Bipolar Check-in #79

Mountaindewed · Mar 24, 2024 at 01:49 PM

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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

You really have to be careful @Mountaindewed. You remind me a lot of myself. I overmedicate too. I get desperate and don't know what to do and can't handle the way I'm feeling and OD. I used to do this a lot in the past. Anyway, so I can sympathize with the way you're feeling. I just want you to be careful. You don't want to end up IP. I would say call your pdoc, but he's worthless unfortunately 😔. It's probably a good thing you didn't have any unisom.

Can you talk to your therapist?

(((Hugs)))

I lost my normal bottle of melatonin. It had rolled under my bed and I couldn't find it and so I took all these useless ones earlier in the day. I found my regular stuff at 10PM and then once I took one I was asleep in 15 minutes. I'm on track with everything today.

I think the antibiotic is causing some anxiety and in general weird mental health stuff. I think its why I went off it before I finished it for my sinus infection. I have less then 4 days left so I'm trying just to push through things. This was more serious then the sinus infection and theres not much I can do right now at this moment anyways about it.

Mountaindewed · Mar 24, 2024 at 03:11 PM

If you google amoxcillian and mental health basically everything I've been dealing with these last 2 days is there. Nervousness, agitation, anxiety. There was some definte nervousness going on yesterday. Nervous is not a word I typically use to describe myself. So yeah, somethings off. I don't typically get too agitated either. My brother went to get ice cream out of the garage last night and he was just like standing there and I yelled at him. Because he wasn't moving or saying anything. It was creepy and I was already on edge.

Mountaindewed · Mar 24, 2024 at 04:15 PM

I had such bad constipation for years I ended up going to PT for it. But she cured it and that was back in January and I haven't had an issue since and I take zofran almost daily which is supposed to cause super bad constipation.

Scooter9 · Mar 24, 2024 at 06:16 PM

I took a photo of the Sun today using a small telescope (see attached photo).

The dots near the center are all active regions of magnetic activity called AR 3615 (AR means Active Region).

There are some other ARs on the face of the Sun in this image, you can see them if you zoom in.

There's a lunar eclipse tonight at 3:12am, eastern time. Although it's a full moon, it'll appear to be a half Moon because the Earth's shadow will be on it then. If you're up then, maybe step outside for a minute - it'll be low in the southern sky on the east coast. I'll try to get up and take some pics.

It's day 5 of taking Vraylar - no changes yet. No tiredness or appetite changes so far. Still feeling low but that's not new. Bipolar Check-in #79

Mountaindewed · 07:37 PM

My face looks discolored right now. Kinda idk. Yellowish and darkish? I'm a white dude but I look a bit middle eastern at times. But my face color looks off tonight. Is that bad?

My anxiety sucks right now.... or else its my stomach. I hope I don't have Hep C. Kinda worried I haven't been 100% careful with stuff.

Scooter9 · Mar 24, 2024 at 08:00 PM

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My face looks discolored right now. Kinda idk. Yellowish and darkish? I'm a white dude but I look a bit middle eastern at times. But my face color looks off tonight. Is that bad?

My anxiety sucks right now.... or else its my stomach. I hope I don't have Hep C. Kinda worried I haven't been 100% careful with stuff.

Check the white part of your eyes, check if there's some yellow there. You'll be able to see it if it's there. The doctors and nurses at urgent care check your eyes too for yellowing.

Moose72 · Mar 24, 2024 at 09:06 PM

I did nothing productive today. Gotta do my laundry and grocery shopping tomorrow. Still dealing with the tardive dyskinesia. My Pdoc is going to get an earful on Wednesday!

bizi · Mar 24, 2024 at 09:48 PM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

If you google amoxcillian and mental health basically everything I've been dealing with these last 2 days is there. Nervousness, agitation, anxiety. There was some definte nervousness going on yesterday. Nervous is not a word I typically use to describe myself. So yeah, somethings off. I don't typically get too agitated either. My brother went to get ice cream out of the garage last night and he was just like standing there and I yelled at him. Because he wasn't moving or saying anything. It was creepy and I was already on edge.

He may be suffering with petite seizures. where they just stop what they are doing and stare. For a minute or so. It is a form of epilepsy.
Yelling at him is not helpful. He may not know it is happening.
bizi

raspberrytorte · Mar 24, 2024 at 09:51 PM

Did shyt again. Laid in n bed all day, except for when I had to get up to feed the cats. I feel like I'm sinking lower and lower. Googled a person I shouldn't have. Feel worse about myself and my pathetic writing career. Ended up bawling. I know. BOOHOO. Spent the day begging people to review my book. Got a pity review from some pervert who left an inappropriate comment on my Facebook page. Feel really pathetic. Want to crawl into a hole and die. I'm just some crazy on disability with a pathetic writing career. I'm a huge FAILURE.
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Mountaindewed · Mar 25, 2024 at 01:33 AM

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Originally Posted by bizi

He may be suffering with petite seizures. where they just stop what they are doing and stare. For a minute or so. It is a form of epilepsy.
Yelling at him is not helpful. He may not know it is happening.
bizi

He did have bad epilepsy as a kid. He got on the ketogenic diet. I'll mention it to my mom but she probably won't want to hear it. Anytime I try to make a suggestion about him she shuts me down.

Scooter9 · Mar 25, 2024 at 04:09 AM

Well, I got up at 3 am to see the lunar eclipse. The Earth's shadow was barely visible - see the attached image. The shadow is near the bottom right.

At least it was a pleasant morning. Bipolar Check-in #79

BeyondtheRainbow · Mar 25, 2024 at 05:58 AM

Thanks for sharing Scooter. I have too much light pollution to see anything like this. Your photography skills are amazing.

raspberrytorte · Mar 25, 2024 at 06:48 AM

Why is it so hard for me to get my *** in the shower?! Must get *** in shower! Leaving for mini vacation today. Texted my therapist. She said it's good I have an appointment with Dr K coming up and we'll just get me through this next week. I'm not suicidal or anything. Just lacking in energy and depressed, so that's good at least.

Scooter9 · Mar 25, 2024 at 11:35 AM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Thanks for sharing Scooter. I have too much light pollution to see anything like this. Your photography skills are amazing.

Thanks, @BeyondtheRainbow!

Since I was up, I thought I'd stay up to see the moon directly opposite the rising sun. No photos, but it looked really nice - a nice orange hue.

Mountaindewed · 05:07 PM

I'm just gonna give up on my antibiotic. I've taken almost 6 full doses and I'm an anxious agitated nervous depressed mess from them. I've been symptom free from strep since like day 1.5 of the antibiotics but I really can't be feeling like this any longer. My mom says its ok based on how long I've been symptom free and how badly I'm reacting to the antibiotic.

Yeah I know you don't just stop antibiotics, Mary. But sometimes things happen.

I think day 6.5 was my breaking point with my sinus infection too when I had to stop them.

I set up an emergency appointment with my therapist for tommorow afternoon. I told her everything I was feeling including going off the antibiotic. She understood and didn't try to talk me into staying on it. I think she knew it was messing with things a lot and was the cause of things

I just threw up a bit cause I'm totally healthy. But I feel better. I also found a lot of blood on the toilet paper. Sorry for the tmi. I have a gastro appointment in May.

Moose72 · Mar 25, 2024 at 04:56 PM

I’m thrilled!!!! Here’s to feeling better soon! See my post on the forum.

Scooter9 · Mar 25, 2024 at 05:01 PM

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I’m thrilled!!!! Here’s to feeling better soon! See my post on the forum.

Glad you got your meds, @Moose72!

Moose72 · Mar 25, 2024 at 05:07 PM

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Originally Posted by Scooter9

Glad you got your meds, @Moose72!

Thank you, @Scooter9 !

raspberrytorte · Mar 25, 2024 at 09:38 PM

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I'm just gonna give up on my antibiotic. I've taken almost 6 full doses and I'm an anxious agitated nervous depressed mess from them. I've been symptom free from strep since like day 1.5 of the antibiotics but I really can't be feeling like this any longer. My mom says its ok based on how long I've been symptom free and how badly I'm reacting to the antibiotic.

Yeah I know you don't just stop antibiotics, Mary. But sometimes things happen.

I think day 6.5 was my breaking point with my sinus infection too when I had to stop them.

I set up an emergency appointment with my therapist for tommorow afternoon. I told her everything I was feeling including going off the antibiotic. She understood and didn't try to talk me into staying on it. I think she knew it was messing with things a lot and was the cause of things

I just threw up a bit cause I'm totally healthy. But I feel better. I also found a lot of blood on the toilet paper. Sorry for the tmi. I have a gastro appointment in May.

You really should let your doctors know you react badly to amoxicillin so they can put you on a different antibiotic. Like I said, I'm allergic to penicillin so I can't go on amoxicillin. They always put me on a different kind of antibiotic and I'm fine, like last month when I had atypical pneumonia.

Have them put it in your chart. Tell them you're allergic to it.

Moose72 · Mar 25, 2024 at 11:02 PM

I think I have a UTI. I’m having sharp pain in my bladder and urethra when I pee. No fever. I’m going to call the doctor in the morning.

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BeyondtheRainbow Wise Elder Member Since Apr 2015 Location: US Posts: 9,243 (SuperPoster!) 9 9,400 hugs given	Mar 25, 2024 at 05:58 AM #432 Thanks for sharing Scooter. I have too much light pollution to see anything like this. Your photography skills are amazing. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel
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