Bipolar Check-in #82

I’m having a mellow day. Had fun dreams last night. A pretty good sleep. Today promises to be a sunny beautiful day. I’m getting groceries delivered as the car parking situation is a mess until Monday. They are repaving the parking lot which means everyone is competing to limited street parking. So I’m parked until Monday. Not going anywhere.

Be a good day.

OK, wow gotta keep an eye on myself. I'm feeling pretty good. Like way good way better than normal. I gased up the car and then was like, whoa! it's such a beautiful day, why not go to Starbucks? Well, to be fair, this was my first trip to Starbucks this month and I dug out a couple old partially used gift cards and had enough money on them to pay for my mocha. Was feeling pretty good and had enough money still on the cards I got the protein box to go for lunch later today. Driving home I got all entranced by the clouds. Though to be honest, this area does have some of the most beautiful clouds, I always miss the clouds when we visit H's family in Los Angelos. The weather may be enviable in LA, but you can't beat the clouds here.

Got home and folded clothes, yeah, feeling happy even folding laundry, phone rang and it was the pharmacy calling saying I had 3 prescriptions ready. They could have waited to be picked up and normally I wouldn't have gone out again after going out already today, but I was like, heck, it's a beautiful day, why not? So I went to the pharmacy, though I did the drive thru.

Then I got home and started feeling hypersexual, ugh and H is working today.

Gonna get daughter up for school soon, her first class only starts at 11:30 today but then, man I need to chill out. Probably shouldn't have had that coffee either. May drink chamomile then but maybe not because I'm feeling pretty darn good.

Ran into my mom’s next door neighbor who works as a manager at my apartment complex. I’m getting my carpet cleaned on Tuesday or Wednesday . I’ve lived here almost 3 years without it being cleaned and Ariel threw up 3 times yesterday on the carpet.

I have been diagnosed with COVID by my doctor. I am so tired of feeling sick. I finally went about 12 hours without a fever but it went back up a while ago. I have a weird twist on it that apparently some people have: insomnia. So I'm very tired but can't sleep. I did sleep well last night but that was after being up most of the night before. Today I can't nap although I'd love to. But hopefully I'll sleep tonight.


I'll be so glad to get through this. I should be better any day now. I can't remember when I got sick but this is day 4 or 5 or 6. I need to get my clozaril labs done but obviously can't yet. I have some stockpiled so it should be ok but I don't want to get close to running out as that's really stressful.

@BeyondtheRainbow

Sorry Covid found you! I had it the end of June. Feel better soon!

@BeyondtheRainbow
I'm so sorry you're sick. That sounds awful. I have never had COVID myself (knock on wood) but both my H and my daughter did, and they were both miserable when they had it. I hope you start feeling better soon and are able to sleep tonight.

Oo rainbow, feel better soon. Yeah I know what it is to always want a cushion and not run out of pills totally. Feel better soon.

Uh oh blueberry. Be careful

I'm still just feeling blah. I'm coughing a lot and I slept for a bit which helped. I just feel tired and worn out. My throat hurts and I have chills and just general stuff

I'm really pleased because i emailed our condo Board president about the chirping noise coming from the opposite tower and he and the building staff are right on top of it. He and the junior superintendent both talked to me about it separately. The superintendent of the building opposite thinks it's a dying smoke detector someone tossed out on the balcony. They're going to inspect tomorrow.

So that's nice, that they're taking the matter seriously. Hopefully i can get back to my regular routine with my dog soon.

Hugs to all who need them!

I had a good volunteer shift. I just got home. There were a lot of cats today. They were all really sweet. One was angry though, she was hissing and growling but she let me pet her occasionally, she was still sweet just didn’t like other cats.

I am exhausted physically and mentally. I’ve been up since 3am and it’s 7pm now. It’s been a long active day and it feels nice to lay in my bed right now especially since my back is sore right now. I’m not going to sleep probably till around midnight or 1am but it’s nice just to lay here. I’m gonna read and play some games, maybe watch a movie. I’m letting myself sleep in as long as I want tomorrow.

So it looks like I took a few steps backwards with managing my anxiety.

My anxiety is way up again and I'm experiencing other symptoms like with my stomach and my hemorrhoids are back after taking a break for about 10 days.

It's ok, progress on something like this will probably take a while and have its ups and downs. I guess I'm in a down right now.

Just taking things one at a time, as they come up instead of anticipating. I'll take whatever win that comes up.

I'm starting rexulti on Saturday but at a really low dose to find out whether it causes any swelling. Hopefully it'll work out.

Still feeling low but I'm listening to music and doing various things to stay engaged. Holding out hope that this'll improve.

Am I crashing finally? I am sooooooooo dangs leepy last couple of days. And no pressured speech as much as previous days.

Ugh the frustration though. I called my current NP twice about filling my risperdal. they called in wrong prescription so now its at pharmacy but wrong dose. Im supposed to take 6mg a day- 2 in am and 4 in pm at bedtime. are they trying to **** with me?

I just feel sick. Husband and Daughter are at the park right now. I declined to go because I feel so awful and worn out, like a wilted flower. I think I have the flea sickness. I managed to make myself vacuum today. Didn't clean out the cat houses or do the cat litter though. Really have to do that. I have like five submissions to read for the ezine and no energy to read them. I'm interviewing a band for the November issue and have to write those questions, but I'm nervous because I've never interviewed a band before. I usually do author interviews. I'm not a musician! I'm worried I'll sound like a damn fool.

Anyway, so not much is happening here. Just ill and itchy feeling and laying in bed like a lazy fck. Need to start on my new writing project too, but I'm still suffering from mush brain unfortunately. Boohoo.

@June08

Sorry to hear about the concert. That sucks. Is there anyone else you could go with? I'd be really disappointed too.

@BeyondtheRainbow

I hope you feel better soon! Covid is a bytch.

I just read that Vraylar is only supposed to be taken for two weeks for bipolar mania or hypomania. Thats all my Pdoc prescribed. I am seeing her in her office after two weeks so maybe it’s a coincidence.

ok i lied on accdien.t. I AM HYPERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

They say that (I think it's often 6 weeks) on most meds b/c that's how long the trials go so there isn't proof it works longer than that even though it is consistently used that way. It's just one of those things the FDA requires.

Did you check a covid test?

Oh my god. I'm so sick. Husband said if I'm not better by Monday we're taking me to urgent care.

Another night of COVID insomnia. What a crappy symptom. I'm going to be liberal with my PRNs.


My mom got me a milkshake for supper. It helped so much. I may ask her to get another tomorrow. It was the first thing that tasted good in days.


I just went to make oatmeal and spilled 2 lbs of chia seeds all over my kitchen. A lot of it landed on a towel so that was good. The rest is on my glass stovetop and I am not sure how to clean that up without my mom's handheld vacuum which I'll have to borrow tomorrow. What a mess.

I really hope tomorrow is a better day.

@raspberrytorte I hope you feel better too! Did you say you think you caught something from the fleas? That sounds awful.