Bipolar check-in #71

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Originally Posted by Nammu @bluebird haha, to her snuggles with a sweet potato!! Those are very nice looking scratching posts. Very nice. I’ll need to check them out as Sirs post is very, very well used and should be replaced. The tree is very nice. You live in a nice complex. I did get the garbage out early enough! Thank goodness I made it.

If you look on Amazon Nammu, you might find not only the larger cactus, but a smaller version that would be just fine for one cat. Mine just adored scratching on that cactus and it was well-made.

Haven’t looked yet. Sir is quite attached to the big one I’m thinking of replacing. He has a second one but he just uses it to lay on. He definitely prefers the corded ones over the carpeted ones.

Well I'm here. joined a bunch of FB groups and said a bunch of personal ****. There's nothing I can do about it now. I have to buy gifts but I'm worried to spend money.

Depression is ongoing. Eventually it will ease. I’m not really going to stress over it. This is Bipolar so it’s expected to happen.

I went back to bed again today. I think it’s my new normal. Gus will not let me go to bed without him. Maddie has me up every morning between 6-7 am so my going back to bed for an hour or 2 honestly makes sense.

I question our decision to keep Maddie. She’s so much work but part of that could be my depression talking. She’s a cute loveabug but If Steve told me he wanted to rehome her I’d honestly be happy. Anyway

Anyone has fun plans for the weekend ??

Hugs to anyone in need

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Tomorrow the cleaning lady comes, after that I’ll probably get the tree out and start placing my angels around. I’ll be bringing up mum’s ceramic tree too.

going to a christmas gathering.
hope to have fun!
bizi

Well, today I walked down the driveway and got the mail and took it to my mom's house and I loaded the dishwasher. I am still too tired to change my sheets which is annoying because they are sliding off the mattress when I get up. But maybe tomorrow.

I'm getting better but I'm just so very tired. I swear my gallbladder surgery was easier than these biopsies.

The best part of today is I don't have to wear a bra 24/7 anymore. It helped with comfort but gets old after a few days. Now I just have steri-strips to fall off and a bunch of bruising to leave and this will be invisible like the others.

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Originally Posted by bizi going to a christmas gathering. hope to have fun! bizi

I hope you have a wonderful time, bizi

Oh, I'm just so angry over some silly thing some younger person had the nerve to think she knew about my generation. I feel foolish for getting as upset as I have, it just feels like...oh, just grrr. I need to take a few deep breaths and laugh at myself. I guess I've reached "that age" and welcome to it. You know, that age when "kids" act like they know better than I do about what people my age did way back when. Well, I was there, kid. You weren't.

That's my crabby old lady check-in, lol

Yesterday would have actually been pretty quiet were it not for one very odd yet very stress inducing interaction. Important info: I was working yesterday at a different store than the one where I had the smelly feet interaction with the woman who harangued me and threatened to have me kicked out. All that said, I received a call from a manager at that store asking for me by name, asking for my boss's phone number and saying they're "sending someone over." They didn't specify who.

My first thought was that woman actually made good on her threat and this was to make it official. The next thought involved Walmart employees moonlighting as process servers and I'm the lucky guy getting sued. It was a extremely weird turn of events.

After talking with my boss, who talked with the manager in question, I learned that the "someone" (Actually, multiple someones.) that was sent over to me was a customer asking for me specifically. I helped them as they came and everything was kosher. The reason a manager was involved with the phone call and wanted my boss's number was to push for me to be somewhat exclusive to their particular store. So, they want me for their own, the store I just started covering wants me for their own and the store I started my job at wants to keep me. I'm in the middle of a turf war where I'm the "turf!"

Good sales the past two days. Hopefully Saturday continues the trend!

Ugh I see my new pdoc here in a few minutes

I'm kind of anxious today and I'm not sure why. I felt fine yesterday. My sister is trying to set up daycare for my niece and my mom offered to watch her twice a week since this daycare is so expensive. One of the days we would need to watch her would be my therapy day. I was totally calm and stuff I just told my mom my therapist could only see me at this time on this day and I wasn't going to do video sessions. My mom was just like "ok, no problem we'll just bring the baby with us." She understands how crucial therapy is for me right now and also gets my sister and brother in laws situation. So shes trying to balance everything out and make things easy on everyone.

Today is a complete rest day, zone out in front of the TV, day

First appt was so nerve racking! I
Had a panic attack this am. My thoughts are
Racing. I’m irritable but still
In a good mood. Nothing makes sense. I forgot to tell
Him a lot of things. I see him
Again in a month

I'm so just gone. It's hard for me to concentrate. Every second I turn around I'm in a fight again. I'm told I'm contradicting myself. no home yet, we're running out of time. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I have a total of 1 gift for my son. I just don't know. I want to get him more, I want to get H a gift. Just everything and on top of everything I'm kinda loosing touch with reality. and my esa dog isn't listening to me. my heads too loud.

It’s been a nice few days no need to run the heat at all. Electric bills always give me legit panic attacks

Gus seems to be more accepting of Maddie but he still gets his nose out of joint if shes spending “ too much” time ( according to him) wanting to lay on or near me. Both him and Dexter are good about giving her corrections. We don’t interfere because they need to work stuff out in the “dog world”

Hope everyone’s weekend is pleasant




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I’m sorry your struggling

I’m sure Miguel is aware that financially things are rough and honestly he’s grown So gifts aren’t mandatory and certainly not numerous ones.

Focus on a new tradition for your family that will give many memories rather than a gift that often loses it’s specialness over time. Mentally it’s proven we forget gifts but not memories made.

Hang in there

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Today the cleaning lady came. She does the deep cleaning and moving of furniture type vacuuming that my back can’t handle. After she left I dragged the tree out and my angels. I have 9 big angels I thought I lost in the move, but found hidden behind the boxes of clothes. The clothes I donated enmass. I haven’t missed any of them for 5 years. I don’t need to dress up anymore. But I found two boxes of Christmas stuff I thought went missing in the move. So angels everywhere. And found mum’s ceramic Christmas tree. All that’s missing is the smells, pine, cedar and cinnamon.

The weather, eh, could be warmer. In C we’re in negative numbers. Any time it goes below 32F I start calculating C. So today was about -10C. Brrr but the sun was out.

I have developed a rash near but not on the spot where I got my shingles shot this past Monday. The rash showed up. Thursday evening. It itches a bit. It is warm to the touch and slightly swollen. I saw a doctor that works with mine Friday. She said it seemed like cellulitis and put me on keflex, an antibiotic because, she said, these things can get out of hand very quickly and we were going into the weekend. She put me on a schedule for times to take each pill. The latest one is 10 p.m. and I'm used to going to bed around 8:30 or 9. I've attached a pic of the area. The Dr took a pic and put it in my file with her cell phone. The program saves the photo direct to your file. Her photos are way better than my mirror ones.

Took increase dose of risperdal still racing thoughts if sounds over and over

Idk but I keep typing wrong words. I have SONGS over and over