Bipolar Check-in #82

Bluebird that’s fun! An iPad! I got mine a year and a half ago. It was a Christmas gift.

Bluebird I LOVE my iPad. I've had it for years, maybe since 2015, 2016? I had another one before that, but on a visit to my inlaws in LA, I dropped it in the Pacific Ocean (along with my iPhone). Needless to say, I had to get both another phone & another iPad. Kinda put a damper on that visit to So Cal.

I'm still in the land of stability, pretty level & sleeping around 8 hr/night. I don't like how stability blunts my emotions (on the happy side mostly) though I guess in reality, I don't feel depressed either & of course, I'm not manic as well.

My life is starting to feel like that song "Every Day Is Exactly the Same" by Nine Inch Nails. I could change it up, drive to the beach or something since there is a nice beach an easy 15 min drive from my house and it doesn't get crowded once school is back in session. Or take my daughter clothes shopping because she needs new clothes. Or clean. I don't know why I tend to keep the same routine.

I really do need to clean, but I still have that scrape healing on my right hand from my face plant into the sidewalk last week. I fell last Monday, and this scrape still hurts like h*ll. So do the scrapes on my knees. I'm taking Tylenol every day for the pain and it dulls it slightly but not much. Really ready to feel better and stop downing Tylenol daily. I don't remember it hurting so much whenever I skinned my knees as a kid (and I skinned them a lot, mostly falling off my bike or jumping off things).

Ah well, all things considered, my life could be worse. At least I'm not depressed about things and reading is still fun & relaxing.

My groceries were delivered to someone elses house. So I had to call Walmart and get a refund. They are good about stuff like that and gave me a full refund. So now I have a pickup for 2PM. I was irritated about it but now that its all set up I'm fine. Someone got a nice bunch of groceries though. Because even if they called, Walmart would just tell them to keep them because of food safety reasons. Eh whatever.

I wish I knew how to snap out of this depression though.