Bipolar Check-in #74

Scooter9 · Mar 30, 2023 at 02:33 PM

Congratulations @Soupe du jour on moving into your own place!

As for workers in your house, I can relate. We had our bathroom and bedroom redone. I didn't write about it here but it took 4 months. Having the workers in and out is a pain but they usually finish around 4 or 5 so you have the place to yourself in the evening...I hope it'll be similar for you.

As for processing your grief, you might end up going through it slowly as you live the rest of your life. So it might not come in a big wave as it often does, but might be more like the tide coming and going, a slow and steady process.

I don't think you should feel guilty for living your life and worry about the grief coming to hit you later. You said your father will live on with you and you living your life is part of that. I think he'd rather see you living your life.

Scooter9 · Mar 30, 2023 at 02:38 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Sad news. I can’t find Sir. I’ve been everywhere. He usually greets me when I get up. Definitely comings running when I clank his food dish. I’ve looked everywhere, under and behind things. Even looked in his litter box as cats are comfortable there. But he’s no place. I think he went off to die. But I can’t imagine where. The only place left is the unfinished section of the basement and why? Not comfortable at all.

Oh no, I hope you find him. You've eliminated all of the regular places so now you'll have to look more deeply. Our indoor cat disappeared for several days too, but we found him in a very odd place in the basement. He could not have been comfortable there but we just had to keep eliminating places he could hide one by one.

I hope things work out.

(My cat has since passed on)

Nammu · Mar 30, 2023 at 02:38 PM

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Originally Posted by Samicat

Oh no! I would be frantic. I hope you find him.

I found him!!! He was up on a shelf in the dark unfinished part of the basement. I think he got lost and confused. He’s blind now and he was with the Christmas boxes. Oooooo poor guy. I immediately gave him some food and he ate it down.

Scooter9 · Mar 30, 2023 at 02:40 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

I found him!!! He was up on a shelf in the dark unfinished part of the basement. I think he got lost and confused. He’s blind now and he was with the Christmas boxes. Oooooo poor guy. I immediately gave him some food and he ate it down.

Fantastic! I'm so glad you found him!

Scooter9 · Mar 30, 2023 at 02:46 PM

I had a really strange night. I slept a total of 8 hours but the way I did it was really strange.

I woke up many times, read on my phone, stared into the darkness, got up and sat at my computer, etc. I think the total elapsed time was 12 hours.

Hopefully tonight will be better.

No gym today, it's a much needed rest day. My legs are sore.

I had a big anxiety attack today. Haven't had one like this in years. There was no trigger, it just started on it's own. My heart was racing, I was sweating, and had wild thoughts. Might be connected to the odd night.

Samicat · 03:05 PM

My friend dies today.

She may already be gone. On the plus side she will be away from cancer and all the struggles of this world. Rest in peace, my friend.

On the minus side I have lost a good friend who was a bit of a mother figure to me. I have lost a fellow writer. I have lost a kind, compassionate friend who was a boon to the world - she was a Christian minister who practised what she preached-- tolerance and acceptance, kindness and forgiveness.

She was a children's author of five books that sold well and were imaginative and fun. She was a fine human being.

And I will miss her.

~Christina · Mar 30, 2023 at 02:47 PM

Congratulations Soupe on getting moved in ! Sorry things aren’t truly finished but I’m thrilled you can finally sleep in your own bed! That will probably make things better over all. Grieve the loss of youre Dad when the waves hit. As Scooter said it’s okay to move on with your life. Our loved ones would never want us to get stuck.

Scooter ! That’s great you have a trainer to help with goals and adjustments to push you but in a attainable levels.

Nammu .. I sure hope you find him soon

Soupe du jour · Mar 30, 2023 at 02:52 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

I found him!!! He was up on a shelf in the dark unfinished part of the basement. I think he got lost and confused. He’s blind now and he was with the Christmas boxes. Oooooo poor guy. I immediately gave him some food and he ate it down.

I'm glad to read this, Nammu. It's too soon for you to have to experience another loss. Sir surely felt relieved when you found him. I hope there are plenty of cuddles, as a result.

Soupe du jour · Mar 30, 2023 at 02:52 PM

@Samicat, sending hugs. I'm sorry you lost your good friend.

~Christina · Mar 30, 2023 at 02:54 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

I found him!!! He was up on a shelf in the dark unfinished part of the basement. I think he got lost and confused. He’s blind now and he was with the Christmas boxes. Oooooo poor guy. I immediately gave him some food and he ate it down.

Great news !!!

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~Christina · Mar 30, 2023 at 02:56 PM

Samicat. I’m so sorry your losing such a wonderful person. Please do be kind to yourself during this rough time

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Nammu · Mar 30, 2023 at 03:09 PM

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Originally Posted by Samicat

My friend dies today.

She may already be gone. On the plus side she will be away from cancer and all the struggles of this world. Rest in peace, my friend.

On the minus side I have lost a good friend who was a bit of a mother figure to me. I have lost a fellow writer. I have lost a kind, compassionate friend who was a boon to the world - she was a Christian minister who practised what she preached-- tolerance and acceptance, kindness and forgiveness.

She was a children's author of five books that sold well and were imaginative and fun. She was a fine human being.

And I will miss her.

I’m sorry for your loss.

Scooter9 · Mar 30, 2023 at 07:24 PM

I'm so sorry for your loss @Samicat. You at least had the friendship of someone you admired and that will be with you forever.

JaneOnceMore · Mar 30, 2023 at 07:29 PM

The excitement over that guy from my ZOOM group has passed nicely. I think i was just aroused by telling the story of my Scrabble journey to an interested party. But he wrote back and while he responded in a satisfying way, he has to move unexpectedly, so he's got bigger things on his mind. It was just a passing fancy. Thankfully!

@Soupe du jour:

Congratulations on being in your own home and your own bed at last! Sorry there are still loose ends to tie up around your house. I hate having workmen in also. I had electricians in last year for most of a day. When i left to take my dog out i warned them not to have any wild parties. They said, No problem, we'll wait until you get back! Rascals!

@Nammu:

So glad you found Sir! I'm glad he ate, must have been hungry. My girl is ten and i am not looking forward to her old age. She's a dog tho and not many places she can hide in our kingdom of 450 square feet!

BeyondtheRainbow · Mar 30, 2023 at 07:34 PM

I don't know why and I"m not going to question it but today I felt better. Not 100% but better than I have in months. I think there is hope this depression is actually going to end. And next year we're going to treat pro-actively at the time I got depressed this year and last so hopefully this is clear for a long time. I've never had Emsam take so long to kick in but it has and now I just have to wait for it to reach full effectiveness.

Mountaindewed · Mar 30, 2023 at 09:23 PM

My orange guy Crookshanks I think is slowing down. I rescued him when he was at least 5 and that was over 5 years ago. So he is pushing 11. He is grumpy but I love him and I'd be devasted if I lost him. I'm for sure getting a dog after May. My brother keeps talking about a beagle. I want something small but its not like I want to replace Crookshanks with a dog. I want both my cats and a dog.

Anyways I fell asleep for a few hours this afternoon while watching CNN and when I woke up I saw the news and I was quite happy. My therapist told me to lay low and not go out the next day and keep groceries at home. Idk. I think shes being paranoid but I'm not quite sure.

HALLIEBETH87 · Mar 30, 2023 at 10:35 PM

I feel uneasy, keep feeling bugs and I’m
Nervous but excited about my future

Rosi700 · Mar 30, 2023 at 10:38 PM

@Soupe du jour Congratulation with the new house! If it becomes too burdensome with workers going in and out, maybe you can take a walk or only find a place outside to be alone with your thoughts?

Oh yes, the grief will come and that is OK. Let it come when it comes. It is the persons who fail to let grief in that have problems later. I missed my father for a long period after he was gone.

Send my best wishes for you and your husband!

Rosi700 · Mar 30, 2023 at 10:42 PM

@Nammu , Sorry to hear about Sir! I hope you will find him soon!

~Christina · Mar 31, 2023 at 02:03 AM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I don't know why and I"m not going to question it but today I felt better. Not 100% but better than I have in months. I think there is hope this depression is actually going to end. And next year we're going to treat pro-actively at the time I got depressed this year and last so hopefully this is clear for a long time. I've never had Emsam take so long to kick in but it has and now I just have to wait for it to reach full effectiveness.

Hooray !!! One good can roll right into others

Continued prayers for you

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Soupe du jour Elder Member Since Jun 2015 Location: Czechia Posts: 5,154 8 13.4k hugs given	Mar 30, 2023 at 02:52 PM #329 @Samicat, sending hugs. I'm sorry you lost your good friend. __________________ Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 600 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia.

~Christina Legendary Wise Elder Community Liaison Member Since Jul 2011 Location: Tennessee Posts: 22,450 (SuperPoster!) 12 12.7k hugs given	Mar 30, 2023 at 02:56 PM #331 Samicat. I’m so sorry your losing such a wonderful person. Please do be kind to yourself during this rough time Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~

HALLIEBETH87 Legendary Member Since Oct 2004 Location: usa Posts: 11,199 19 2,742 hugs given	Mar 30, 2023 at 10:35 PM #337 I feel uneasy, keep feeling bugs and I’m Nervous but excited about my future __________________ Bipolar 1 w/psychotic features or schizoaffective bipolar type PTSD generalized anxiety OCD celexa, prazosin, Lybalvi and prn zyprexa and klonopin

Rosi700 Grand Member Member Since Nov 2022 Location: Overseas Posts: 757 1 2,850 hugs given	Mar 30, 2023 at 10:42 PM #339 @Nammu , Sorry to hear about Sir! I hope you will find him soon! __________________ There is always hope ...