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Grand Magnate
Member Since Oct 2017
Location: La Porte, TX
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#1
Not sure if this is a trigger, but just in case:
I'm 46, and I've been dealing with mental health issues since I was 20. On the gamut of psych meds since then. In and out of therapy. I don't know if anything will help. Along with bipolar, I have panic disorder, OCD and also annoying peripheral neuropathy and stomach issues (ulcer history).
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Am I the only one feeling this way? __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#2
I'd say you are preaching to the choir.
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Poohbah
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Location: Toronto, Canada
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#3
I can relate to the feeling of things maybe not getting better. I've been depressed since 2017 and I've tried different meds and therapy.
But for some reason I hold on to the hope that things will get better. It might take time and I have to hold on as long as I can. I recently started Vraylar and my anxiety is lower which is giving me hope that I'll find something that works even if it's not Vraylar. Take things one at a time, go slow and be patient with yourself. __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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Monster on the Hill
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Location: by the river
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#4
Relatable. I'm simultaneously floored and amazed I'm still alive.
What would need to change for you to want to live (aside from the obvious "not be mentally ill")? Can you reasonably work towards that? __________________ [Insert thought-provoking and comedic quote here] |
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Location: Ontario; long-time member, just under other names
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#5
I feel the same. I just want to outlive my dog. I'm sure you want to live for your daughter. I'm 57. I don't want to live a long life either. My younger sister died over a year ago at 53 and she had a husband and booming career and everything to live for. I can't help thinking, why couldn't it have been me? (She died of natural causes.)
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Grand Magnate
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Location: La Porte, TX
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__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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I do hope posting here again, even if you don't stay a prolonged period of time, helps you know this isn't a battle you're facing alone. __________________ [Insert thought-provoking and comedic quote here] |
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Member Since Apr 2024
Location: Manitoba Canada
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#8
Hey there. Yes, I feel the same way as you. Can I just tell you first - I so appreciate you sharing your thoughts about this? Do you know how comforting it is to know I'm not alone about thinking this way?
I live with chronic illness. Since the past year, my ability levels have dropped and I can do even less than what I was able to do before. So things are definitely going downhill. I will also be 60 soon, so really ... not much chance of things getting better. Do you think it's possible we find ways to just keep going until the natural end comes? Like you, I am not actively planning/contemplating ending my own life, but I get tired of living too. Therapy has been helping me but I realize it doesn't help everyone. I wish it could for you. Can I also tell you that I respect and appreciate you for how you manage to keep going? I know you're not looking for applause but I had to mention it. I honestly believe it takes a LOT of strength and a LOT of courage to be a human. We are so vulnerable to our moods and thoughts and so many of us just fade away. I mean, being rich and famous isn't always the answer. Look at the rich and famous people who ended their lives ... so it obviously didn't ease their pain enough. Maybe people like us can just keep plodding along, see what happens next. I'm still open to the possibility that there are better moments further up the road. How about you? |
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#9
Yes, blue, so glad to hear from you again. Ive been wondering how you were doing.
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Grand Magnate
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#10
Thanks so much everyone. I hate to know that others feel this way too, but I am glad of the support and knowing others can relate to these feelings.
__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#11
I’m much younger than you and it really does feel so hopelessly tiring to feel that way. Like I imagine i have 60+ more years of this. I can’t even imagine myself having to exist the way i am for the rest of my natural life. What slow torture
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