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#841
I wish work was finished but nope I still got 2.5 hours left to go ... nearly the end of lunch time here and then I have a staff meeting after work. I really don't feel like it. I went and bought a cookie from the canteen at lunch time for no reason. Boredom plus I'll be back a bit later from work today so I'll be eating dinner later because of the meeting.
Classes were okay today but I didn't see the horrible class lol. Tomorrow I don't see them because they've scheduled cross-country during this time. I will count my blessings I've found a different website that I've been chatting on. I actually joined it in 2015, forgot all about it, and was reminded of it by a member here about a week or so ago. I like that there are always members in chat there, unlike here when you log on and sometimes there isn't a single member in chat. I use it mainly when I've got some down time, like with my first cup of coffee in the morning before I get dressed - I've been popping in to say hi to everyone. |
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#842
I called and got a pdoc appointment set up for May 23rd. I was so worried he would be booked and I was going to be stuck until my appointment in July. I feel such a relief. Last night wasn't good. I woke up at 8:22 after falling asleep at 6:20 and I was throwing up off and on until about 11 but then I still didn't get back to sleep until 3 something. Then I got up at 5:28.
My niece was sick so she didn't come over. I got Starbucks and threw up and I just felt totally crappy until I fell asleep for half an hour at 7:30 and then I woke up and took 2 Tylenol, a Zofran, and a valium, and got my pdoc appointment set up and I just had therapy and I feel a lot better now. I'm still not sure whats physical and whats not, but I do think I'd be better off on more lamictal and prestiq. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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Location: Ontario; long-time member, just under other names
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#843
I feel so ashamed of things i did while hypomanic. Even trying to play Tetris today, i was constantly apologizing to people in my head for being inappropriate when i was hypomanic. It makes me not want to go out anymore. At least this way i don't accumulate any more bad memories to be ashamed about.
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#844
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#845
Laying in bed in the dark under the blankets listening to music. Luckily my family didn't pressure me too much to play with them tonight. My daughter just asked me why I was so depressed and I didn't really have an answer. I'm happy I see my psychiatrist on the 15th.
I have stuff I need to do, but I'm so tired. I just don't have the energy. I'm pretty worthless right now. I can't concentrate. __________________ The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. |
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#846
I had a good conversation with my counselor yesterday. She is going to talk with one of her coworkers who's specialty is Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT). I don't know much about it, but the little research I did makes it seem like it would be really helpful. Especially the acceptance part.
My coordination and brain fog have been pretty bad today. I have a feeling my mystery illness is getting worse because I seem to be getting sick-a lot of students have been sick recently so this makes sense. We'll see how I feel tomorrow-I just want to be well enough to go to work and get to my chiropractor appointment. A student also invited me to his choir concert this weekend so I really want to be healthy enough to go to that. He's part of a very impressive program. __________________ Lamotrigine: 300 mg Bupropion: 150 mg Risperidone: 1 mg |
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#847
@June08 Have you been checked for fibromyalgia? When you say brain fog that's so often a symptom that really bothers people with it.
I really liked ACT. I found it to be gentle when I really needed a gentle approach. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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#848
@BeyondtheRainbow doctors haven't mentioned that one yet-my guess this is because I don't have any pain. Definitely something to keep in mind though.
Thanks for telling me ACT is a gentle approach-if I end up giving it a try, this info will help me be a little more relaxed as I get used to the method/counselor-well, in theory :-P __________________ Lamotrigine: 300 mg Bupropion: 150 mg Risperidone: 1 mg |
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#849
Man am I not doing well today. I'm just in a **** ton of pain and nausea and barfing up everything. More pain then normal. But I don't have a fever so I don't think I have to worry about sepsis. Yesterday I was puking out these things that looked like furballs. Today its thin floaty things. Idk whats up. Mental health wise I'm not really feeling anything today becuase my pain is so overpowering I can't feel my anxiety or depression. I took all 3 Zofrans and both stomach meds as directed with food. The first 15 minutes before I first ate. The second an hour before I ate something bigger. Who knows anymore.
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#850
Damn. I just wrote this post on how I feel so much better and I'm talking to my partner, but that's just gone...
there was like this rush when they asked if I'm okay, and I thought about how great I felt when I was with them at first, but now I'm back to feeling like I was about it a few days ago where I feel like I am just not worthy of love from them. Or anyone. Maybe I just need to go back to hanging around people like me that KNOW life can be taken away in an instant so why bother needlessly suffering in the moment when there are ways to escape that. __________________ Live life for nothing but that sweet sweet melody. |
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