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#621
I found an online free Gym Instructor. 30 minutes of Gym, then 34 minutes of active walking outside, 2,6 km.
I suppose this is the first day of my general better physical health. __________________ Never forget to structure your days! Be responsible: Paddle your own canoe in all circumstances! |
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#622
I saw my pdoc yesterday afternoon. He was in a good mood. I think Mondays are his good days. He said my mental health is fine and my meds are all ok but there clearly is something going on physically. He just left everything the same and said to see him again in 3 months unless theres an emergency.
I threw up 4 times this morning. Then I saw my therapist. I threw up on the way up. I had my Mcdonalds Halloween bucket. While I was waiting for her I went to the bathroom but I was ok. The session went fine. We just talked about the normal stuff. I threw up on the way home in my bucket. I slept good last night. Over 11 hours. I was without music because of my headphone situation so I had no choice but to sleep. I didn't realize how much my music screwed with my sleep. So I guess besides all this throwing up I'm doing pretty good. I am a bit anxious about Thursday but my anxiety is better then it was yesterday. I think the reason my doctor wanted to tie my shoe was because I was wearing Adidas Sambas and they are pretty sought after shoes and he wanted to take a better look at them. Idk. Thats what I'm guessing. Maybe just ask then instead of being a weirdo. Last edited by Mountaindewed; Jul 09, 2024 at 12:22 PM.. |
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#624
Crap! Home again and had power awhile and just lost it. It is a heat advisory day too☹️
edited: Power restored! Now let's hope it stays on. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen Last edited by Blueberrybook; Jul 09, 2024 at 05:05 PM.. |
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#625
My new pdoc called me today and told me not to take the requip with my risperdal. im scared im gonna get akathesia but i guess ill try it. shes so nice and i reallly like her!
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#626
Hi All,
Nothing really new to report. Still doing IOP + Individual = 10 hrs of therapy a week, still on same meds. Just got back from my in-person doctor's visit for my Adderall, and he refilled my other meds too. Got an eye exam done today so that's taken care of, and now i'm home ready to relax. I did a little too much in one day today (Therapy, eye doctor, psychiatrist), but it's at least over. Fun fact! My eyes are not exactly getting worse, but my brain is still overcompensating for what I really need. So we're having to play with my eye prescription a bit. But good news is, when I get old -- it'll be easy peasy to take care of. Hope everyone is doing well. Been awhile since I posted. __________________ |
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#627
So my GI office just called. And they scheduled me for a colonoscopy for this Monday. I know I want answers and stuff but I'm already worried about going under once. Now I get to go under twice in 4 days. Idk. I'm just kinda at a loss. Plus my stomach hurts like a ***** right now and I'm puking up everything.
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#628
I saw my psychiatrist today. He went over my bloodwork and said my vitamin D levels were very low so he sent out a prescription for a vitamin D supplement along with my regular meds. All my other meds are staying the same. I’m doing well on the med changes he made last month. He asked if I’m still self medicating with THC and I told him no because it was messing with me too much and making me paranoid and anxiety worse and making me feel on the verge of psychosis sometimes and he said that is good and a smart choice to stay away from it. I see him again in a month. He said everything else in my bloodwork looked good, my cholesterol is lower than it was a year ago which is good. He did mention that my good cholesterol is a little low though so he said to make sure I’m like eating fish and stuff that improves good cholesterol. So I’m gonna start doing that.
My current meds are : 150mg Zoloft 30mg abilify 100mg Thorazine 1500mg trileptal And now a weekly vitamin D supplement. Im doing pretty well, a lot less stressed than I was recently. All the stressful stuff I was dealing with got resolved so now I’m just trying to catch up on sleep. __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#629
Today was a really good day. It was hot as heck, but I managed to get out to an AA meeting and talked with some really nice people after. Wore a really cute summer dress and felt really pretty, more than I have in a while. Found a new smoothie place and treated myself too. Then dropped by the pharmacy to pick up my new thyroid medication - she increased it more than 20mcg, so hopefully it makes a difference. Had to call to make a bloodwork appointment so they can check my levels again in a month to see if she has to up the meds again. My thyroid levels were really off.
Just in a really good place. Been thinking about Giovanni a little here and there, but not as much as I used to. Things are good with my boyfriend, although I know the next couple of days will be challenging because he will be with his daughter, so I will use that time to make some extra money and continue with my writing. Also want to write my penpal, and keep up with my blog. Redoing my vision board with some goals and aspirations for the upcoming year, having one has been really helpful. Wouldn't hurt to redo that gratitude list too. Life is really good, I need to put that whip down that I beat myself with, it doesn't do any good for anyone. __________________ Tales of Love, Motivation, and An Interesting Journey - Please Subscribe to my Website on WordPress: Inspired Odyssey's Path to Wellness and Love |
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#630
I'm scheduled for appointments with another therapist for 6 or 8 weeks while my therapist is out for his hip replacement. That makes it feel more real.
I tried to talk about it but I'm not doing well at explaining this to him. I wish I could cry. I think I'm appearing fairly cheerful instead of sad. My meds make me too numb to cry. I don't know if I've ever mentioned that to him. I think it will be over in 10 weeks. I'd have to count again but I think that's right. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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#631
Pretty uneventful day. Dinner at Husband's mom's house because his sister and family are in town from Kansas. Felt sick afterwards, like I was gonna vom 🤢, but thankfully didn't. I'm not particularly fond of Sister-in-law and Family. I think they're kind of rich and snobby, but whatever. Things are always friendly and civil enough. And it's of course always nice to see my little niece and nephew. I just find extended family events draining.
Husband won't have any love right now. He's out in the living room watching some show. I went out there before and was like, "What ARE you doing?" and he said, "Watching my show. Want to watch my show with me?" And I kind of gave him some tender caresses and said, "No. I want to have sex." And he said, "But I don't want to right now. I'm watching my show." And I said, kind of pouty I'll admit, "But I'm HORNY." And he just kind of smiled and jokingly said, "I'm not a piece of meat!" Whatever! Lol. My last appointment with my current psychiatrist is next week already. Have to buy him a card. Going to write him a nice note since I realize I haven't been the easiest to deal with. He even told me once that he's been very patient with me. So I just wanted to thank him for being so patient with me and understanding and overall being a great psychiatrist, best I've had so far, and how much I'm going to miss him. It hasn't really set in fully yet that my next appointment with him is the last time I'm ever going to see him. I've been seeing him once every four to six weeks for the last eight years. And my new psychiatrist is a POS. I saw her once. She fukked me up so bad by messing with my meds (took me off haldol and sertraline cold turkey) that I ended up IP, but it was either her or the Indian POS who took me off diazepam and loxapine cold turkey IP, and I'd rather NOT for sure go through cold turkey diazepam withdrawal in my near future. At least with this other POS I don't know if she'll take me off diazepam! I guess I'll go to bed. Sigh. No love. Maybe I should go bother Husband again. No. I'll just go to sleep I guess. He IS watching his show after all. And he's NOT a piece of meat. Lol 😆 __________________ The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "I'm scared. I'm old. I want to go home!" 😁 - anonymous |
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#632
Another post. It's 5am and I'm still awake. Things are getting tough, and my mind is just racing like crazy with all these worries. I am knocking on mania's door with this 5am-10am sleep schedule. I am getting worried.
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#633
Oh my god. The wheels of my mania mind are turning with completely crazy ideas. My FAVORITE band in the entire world is playing in Amsterdam on Monday November 18th and I'm willing to take a trip there to see them. My grandparents on my dad's side came directly from the Netherlands. They were there during WWII. It would be cool to see my country of origin. I'm willing to take money out of my 401k for this trip!!!! That's how OBSESSED I am with this band. Husband won't go. He doesn't fly. He has panic attacks on airplanes. I'd like to go with someone so I shot my sister a text.
Hoping she's up for the idea. I know. COMPLETELY crazy!!!! But also exciting! I just don't want to go alone. __________________ The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "I'm scared. I'm old. I want to go home!" 😁 - anonymous |
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#634
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#635
@raspberrytorte - Not to be a downer, but you should consider the idea of going to Amsterdam carefully before buying a ticket, especially since your husband seems to be your biggest support, and he is not going. Have you discussed this idea with your husband? What does he think about it? Be careful you are not heading into a mixed episode since you were depressed just a few days ago. If it's not a mixed episode, remember you've been hypomanic a long time, and mania makes you make spontaneous decisions that may not be the best for your health.
I have power again! I'm so happy about it. Houston in the summer with a heat index of 105-110 degrees in very high humidity horrible without electricity. I'm doing pretty good. My mood is good. I started couch to 5K today. Well, actually I used a couch to 10 K program since that was the app I had already set up on my phone. I took an old cell phone (screen cracked) in case I trip, which is how I cracked the screen on the old phone. I will probably be so sore tomorrow, but I would like to lose 5-10 lb. and get my abs in better shape. Crunches helped the abs some, but not as much as running and walking did in the past. The first day wasn't too bad, 25 minutes total with 6 min total of running intervals. This morning I actually put on makeup for the first time in a year. I'm not sure if I am just feeling better or if I put in on because I'm getting a passport today at the library (assuming they are open after Beryl) and having my photo taken. I hope the couch to 10K and the makeup doesn't mean I'm heading toward mania. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#636
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There has to be SOMEONE who can and wants to go with me. __________________ The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "I'm scared. I'm old. I want to go home!" 😁 - anonymous |
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#637
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I dropped the Gym today, overslept. I used 37 minutes on the same route as yesterday, but went 200 m longer. 2,8 km. Guess if I am tired? Have to say that I am proud that I was able to continue today. YAY! I send my best wishes to all. @raspberrytorte, please listen to @Blueberrybook with regard to the trip to the Netherlands. Maybe it is wise to wait or perhaps not go alone. __________________ Never forget to structure your days! Be responsible: Paddle your own canoe in all circumstances! |
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Grand Member
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#638
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You must have posted your post when I wrote mine. I am so glad to hear that you will not consider to travel alone. __________________ Never forget to structure your days! Be responsible: Paddle your own canoe in all circumstances! |
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#639
I'm feeling a little better today. There is less coughing, and my nose is blocked less. It's not yet gone, but it's slowly getting better.
Yesterday was the first full day of wearing the compression stockings - they made quite a difference on my knees which were hardly swollen at the end of the day. So far, my right foot seems to be less swollen, but I'll know for sure how it is at the end of the day. My anxiety is still up but the Klonopin seems to be helping with the physical symptoms at least. Rexulti seems to be less effective than Vraylar so far. I see my doctor next week, and I'll mention that the swelling in my legs is still around, even though I'm wearing compression stockings. We could increase Rexulti or switch to something else. __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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#640
Hi everyone! I'm feeling pretty good after my endoscopy. I think the main endoscopy related symptoms I am having are a sore throat and being a little tired. I'm struggling to regulate my body temperature, but I think that's risperidone and/or physical illness related because I was already struggling with that a little bit before my endoscopy. It is worse though so it's something to keep an eye on.
Everything looked good-due to inflammation, they took one biopsy to test for infection, but otherwise everything was fine. If the biopsy comes back positive, I think I just have to take some antibiotics. The GI doc is willing to double my acid reflux med since my current dose isn't working anymore and everything looked fine. He said to see him again in 5-6 months. My friend claims I didn't say anything ridiculous so that's good too! An unexpected benefit was the IV they gave me. Fluids/electrolytes are a key thing to managing my physical illness so getting this IV did wonders! I actually felt better after the endoscopy than I have in ages! Outside of a chiropractor appointment, and a possible trip to the pharmacy, I'm going to make myself rest some more today. I'm thinking I'll go treat myself to an iced coffee too. __________________ Lamotrigine: 300 mg Bupropion: 150 mg Risperidone: 3 mg |
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