Bipolar Check-in #82

I never sleep well when the AC goes out, especially in summer. I hope you are able to get it fixed soon?

I never got hot.
Just too
Wired.

They’re
Gonna
Look at it today hopefully

I picked up my steroid half an hour ago. The pharamacy says it can cause an increase in my anxiety and can cause an increase in mood swings and stuff. I've been on a sterioid for some kinda viral infection but that was just 5 pills once a day. This is a set of 21 pills I have to take at certain times of the day before meals. Like today theres 6 pills and I just took the first 2 before breakfast. Then the pills keep getting less until by day 6 theres only one I take with breakfast. I've never been on anything like it before.

I didn't sleep too good because of the pain and I forgot melatonin.

Overall I feel ok right now. Not feeling much of anything

I'm a bit dizzy right now. But its only for 5 days. I do have a call into my pdoc and message into my pcp asking if I should be concerned about any of this.

I don't have any labor day plans unless my sister comes over. I used to go out of state but that was when my cousins kids weren't in school. I don't really like it when they come over for dinner. My mom invites them to come over at 2 for a 5PM dinner and its like 8 by the time they end up eating a burned dinner and I'm long asleep by then. My brother in law and sister both have ADD.

Sorry for the long post. Its only for 5 days

I ended up taking a left over pain pill and an extra sleeping pill. Worked like a miracle. I fell a sleep right away and stayed asleep until almost 11. I’m not groggy at all, wide awake. So not a lot of sleep but deep. I’ll take it!

I slept from 9:30 to 11 so over 12 hours last night. I feel a lot better! I also opted for Diet Coke instead of coffee at Panera with my lunch. It has quite a bit less caffeine than their coffee. Still feeling much improved after the 2nd day of anti fungal cream. Only one more day to go. My A1C is normal! No diabetes or pre diabetes! Waiting for my case manager to get back to me.

I got online to pay the bill for my meds, and then I remembered I have to re-register for NH Housing, so I tried doing that, but I had trouble and called. No one answered, left a message (they'll get back within 48 business hours, so probably Tuesday). I went down to what I thought would've been a place to drop off the physical paper to fill out if you can't do it online, but I guess I went to local housing and have to go to state instead. That's down in Manchester, and if I went down today I'd have to come back 93 in Labor Day weekend tourist traffic, and I would rather just wait until Tuesday. Hopefully I'll get a call then. I have to do it by next Wednesday. I should've done it earlier, but I was a little busy being psychotic. Stupid me.

Talked to the pdoc again today (I love how often we can talk even if it's just through the grapevine). Starting Lamictal, and if that doesn't help we're starting Depakote. She said she was going to give me a little bit of Klonopin, but take half the haldol to see if that's better and if not take the klonopin.

I feel soooo dead. But I did pay for the meds!

It's been pretty chilly in the AM here. I was out in a T and boxers this morning at just about dawn and was a little chilled. I think it was about 50F so prett nice sleeping weather.

I'm still stable and sleeping well. I'm reading a lot but not doing much else other than walking & jogging in the morning. Today, I am going to the library with my daughter. She's driving and it has been raining and might rain again and the roads are slick, so it's got me more anxious than usual. I had a panic attack this morning but I was able to get thru that one with deep breathing, which actually worked for me for a change.

Stability's a bit boring to update on. I find myself toying with the idea of halving my Seroquel again so I have more energy to do more things, but that is likely to lead to psychosis and H would not be happy with me if he found out I was purposely not taking the full dose of my medication, especially of the AP.

Right now this pain is outweighing any mental health feeling I might be having. I just want to sleep. My pcp got back to me. He looked at the xray and said yeah I have arthrtis and then some kinda injury thing but the steroids will take care of it. Hopefully soon

My mom is *****ing at me because I asked her to get me a valium I ask her to keep ahold of. Shes just like "why can't you do it" and "you worry about me dying." Yet she asks me to get her stuff all the time because she has the fuking cat on her lap and doesnt want to disturb him.

My mom called immediate care and the doctor was like "yeahhh thats a reaction to the steroids. He needs the injection instead." So I'm going over tommorow for the shot. They were pushing the pills real hard on me yesterday for some reason.

I didn't know you could get so effed up after just 3 pills.



I took a shower and it hurt. I was doing everything with one hand pretty much.

Flyyyyuuiiiiing high to the sky so fly hi hi
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Liver doctor got my blood results back and wants to talk to my Pdoc about my risperdal and cogentin! She asked for her name and phone number! Ugh oh…

Lover ultrasound came back normal. Ty goodness

Found this! Reported it to my liver doctor!

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Terconazole, an azole antifungal agent used to treat vaginal yeast infections, is not known to have serious interactions with other drugs. Oral azoles, however, have rarely been associated with abnormal liver enzyme elevations.

Fuuk these mental health side effects. I feel like a psychotic mess and I don't even have psychosis.

My stomach is a mess too and I've tried everything more then once

Not that steroid shots are the most fun physically so I shouldnt have read. Which I guess is why they wanted to try the steroids. But the shots wont eff with my anxiety.

I feel like pacing right now. I'm in bed trying to calm down. My BP is fine. Maybe I'll try some more melatonin

I emailed my therapist about 3 times today and I never heard back. She probably thought I lost my marbles. Marbles would be a good name for a cat. Then if it ran away you could be like "I lost my Marbles."

But **** these 3 steroid pills which wasnt even a full day, and eff this shoulder pain and eff whatever is gonna happen the next few days from the shot

Edit: my therapist got back to me she was all idk what to tell you but I'm guessing these symptoms will just wear off. The mental health ones she means. She said theres always the ER for medical stuff but I can wait 12 hours to get to immediate care. I think the psych stuff is slowing down but I wonder if Vanna White ever slept with Pat Sajak

The day was crazy as hell. Storm rolled on through right after I went to visit my church, black skies everywhere. Had a mental breakdown and almost hit someone on the road because everyone was trying to rush home before the storm hit.

BUT before that....

Brought up mental health when I chaired my AA meeting today. Talked about how we stay mentally fit to combat the thoughts that lead us to the first drink - was a really good meeting everyone participated. Then went to lunch with my usual friend, and FIVE more ladies joined us!! Was so much fun!! Was on a high so decided to go to my church and visit the chapel. BAD IDEA, let's just say it didn't go well, and it looked like the plagues were about to descend on my town when I left. Storm was real bad. Not the best ending to the day, especially since I was shaking read bad and cried a lot, but that's just MORE proof that I need to stay on the path I am on.

Hugs to those who are really going through it today - @Mountaindewed I hope you feel better soon, sounds like you're having a real tough time, you're in my thoughts.
@Blueberrybook - boring is good, you're stable, sleeping, and doing really well, so proud!!! @MuddyBoots you're in my thoughts often, my husband spoke through the grapevine all the time, interesting you say that.

Hugs to everyone!! Hope everyone enjoys their holiday weekend. Big barbeque at my AA group on Monday, I am bringing macaroni salad. Should be fun!

Mmmmmmmmm

Busy several days. Anxiety is still up, but I think it's slowly coming down...really slowly.

My wife has covid so I'll be sleeping in another bedroom for a while, but chances are that I'll catch it too. Doctors here don't prescribe Paxlovid for it, they just recommend taking Tylenol and rest for 5 days.

I upgraded my phone so I just copied everything over from my old phone to the new one. My old phone was just a year old but it had problems.

Like a lot of you, I'm also feeling lower than usual. I've lost interest in eating so I'm just eating enough to keep from feeling really hungry.

I see my pdoc and T next week, I also have a call about my disability next week.

Took 4mg of Risperdal , and my prn 5mg of zyprexa earlier she still wide awake. Had very little caffeine today.

I keep typing the wrong words

Work went pretty well today. I had to bring some grading home, and will need to go in on Monday even though there is no school, but I'm okay with that. Gives me something to do on Monday which will probably help with the depression feelings I've had the past few days.

Tomorrow, I am going to try the corticosteroid the neurologist prescribed. I looked at the pills and they are indented to be easily cut/broken in half. So, I'm going to start with half a dose for at least the first several days. And, I will only take it in the morning even though there is supposed to be an evening dose. Then, if I'm bipolar symptom free and feel I need it for my POTs symptoms, I'll increase to the full dose just in the morning. Right now, I have no plans to take it in the evening because I'm worried about blood pressure side effects while I'm laying down. I still would, ideally, only take it as needed. I'm not sure exactly what that would look like though since it's meant to be taken in the morning and evening so, if I get symptoms mid day, I don't think I'm supposed to take it at that point.

I'm kinda worried my moms face is gonna look demonic. Got violently sick after 2 Tylenol and some water. Idk if I'm having side effects from the steroid or a reaction at this point. Freaking out about those demons though. I thought I saw a couple walk by my window. They had Chipotle plates on their heads though.

The devil speaks to me? Obviously.

My moms face is ok.