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Aug 16, 2024 at 08:30 PM
#661
I experimented with the idea of God today. I listened to the Christian rock radio station. One lyric went, "I try and count my blessings / But i can't count that high!" Haha! I find it comforting to feel that i am not alone. Walking my dog this evening i tried to see God in all the sights, with some success. I don't think i'll like a religious God, but a God of my understanding.
I'm procrastinating on laundry and all that i have clean are my colorful African kaftans from "Summer Hypomania 2022." So i wore one even tho i didn't feel like it. I felt pretty, in my nice outfit and my still-fresh hair. I haven't felt pretty in ages! A nice man who lives in the building and attends my support group stopped to talk to me in the lobby for quite a while and it was very pleasant. @Blueberrybook: Your daughter is growing up so fast! I'm amazed that she's driving now. Has meal preparation gotten any easier? I remember one time you said you were having to make three different dinners to suit everyone. |
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Aug 16, 2024 at 10:24 PM
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That is the best way to check your kidneys. I hope it comes out fine. Bizi __________________ lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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Aug 16, 2024 at 10:52 PM
#663
I haven't picked up the corticosteroid the neurologist prescribed. I felt the pressure to start taking it this weekend because, if it triggers manic symptoms, I have an upcoming pdoc appointment already in the book-crud, as I type this I realize he's out of the office for a month after my next appointment. My main concerns are the med triggering mania (or hypomania) and weight gain. I also don't want to add yet another prescription med to my list. Man, it's to bad my counseling appointment was the day before my neurologist appointment instead of after. She would have been a good person to process this out loud with. It's easier for me to cope with physical health symptoms than mental health ones, so it's easier to just say "I'll tough it out." But, my physical health is part of my quality of life...
On a different note, the mom of a good friend of mine passed away unexpectedly this morning. This family has taken me in for many holidays so I know my friend and her family, including extended relatives, well. My heart is completely broken for them. __________________ Lamotrigine: 300 mg Bupropion: 150 mg Risperidone: 3 mg |
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Aug 17, 2024 at 01:52 AM
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It’s Saturday early evening. I’ve been soooo tired all day which is so weird because I slept fine last night. Only woke up once to go to the toilet. I just have no energy. Tried to sleep on my bed this afternoon but with my 5 year old listening to his iPad and watching the tv it wasn’t going to work. So jealous my partner got to sleep in the spare room for just over an hour. I’m wrecked. Made some tea. Can’t even do a coffee at this time because I’ll never sleep tonight. 12:00pm is my coffee cut off. We were at a cafe and I ordered a latte. But the cafe has changed their coffee beans I didn’t like it. Landed up giving my coffee to my partner so he could drink it. Tried to make a mosaic mirror with my 5 year old this morning. Let’s just say it doesn’t look great. I still have to put the grout on but I don’t feel like it.
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Member Since Jun 2024
Location: Washington
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Aug 17, 2024 at 02:48 AM
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Aug 17, 2024 at 02:51 AM
#666
There are too many posts to go back to
But for those struggling big hugs! And for those that are doing well, very glad for you. |
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Aug 17, 2024 at 03:17 AM
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So I'm trying a method to just completely come off doxepin with my pdocs approval. I'm just completely off doxepin and have increased seroquel
He's fine that if that makes me too hungry we can increase trazadone. So that's a relief bc I had told his nurse that I had gotten down to 15 mgs but I was cutting the capsules and she freaked out. I have in the past messed with my meds usually to try to come off of them. I think he was like she's telling me and it will be less meds so that's good. Went to the wound clinic and it has grown. I asked them about getting in home care and they said the week after next we should be able to. I go next Thursday. My friend put the wrap on way too tight so they said just let the professionals wrap it. My son came over and got his pipe. He had bought weed. He smoked some here and broke down crying about Tiger his cat. The weed he got was definitely a downer. He ended up feeling better and I got him some panda express. It's his favorite. He asked about a visit. I don't mind in the day visits but I'm weary of overnights. They always end badly. I think we should give it more time. My bipolar is level. I do feel a little over medicated. But I just can't handle anxiety! Hopefully the skills I learn through cbt can help with it and I can get off more meds. |
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Aug 17, 2024 at 03:44 AM
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Location: Where the sidewalk ends
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Aug 17, 2024 at 07:09 AM
#669
Ugh my phone fell into my bucket. I woke up as soon as it happened so I was able to fish it out quickly and wipe it off. It was working fine but now its going slow. Idk if the rice trick will work or if I'll have to get a new phone. It smells awful though.
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Aug 17, 2024 at 09:12 AM
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Hello all! I posted here for years but slowly became inactive. It’s good to be back.
I attended my daughter’s wedding in April. She was so beautiful. It was a lovely time. I started getting sick about 2 years ago and my PCP kept saying everything was okay. I finally collapsed and went to the ER by ambulance. It was severe anemia with an internal bleed. It’s been a long recuperation process with bi- weekly iron infusions. I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’m on Ozempic now and have lost 47 pounds. It’s not a magic pill but it helps. I eat well 98% of the time and exercise on a mini- trampoline, do yoga, Qigong and weights. I got together with a group of women over 40 who travel together and I’m going to a luxury resort in Panama in May. That motivates me more to get better from my anemia. Been too sick for my beloved pool this summer. I hope everyone is well. Hugs to all that need them. |
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Location: La Porte, TX
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Aug 17, 2024 at 11:29 AM
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Sorry there are too many posts for me to reply to, but I've read them all. ((((HUGS)))) to everyone struggling.
I woke up tired this morning, but now I feel amped and up. I did have a cup of regular coffee, but that was at 8 AM and it's nearly 11:30 AM now, and usually the caffeine jolt from coffee has worn off by now. I'm still stable if not a bit amped this morning. I took a walk/jog and went to the grocery store for a few items and I controlled myself and stuck to my mental list of items I needed and did not overspend! And I forgot to write my list down, so it was in my head and I remembered everything, which I had less than 10 items, but still there was a time I couldn't remember a mental list of only 3 items to buy. And it is Saturday so the store was passing out samples: I got to sample chicken mole, a corn salad, banana bread, wine, cheese, watermelon. I practically had a mini meal courtesy of the grocery store  My grocery store is pretty awesome.And once again, I had to stop by the store pharmacy for a prescription, and now not only the head pharmacist but all the workers in the pharmacy recognize me b/c I have to go there so often. I really HATE having to go to the pharmacy so much. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Aug 17, 2024 at 11:49 AM
#672
I've been using Olly gummy vitamins. I've been using the melatonin, stress, and metabloism ones. They aren't bad. I've cut down from 30mg of melatonin down to like 6mg and I've just taken 1 valium and a couple stress gummies so far today and I've been fine.
My phone has been fine today. I went out for a bit this morning and it worked fine. Idk how. I do feel slightly weird but that could just be from lack of valium. |
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Crone
Member Since May 2010
Location: Some where between my inner mind and the solar system.
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Aug 17, 2024 at 11:50 AM
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Blueberry my pharmacy recognizes me too but I like it. It means they see me and go get my meds without me having to say anything and they know I’m deaf so if I’m at the drive up window they write things down. It’s a friendly place. We smile and wave.
I’m bored. I’ve two books to finish but I’m not into either of them. My dreams were fantastic and I wish I could do that, make 3D objects and wonder around a bookstore. I’m sort of wishing I lived in the twin cities again. But the twin cities of the past. There was a huge two story bookstore downtown. I could go to the parks. This time of year there’s mimes and clowns there. You can just sit and people watch. I’m antsy. __________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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Aug 17, 2024 at 02:04 PM
#674
@Nammu
It sounds like you have awesome dreams! I usually have pretty boring ones. I've got this one stupid recurring dream where though the versions are slightly different, I'm always still in high school and have lost the combination to my locker and get tardy to class. Those are the types of annoying dreams I have and remember. If I have awesome dreams, I don't usually remember them except for one dream I had where I could fly; that was pretty cool. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Aug 17, 2024 at 02:14 PM
#675
Flying dreams are awesome. I haven’t had one in a while
__________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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Aug 17, 2024 at 04:31 PM
#676
I can't remember dreams maybe it is the klonipin?or the haldol or the lamictil or the cogentin or etc.....
bizi __________________ lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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Aug 17, 2024 at 06:54 PM
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Me and my boyfriend broke up. It's been EXTREMELY hard. This is the second heartbreak I have suffered in a year. It has put a real strain on my sobriety, all I wanted to do was get completely smashed this afternoon in a bar, but I ended up driving to a meeting instead. I was very quiet and my head down, so after the meeting two ladies I know followed me to my car to make sure I was okay - I love them more than you know.
What I decided to do was go get a pedicure. I literally haven't had one since LAST MAY, ugh. Not only did I get a pedicure, but I got the "Heavenly Feet" spa one for $75 - I sat there for two and a half hours in the massage chair, with tears rolling down my eyes, thanking God for his Grace and this wonderful life that I have. I WILL NOT LET A MAN take away all I have worked so hard for; my sobriety means everything to me. __________________ Tales of Love, Motivation, and An Interesting Journey - Please Subscribe to my Website on WordPress: Inspired Odyssey's Path to Wellness and Love |
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Aug 17, 2024 at 07:03 PM
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@LadyShadow I'm so sorry about your break-up. I know it hurts. I'm so glad you were able to take care of yourself in a safe way today.
__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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Aug 17, 2024 at 07:06 PM
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Welcome back @Sunflower456 I'm sorry you've been through so much with your health. I'm glad it is improving and that you have something to look forward to. I'm so glad you were able to go to your daughter's wedding. I know that was a point of stress for a while.
__________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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Aug 17, 2024 at 07:29 PM
#680
congratulations lady shadow.I am sorry that you are hurting but you used great coping skills, very proud of you.
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