was venting to her like that and saying those things. Like my sister is due in about 3 weeks and I think shes still considered high risk. I love my brother in law dearly but sometimes he needs to majorly chill out. Anyways my sister and my nephews are on their way over now. After I've taken my meds and settled in for the day. So I'll probably say a quick hello and grab a protein drink and an apple sauce and stay in my room. I am not in the mood for BBQ food.

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow It has but only on PBS which I don't have. I've seen some spoilers and it sounds like a good season. I'll be watching on Netflix this month.

Darn, yes, I've seen it. 11 was an excellent season, though (as they all are). Enjoy

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Originally Posted by GoGo2 Hi, I feel down, down, down! I did partake in a religious forum where I tried to help a person. The person was ungrateful and turned the whole thing around blaming me Now I am angry at myself for being so vulnarable. I need to protect myself better ... A continued good day to everybody else!

I don't know, of course, what happened on the religious forum. But I have a thought. Perhaps you lecture people a bit too much? Advising people about matters they are already well aware of may cause people to feel put down and that their life experience is being negated. I know, in my own life, that I have to be careful to ask rather than tell. When we tell people how to behave, or tell people obvious things they are already aware of it feels condescending. Being condescended to is a terrible feeling.

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed We were supposed to have a labor day bbq with my sister and her family. We had planned it out last Sunday at lunch. My mom got all the food and made the potato salad for everything. My mom texted them this morning and asked if they were coming and my brother in law called and asked what was this about a BBQ and my mom told him and then he started venting to her about how they werent ready for the baby and how my sister hadn't done her chores since Feburary and how he is going to be out of town for the next 2 weekends. But that he'd try to make something happen. My mom was kinda upset and sad that he was venting to her like that and saying those things. Like my sister is due in about 3 weeks and I think shes still considered high risk. I love my brother in law dearly but sometimes he needs to majorly chill out. Anyways my sister and my nephews are on their way over now. After I've taken my meds and settled in for the day. So I'll probably say a quick hello and grab a protein drink and an apple sauce and stay in my room. I am not in the mood for BBQ food.

Applesauce sounds so good.


Your BIL's behavior is kinda odd. Maybe he's anxious about the baby coming soon?

I hope you have a peaceful day and not a crummy, stressful one.

He has bipolar himself and his dad is a bit abusive and his mom is a bit of a nutcase who is very conserative and refuses to get vaccinated and they think she is developing dementia. They don't want either around the kids much. So my bil doesn't have a good relationship with them so at that moment all he had was my mom to get out his feelings.

I've heard a new baby is one of the biggest stressors in life.

My day has been the same as normal but it has nothing to do with them.

Okay, I admit it: I missed my calling, I should have been a meteorologist. Indulge me while I vent about the heat.

108 today.
113 tomorrow.
114 on Wednesday.

Miserable temperatures - and sad, because I know it's due to climate change. Our wonderful governor (and a handsome man, too ), Gavin Newsom, has had legislation passed that will outlaw the sale of gas-run cars by 2035.

I'm going to take a shower, then I have to venture out to the grocery store. I cannot put it off any longer. I'm anxious because I'm afraid of feeling terrible from the heat. And somehow I have to find a way to get the large amount of recycling I have to the bin downstairs. Some of it I will drop over the banister (I call out before I throw the stuff over so I don't hit anyone below).

Well, here goes. Wish me luck.

<------- In my dreams.

Oh Beth sending you lots of ☔️ 🌧 ☔️ 🌧

@*Beth*
We’re in a drought here as well and it’s been a very hot summer. Climate change is definitely at fault here, because last summer we had such crazy weather that I have never experienced before. There were 17 confirmed tornadoes in NJ and three of them passed right near our house. Like we got a warning from the weather station telling us that it was actually headed our way and we best get to safety. During one even my cat was like “nope” and was skulking low to the ground to find somewhere to hide in the basement. Thankfully they didn’t actually hit us but my grandma got stranded in her car in the garage. She got six inches of rain in two or so hours and her sump pump couldn’t keep up. Badass that she is when it stopped raining (10pm-ish) she went straight downstairs to uses two old pool pumps to pump out the water and set up fans to dry everything. She wasn’t gonna let water sit in her basement till the morning!!!

Anyway I agree that the weather is changing. Our governor also passed a similar law, but RS says he’ll drive his vehicles (two diesel trucks and a 1990 jeep Cherokee) until they specifically come and tow them away. Ah well, can’t convince everyone!

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25 @*Beth* We’re in a drought here as well and it’s been a very hot summer. Climate change is definitely at fault here, because last summer we had such crazy weather that I have never experienced before. There were 17 confirmed tornadoes in NJ and three of them passed right near our house. Like we got a warning from the weather station telling us that it was actually headed our way and we best get to safety. During one even my cat was like “nope” and was skulking low to the ground to find somewhere to hide in the basement. Thankfully they didn’t actually hit us but my grandma got stranded in her car in the garage. She got six inches of rain in two or so hours and her sump pump couldn’t keep up. Badass that she is when it stopped raining (10pm-ish) she went straight downstairs to uses two old pool pumps to pump out the water and set up fans to dry everything. She wasn’t gonna let water sit in her basement till the morning!!! Anyway I agree that the weather is changing. Our governor also passed a similar law, but RS says he’ll drive his vehicles (two diesel trucks and a 1990 jeep Cherokee) until they specifically come and tow them away. Ah well, can’t convince everyone!

Haha, good for grandma!

I hear a lot about no-driver cars in addition to electric cars. I HATE climate change so I am trying to be sensible. That said, I love, love to drive and would sorely miss the day I cannot, for whatever reason, drive a good old car that runs on gasoline. I find my most peaceful moments tend to come when I'm driving. Well, what will be, will be.