Bipolar Check-in #79

MuddyBoots · May 18, 2024 at 10:12 AM

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Originally Posted by Scooter9

I went to the gym today despite my swollen feet, 4 hours sleep, and Vraylar withdrawal symptoms.

I worked out at medium intensity, just arms and legs. I didn't feel better afterwards, but I went and tried anyway.

Nice job going to the gym! Vraylar withdrawals aren’t fun especially with the long half life making it longer than other meds. Hope you slept better last night with working out and everything.

Blueberrybook · May 17, 2024 at 06:47 PM

Sorry I haven't posted much lately. I've been feeling kind of "meh" if not downright depressed lately. I have idiopathic peripheral neuropathy, and it has been really bad lately. Neurologist prescribed me gabapentin & oxycarbazepine, but it doesn't help at all.

Lost power last night because of bad storms in the area. I didn't sleep well at all without the fan and air conditioning on; it was hot and stuffy. We were out of power over 15 hours, and after that, I had to end up junking stuff in the refrigerator - raw meat, milk, cheese, butter, etc. Probably lost over $100 in food.

Grr...listening to my daughter's online National Honor Society induction, but they start the livestream out with a PTA meeting...WTH?! Really feel like crawling into bed but need to wait for my daughter to get inducted. At least our last name is near the front of the alaphabet, so once the darn PTA meeting is over, hopefully, DD will be inducted near the start of the ceremony, and I can try to sleep.

MuddyBoots · May 18, 2024 at 10:16 AM

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Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Sorry I haven't posted much lately. I've been feeling kind of "meh" if not downright depressed lately. I have idiopathic peripheral neuropathy, and it has been really bad lately. Neurologist prescribed me gabapentin & oxycarbazepine, but it doesn't help at all.

Lost power last night because of bad storms in the area. I didn't sleep well at all without the fan and air conditioning on; it was hot and stuffy. We were out of power over 15 hours, and after that, I had to end up junking stuff in the refrigerator - raw meat, milk, cheese, butter, etc. Probably lost over $100 in food.

Grr...listening to my daughter's online National Honor Society induction, but they start the livestream out with a PTA meeting...WTH?! Really feel like crawling into bed but need to wait for my daughter to get inducted. At least our last name is near the front of the alaphabet, so once the darn PTA meeting is over, hopefully, DD will be inducted near the start of the ceremony, and I can try to sleep.

Hope you feel better! Losing power sucks, I’d say even more so in hotter months. At least if it’s cold you can put food outside and keep warm with a fire or bundling up or even exercising if it’s not THAT cold. Hope you got some good rest too.

June08 · May 17, 2024 at 08:21 PM

I got the letter from CVS explaining why my insurance denied the med my pcp prescribed. I didn't even think of this until my pcp had told me the med had to be pre-approved. It has to be pre-approved because my insurance plan (which comes from my job at a Christian school) only covers meds that are considered birth control for very specific conditions. My pcp coded it as needed for PMS, which makes sense since I'm sure there isn't a code she could send in saying the med would be used to manage bipolar symptoms. But, PMS symptoms is not one of the accepted reasons by my insurance plan.

This bites. How is it that insurance companies are allowed to have so much control over someone's life solely based on codes doctors send in!?

I know risperidone can mess with hormones. Maybe, I'll get lucky and my overly sensitive to medications body will allow risperidone to mess with my hormones in a way that will end up working in my favor...

raspberrytorte · May 17, 2024 at 08:53 PM

UGH!!! It's like the world WANTS me to stay on seroquel or something. My pharmacy messed up my 50mg tablets and only gave me 30 for the month when I was supposed to get 60 so I ran out early, halfway through filling out my meds for the week. I finished without the 50s, but couldn't remember when exactly I'd ran out in the week and my Lamictal tablets look very similar to my 50mg seroquel tablets, so I accidentally took 100mg of seroquel this afternoon instead of just 50mg. FUKK! HONESTLY! I'm getting frustrated 😠. I have to pay closer attention but half the time I'm not wearing my glasses and I can't see shyt without them.

At least I didn't fudge up last night and take my 200mg tablet!

Anyway, so needless to say I've been STARVING ever since noon. I just keep on getting fatter and fatter and FATTER. Like, getting to the point where it feels like there's no return. I feel so hopeless. 😪

unaluna · May 17, 2024 at 10:00 PM

@Blueberrybook i just heard about the storm damage in Houston. So much damage omg. Losing groceries geez we hardly have budget to buy them once, let alone twice.

Mountaindewed · 12:36 PM

I don't feel good at all today. Yesterday I felt fine. I slept ok. I woke up at 2:30 and I was throwing up my Dr. Pepper and plain pad thai forbidden noodles. I threw up a bunch more until I fell back asleep from 4 something to almost 7.

I've had zofran, pepcid, pepto bismol, advil. I just feel sick today. I just now took my pantropaloze. I didn't eat anything out of the ordinary. Idk whats up today.

I found a thing of chicken broth in the fridge so I made myself a cup in a coffee mug. I guess I'll just do what I need to in order not to puke anymore.

I really dont feel good. I just threw up some heartburn and I have cold sweats and I'm just exhausted.

Now I'm feeling a bit better after eating lunch. I need to eat an hour after my second pantropalzole. I'm under my bamboo blanket which makes a huge difference in my cold sweats. And I took more pepto bismol.

Hoping the worst of it is over for the day.

MuddyBoots · May 18, 2024 at 10:34 AM

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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

UGH!!! It's like the world WANTS me to stay on seroquel or something. My pharmacy messed up my 50mg tablets and only gave me 30 for the month when I was supposed to get 60 so I ran out early, halfway through filling out my meds for the week. I finished without the 50s, but couldn't remember when exactly I'd ran out in the week and my Lamictal tablets look very similar to my 50mg seroquel tablets, so I accidentally took 100mg of seroquel this afternoon instead of just 50mg. FUKK! HONESTLY! I'm getting frustrated 😠. I have to pay closer attention but half the time I'm not wearing my glasses and I can't see shyt without them.

At least I didn't fudge up last night and take my 200mg tablet!

Anyway, so needless to say I've been STARVING ever since noon. I just keep on getting fatter and fatter and FATTER. Like, getting to the point where it feels like there's no return. I feel so hopeless. 😪

These meds, man, I swear if they come out with something without weight gain or EPS I’d go for that shyt in a heartbeat. If my insurance didn’t cover it I’d become a sex worker AND a drug dealer 😝

MuddyBoots · May 18, 2024 at 10:25 AM

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Originally Posted by June08

I got the letter from CVS explaining why my insurance denied the med my pcp prescribed. I didn't even think of this until my pcp had told me the med had to be pre-approved. It has to be pre-approved because my insurance plan (which comes from my job at a Christian school) only covers meds that are considered birth control for very specific conditions. My pcp coded it as needed for PMS, which makes sense since I'm sure there isn't a code she could send in saying the med would be used to manage bipolar symptoms. But, PMS symptoms is not one of the accepted reasons by my insurance plan.

This bites. How is it that insurance companies are allowed to have so much control over someone's life solely based on codes doctors send in!?

I know risperidone can mess with hormones. Maybe, I'll get lucky and my overly sensitive to medications body will allow risperidone to mess with my hormones in a way that will end up working in my favor...

Man, is there anything your insurance would cover BC for? I have PMDD and I think without mine I’d be institutionalized (and/or pregnant at that).

June08 · May 19, 2024 at 04:42 PM

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Originally Posted by MuddyBoots

Man, is there anything your insurance would cover BC for? I have PMDD and I think without mine I’d be institutionalized (and/or pregnant at that).

@MuddyBoots according to the letter CVS sent me, my insurance only covers BC for hypermenorrhea, dysfunctional or abnormal bleeding, amenorrhea, PCOS, hyperandrogenism, hirsutism, and dysmenorrhea (if other treatment methods have not worked for this last one).

BeyondtheRainbow · May 19, 2024 at 04:46 PM

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Originally Posted by June08

@MuddyBoots according to the letter CVS sent me, my insurance only covers BC for hypermenorrhea, dysfunctional or abnormal bleeding, amenorrhea, PCOS, hyperandrogenism, hirsutism, and dysmenorrhea (if other treatment methods have not worked for this last one).

Does Goodrx have a coupon for your BC pills? I don't know the name of any pills so I can't look up whether they offer discounts on BC but when my insurance didn't cover something goodrx did help a lot. Or the OTC pill? Again, I don't know the cost.

June08 · May 19, 2024 at 10:15 PM

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Does Goodrx have a coupon for your BC pills? I don't know the name of any pills so I can't look up whether they offer discounts on BC but when my insurance didn't cover something goodrx did help a lot. Or the OTC pill? Again, I don't know the cost.

That's a good idea to look into! Do you know if they have consistent prices? Or, if prices fluctuate often?

MuddyBoots · May 18, 2024 at 10:42 AM

Last I remember I took an elbow to the face, woke up with not even a clue what state I’m in, and now I feel great lmao. I guess an elbow to the face and some sore muscles are as good a treatment for depression as meds and therapy (don’t recommend and don’t remember what I did and I have a couple ideas…)

Blue_Bird · May 18, 2024 at 01:32 PM

I’m actually sleeping since my Thorazine and abilify were increased and my Zoloft decrease for the mania. I’m really tired during the day though I’m sure that will hopefully wear off as I get used to the adjustments. I slept 8 hours last night according my Fitbit. I feel on the verge of falling asleep and it’s 2:30pm now, I’ve been up since 10am. I’m trying to push myself to exercise but I don’t have the energy right now.

My sister is coming over tomorrow. Should be nice. She’s bringing takeout.

I’m probably playing yugioh and watching shows with my boyfriend today as he has a three day weekend off work so we’re spending time together.

I might try to draw something. I need to practice violin to prepare for my next lesson but I keep procrastinating lately.

Blue_Bird · May 18, 2024 at 01:36 PM

I haven’t had any THC since Monday. I have it here I just am trying to avoid it for a week or two so I can adjust to these med changes before trying it out again. But in moderation this time. Not an everyday thing like I was doing for two weeks straight. It will help not being manic, I have a lot more self control when I’m not manic. It’s gonna be a weekend thing and like as a way to relax at the end of a weekend day. Not all day everyday cause that made things worse.

MuddyBoots · May 19, 2024 at 09:58 AM

Possible trigger:

Me: After at least 6 attempts, some really serious, I'm beginning to think I'm immortal.
CM: So...why don't you stop trying?
Me: *takes off to other states with people I hardly know, walk through sketchy parts of cities and in unfamiliar woods at night, sleeps around like it's my job, picks fights with people I know will beat the fk out of me if they want, binges/purges 1-4x a day every day, and resumes cutting just because it feels good. Because obviously none of it can kill me.*

I don't know. Seems like a win-win.

Mountaindewed · May 19, 2024 at 10:28 AM

I slept through the night and without throwing up for once. I did throw up a bit around 7, but not much. I wonder if the probiotic is starting to help.

Today I feel ok. A little bit anxious. Or maybe its just stomach stuff. I did drink a few sodas. But I think my doctor increasing my lamictal and Prestiq will be a good thing. I don't see how he can say no with everything going on. He isn't that big of a douche bag, and I'm not asking for much.

I'm not doing much today. I ordered a bunch of groceries but thats it.

raspberrytorte · May 19, 2024 at 12:05 PM

I've started meticulously counting calories again. Goal: no more than 1200 calories per day, and I've started my exercise regime again, except I have to be careful with how many sit-ups I do so I don't tear my hernia mesh. I'm whipping this fat, flabby body back into shape! I am MOTIVATED. I CAN do this. It feels good to exercise again, even if I am badly out of shape. I stopped exercising after my hernia repair surgery in July. It hasn't even been a year yet! It's amazing how fast your body can go downhill.

It's sad, but I'm getting old. It's time to start taking care of myself.

I think the sertraline is starting to make me feel better already. I'm actually starting to feel motivated to do things. I actually have energy! It's great! I'm even novel planning again. Thank you sertraline. I ❤️ you.

LadyShadow · May 19, 2024 at 10:23 AM

Was really worried the past few days because I got little to no sleep, and I am not taking my morning meds. Very worried about a manic episode, but I think if I keep my thoughts straight and my mind clear from racing thoughts, I should be okay. Last night, I slept really well with my CPAP and feel really refreshed and balanced this morning.

Missed church, so was a little upset about that, but I know there is always next week. Really excited for my new relationship and being able to move on from my ex. I had been battling with the pain for so long, that it now feels good to feel feelings again. Thinking positive and strong for the upcoming week ahead.

raspberrytorte · May 19, 2024 at 08:01 PM

So they don't actually cover birth control pills for birth control? Okay.

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unaluna Elder Harridan x-hankster Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Milan/Michigan Posts: 40,127 (SuperPoster!) 13 67k hugs given	May 17, 2024 at 10:00 PM #6 @Blueberrybook i just heard about the storm damage in Houston. So much damage omg. Losing groceries geez we hardly have budget to buy them once, let alone twice.

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