Bipolar Check-In #77

Crazy Hitch

Just got an urgent appointment with my t via FaceTime tonight at 6:30

HALLIEBETH87

Broke down crying last night. I just wanna be done with school. Managed to turn in my huge paper. Not feeling good about it at all. Just praying I pass with the c I already have! Been seeing some stuff. Wish I saw my t sooner than next Wednesday.

One week left til semester ends. I’m sick of it.

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Bipolar 1 w/psychotic features or schizoaffective bipolar type
PTSD
generalized anxiety
OCD

celexa, prazosin, Lybalvi and prn zyprexa and klonopin

HALLIEBETH87

I have everyone fiooled except me. I know how I’m really doing.

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Bipolar 1 w/psychotic features or schizoaffective bipolar type
PTSD
generalized anxiety
OCD

celexa, prazosin, Lybalvi and prn zyprexa and klonopin

MuddyBoots

Keep in touch with us so we know how you're doing ok Hallie? You shouldn't have to go through this alone.

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Things are changing now, and I can't tell
where I'll be from here on out.

Nammu

Ugh 😩 couldn’t sleep at all, gave up just now. Too hot. It’s in the 20’sF outside and 71 inside. I opened the windows but it’s damp and humid. I’ve been invited to go to Rochester shopping. I’m done with my shopping but it’s fun to go shopping with fun people. I just don’t know how much fun I can have on no sleep. My mind is energized when I don’t sleep but my body can no longer handle going without sleep. So I don’t know.

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Nammu
…Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …...
Desiderata Max Ehrmann

HALLIEBETH87

Feeling frustrated and wanna be alone

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Bipolar 1 w/psychotic features or schizoaffective bipolar type
PTSD
generalized anxiety
OCD

celexa, prazosin, Lybalvi and prn zyprexa and klonopin

HALLIEBETH87

I’m
So
Ready to just go
Home. First I
Gotta facilitate a group!

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Bipolar 1 w/psychotic features or schizoaffective bipolar type
PTSD
generalized anxiety
OCD

celexa, prazosin, Lybalvi and prn zyprexa and klonopin

Mountaindewed

The appointment with the nurse from my insurance company went well. I hadn't taken a shower in 2 days or brushed my teeth, but I didn't care because I felt like crap. So I went in the living room with no hat or shoes on not caring what I looked like. We went through some basic health questions then she looked at my meds and commented how rare it is to be on prescribed valium these days. She asked if I took anything else. I said oh "yeah theres the injections I take." Which I keep in a cupboard. She got all confused and said "why do you take T are your levels low?" And I said "um, no. I'm transgender." And she just said "oh ok." Without missing a beat and we went on. It was a fairly easy $100 Walmart gift card.

Today for once I feel good. I didn't take my metformin and the nurse said my stomach issues could be caused by that. She described it as a "weed wracker on your stomach." Idk. I just know today was a good day.

I have PT in the morning and I think shes going to be pretty tough on me. I just can't do the stomach breathing. My chest is numb from my surgery 3 years ago so its pretty much impossible for me to "feel" how I'm breathing. Shes nice, but you know, shes a regular physical therapist and they are hard are on their patients.

I am down 5 pounds just from eating less. I should lose about 48 more pounds to get to a normal BMI. My mom thinks its a lot and said to me "you don't want to look like Elliot whatshisname."

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Facts don't have feelings

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Blue_Bird

I took today off work, because I have a sore throat and cough, I didn't want to take today off because I took a day off last week but it is painful to swallow and I didn't think I'd be able to stand at a register for hours talking to customers. So I'm worried/hoping I don't get in trouble for missing too many days. Also, my cat Maybelle passed away late this afternoon. I'm devastated but glad that I was with her until her last breath. I already miss her so much and it's only been a couple hours. She was old, almost 15 years old. I hope she knows how much I love her. My sister picked her up to bring her to be cremated. Idk how today could possibly get any worse than it already has been.

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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi

BeyondtheRainbow

I'm so sorry Blue Bird. Losing a pet is so hard. I'm glad she had you to love her.

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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD.
Clozapine 350 mg, Emsam 9 mg, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1500 mg & 100-400 mg PRN, 1.5 mg clonazepam

MuddyBoots

I'm so sorry to hear about Maybelle. I know she knows how much you love her just based off of how much you show her off here! Take it easy, my friend
Hope you feel better

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Things are changing now, and I can't tell
where I'll be from here on out.